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My New Life - 22nd Oct 2017

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#1 Posted on:
Sun, 22/10/2017 - 21:40

Moorey631986

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2016-09-08

 

Hello everyone. I am back on here for like the zillionth time in 18 months....

But now I am ready to quit for good. 

This evening I lost £450 on online roulette and realised that enough was enough. I asked myself this.... Do I enjoy gambling? Do I enjoy losing? Do I enjoy winning?.... The answer to all 3 of those questions were NO! 

Admittedly there was a time when I loved winning because the money felt like mine. But now I am smart enough to know that any wins these days are temporary. I am addicted to chasing losses. They're going straight back in to the casino's pockets (and more!).

Anyway, talk is cheap....

Tonight I have made three big steps to help with my recovery. Two of which I have never done before.....

I have self excluded from my one and only betting account (which I've done before). 

I have contacted Gam Care to arrange some 1:1 counselling sessions....

And I have told one of my closest and trusted friends about my 10 year gambling history. Nobody else has ever known. I have lived a double life over the years. 

Tomorrow, as I am off work, I shall self exclude from all my local bookies in the area. I haven't visited a shop for a few months but I shall do that just in case. 

I am deadly serious about it this time. I am ready to give up. I feel like a beaten man and I don't want to live like this anymore. I would/could have so much money to do nice things with. But I've chosen the miserable world of gambling. 

Tonight, that changes. Tonight I get my life back. I aim to rekindle my hobbies/passions that I have neglected all these years. I aim to go out more and do more stuff instead of using "no money" as an excuse. 

It's time to set myself free from this ongoing misery. 

Tomorrow shall be Day 1.

Any help/encouragement will be much appreciated. I am so sorry for all those people I let down on here in the past, they know who they are. But now I am here to stay.

Much love, Moorey

 

Posted on:
Sun, 22/10/2017 - 22:07

screwball

Joined:
2014-06-13

Evening Moorey, Welcome and glad your here in such high sprite, you are in a great place now you feel nothing for what you are leaving behind, your totally right the only thing gambling does is take take take, it takes your time,sleep and your love, it does take your money but what ever you choise to replace gambling with will still take your money but it woundn`t leave you feeling sick, tired and loanly.

Look forward to following your recovery and hearing how life improves quickly for you.

All the best 

Chris

Posted on:
Sun, 22/10/2017 - 22:48

Moorey631986

Joined:
2016-09-08

screwball wrote:

Evening Moorey, Welcome and glad your here in such high sprite, you are in a great place now you feel nothing for what you are leaving behind, your totally right the only thing gambling does is take take take, it takes your time,sleep and your love, it does take your money but what ever you choise to replace gambling with will still take your money but it woundn`t leave you feeling sick, tired and loanly.

Look forward to following your recovery and hearing how life improves quickly for you.

All the best 

Chris

Thanks Chris! Yes, I am aware that I'll probably end up spending more money on basic things whilst I'm gamble free - such as shopping, clothes etc so I have to try and be careful on that front too. Haha! 

Posted on:
Mon, 23/10/2017 - 01:30

Scambling

Joined:
2012-06-21

Hi Moorey,

Great that you have started a diary to record your progress. 74 days I was in the same boat starting my diary here. Very lost, very depressed I was, however as time passes I am learning to forgive myself. The time has just flown by. Soon I'll be hitting 100 days! Your right to exclude from your local bookmakers whilst your in the right mindset. If you leave it then it's just an accident waiting to happen down the road when you have a bad day. I believe they ask for a passport photo and if you admit to a problem with gambling they are in breach of the license requirements set out by the gambling commission if they don't help you in excluding. Once a clerk told me to come back tomorrow to see if I change my mind just because he couldn't be bothered. He soon changed his mind when I laid down the terms of the gambling commission though! Keep your head up and post often. It's a great way to look back and reflect as time passes.

Good luck 

Scambling

Posted on:
Mon, 23/10/2017 - 09:22

Mixer

Joined:
2016-12-03

Fancy going back on the Challenge Moorey? Whether you do or not, welcome back, bittersweet of course, but let's see if you can veer off this painful direction and get yourself back on track! Wishing you well.

Mixer

Posted on:
Mon, 23/10/2017 - 09:45

Abstainer

Joined:
2017-05-10

Welcome back to the diaries Moorey. I posted earlier but accidentally put it in Scambling diary. I sincerely hope you can find your way forward ...stephen 

Posted on:
Mon, 23/10/2017 - 10:09

Eurohoop

Joined:
2017-10-19

Good luck moorey stay strong this is a battle we can all win .
Getting back into your hobbies is a great way of beating this . I am a keen fisherman and have recently started cleaning of my gear I am going to use this to take my mind of the footy at weekends .
Sitting on the water no smartphone or iPads just nature miles from any shops .

Posted on:
Mon, 23/10/2017 - 10:26

Moorey631986

Joined:
2016-09-08

Mixer wrote:

Fancy going back on the Challenge Moorey? Whether you do or not, welcome back, bittersweet of course, but let's see if you can veer off this painful direction and get yourself back on track! Wishing you well.

Mixer

I would love to get back into the challenges Mixer. Thank you. I'm awaiting a phone call to arrange 1:1 counselling sessions. I won't lie, I'm extremely nervous about them as they are totally out of my comfort zone. But I know something different has to be done as I can't go on making the same old mistake over and over again,

Posted on:
Mon, 23/10/2017 - 10:27

Moorey631986

Joined:
2016-09-08

Thank you Stephen and Eurohoop! I promise to give it my best shot. Need to take some inspiration from you boys. 

Posted on:
Mon, 23/10/2017 - 17:07

Moorey631986

Joined:
2016-09-08

Day 1 gamble free

Productive day in the end....

Went for a long run, been to the doctors regarding my anxiety, did some assesments for work this morning and took a phone call regarding sorting out 1:1 counselling from GamCare. 

The dark cloud is still hovering on top of me after my binge last night but I know that I can turn things around and keep it that way. 

I’ve put many more things in place this time around to achieve my ultimate goal. 

As compulsive gamblers, we want a quick fix to our problems. But I know I have to be patient. 

One of my goals is to have a worry-free Christmas. To not have to put on a brave face during the family festivities. To be able to genuinely relax and enjoy my Christmas would mean the world to me. The only way that will happen is if I continue to stay free from gambling. 

Moorey

Posted on:
Tue, 24/10/2017 - 09:44

AntAnt1

Joined:
2017-09-20

Hi Moorey.

 

You can do this bud. As you say there is no quick fix. Time is the great healer in everything. Take it day by day, hour by hour. Keep those nice thoughts like a carefree Christmas in your mind and use them as your goals. Do the counselling, I believe without it we have no hope. I find counselling a huge help.They are not judging you, they are helping you. Anxiety needs sorting, it can just get worse and it may also be the signs of something else as it was with me (Mental Health) so get talking to your GP. Take care my friend, and the best of luck.

Posted on:
Tue, 24/10/2017 - 14:43

Moorey631986

Joined:
2016-09-08

2 days gamble free.

Small beginnings....

But already starting to feel a bit more positive about life.

Been keeping myself busy these last couple of days. 

I have a week off so in some ways that’s not been ideal.

I’ve been doing lots of running and getting fit.

Onto Day 3....

Posted on:
Tue, 24/10/2017 - 16:18

changemylife

Joined:
2016-11-02

Well done Moorey on your show of determination. I found that the best way forward is to use the multiple self-exclusion. Also giving over financial control to a family member is crucial in the early stages.

It seems like you really want to end this gambling madness which takes over people's lives. I wish you well in your abstinence and recovery, whilst finding many other fulfilling ways to spend your time.

Posted on:
Tue, 24/10/2017 - 20:37

Moorey631986

Joined:
2016-09-08

changemylife wrote:
Well done Moorey on your show of determination. I found that the best way forward is to use the multiple self-exclusion. Also giving over financial control to a family member is crucial in the early stages. It seems like you really want to end this gambling madness which takes over people's lives. I wish you well in your abstinence and recovery, whilst finding many other fulfilling ways to spend your time.

Thank you. I do want to end this madness. It's not quite reached debt yet but that's because I'm managing to stop just before that. But I'm fed up of not being able to afford things that I should. I should be saving £300 a month but that's going on gambling. Not anymore!!!

Posted on:
Tue, 24/10/2017 - 21:19

Mixer

Joined:
2016-12-03

Hi Moorey,

I have a lot of time for you, my friend, and welcome you back to the Challenge. But much, much more than that - let's help you find yourself again.

All the very best, as alwsys.

Mixer

 

Posted on:
Tue, 24/10/2017 - 21:32

Moorey631986

Joined:
2016-09-08

Mixer wrote:

Hi Moorey,

I have a lot of time for you, my friend, and welcome you back to the Challenge. But much, much more than that - let's help you find yourself again.

All the very best, as alwsys.

Mixer

 

Thanks Mixer! Feeling much more confident this time around because I've made a couple of changes to my last couple of attempts at quitting. Including counselling, which I'm waiting to hear back from this week. 

I love being gamble free. I feel like a far more honest person. I feel like I have nothing to hide. Gambling makes me feel dirty and pathetic. Being gamble free enables me to look at myself in the mirror and not feel shame and disgust. 

I've loved these last couple of days! Drinking hot chocolate at night in front of the TV whilst listening to the raindrops fall outside. 

Such simple pleasures that we take for granted when we're too busy gambling our lives away. 

Well on the 22nd October that changed for me. I want to lose the anxiety and stress that gambling brings.

I'm ready for the challenge ahead!!!

Posted on:
Wed, 25/10/2017 - 14:16

Moorey631986

Joined:
2016-09-08

i'm now 3 days clean from gambling. Had a nice day shopping with my mum, went out for a lovely lunch too. 

I just wish I could have been more cheerful inside. I'm still smarting from events 3 days ago but I know I shouldn't beat myself up about it  I'll try and not let it get me down. If anything it'll serve as a useful reminder as to what gambling can do to us. I don't want this feeling ever again. It sucks!

 

Posted on:
Thu, 26/10/2017 - 12:19

Moorey631986

Joined:
2016-09-08

Coming up to 4 days without a gamble! 

It’s nothing to write home about yet, but I feel that I have to update this diary on a daily basis to feel good about moving in the right direction. 

I’m beginning to feel a bit more positive about things today. 

As compulsive gamblers, we want things to move on quickly. We want the days to accumulate far quicker than they do.

But we have to stay strong and patient! 

Anyone who is currently gamble-free is moving in the right direction. That’s all that matters right now! 

Today I’ve been dreaming of the Christmas countdown....

1st December is my birthday and in my eyes is the start of the Christmas countdown (which I love!)....

What better way to start the Christmas countdown than with my birthday, a big wage (for extra hours I’ve done...), and 38 days free from gambling. 

With all that, why on earth would I want to risk ruining that scenario for the possibilty of a few extra quid....but with the liklihood of being further damaged financially. 

No thanks! I’m going to make Christmas an amazing one this year. No hiding how I’m truly feeling because of gambling losses. I’m going to be sitting down at the dinner table with a genuine smile on my face as I tuck into my turkey.

Sorry, it’s a silly post. 

But I thought I’d write it down so I can look back at it in times of feeling low and in need of a boost.

Happy Thursday people. 

Moorey

Posted on:
Thu, 26/10/2017 - 12:54

Moorey631986

Joined:
2016-09-08

Also managed to get myself down from 11 stone 13lbs to 11 stone 6lbs with some hard work this week! Focusing on getting fit and trim again! :)

Posted on:
Thu, 26/10/2017 - 19:48

Moorey631986

Joined:
2016-09-08

I’ve just closed my PayPal account. I logged on to see the damage from the past few weeks and it was very ugly. Quite upsetting actually.

So I closed my account down. 

That way I don’t ever have to look at those deposits again. 

Maybe I should have kept them to remind myself of how gambling can destroy your finances. 

But I want to move on with my life. I want a completely fresh start. 

I associated PayPal with gambling so I wanted rid. Good riddance. 

My mobile phone is beginning to feel clean again. :)

I used to spend upto an hour looking through my thousands of photos on my phone, reminiscing about happy times with my family/girlfriend.

That all stops when I’m gambling.

I’m going to have an hour tonight looking through them again. And then I’ll make more time over the weeknd....

It’s the little things like that....

Off to make myself a hot chocolate and to settle down into a box set.

I’m feeling pretty happy tonight :)

 

Posted on:
Fri, 27/10/2017 - 10:27

Moorey631986

Joined:
2016-09-08

On to Day 5....

A busy day ahead which is always for the best. Looking forward to getting a week under my belt. 

I feel like I've let a few people down on here this year. I need to prove that I'm serious this time. 

I've still got my eyes firmly set on that Christmas dream. I want to go out in a few weeks to start some Christmas shopping, with a clear and happy head. No dark clouds. 

Hope everyone has a gamble free Friday. Let's all tick off another day....

Moorey

Posted on:
Fri, 27/10/2017 - 22:25

Abstainer

Joined:
2017-05-10

Thankyou for the post Moorey, much appreciated.

That is an excellent target Christmas Day and quite poignant, it will surely be a happier time for all of us without gambling ruining everything. Take care ....stephen

Posted on:
Sat, 28/10/2017 - 09:19

Moorey631986

Joined:
2016-09-08

Day 6 - must admit, gambling is currently the last thing that I want to do right now. Which is surprising given that it’s a Saturday....

I’m enjoying the peace of mind that not gambling gives you.

Posted on:
Sun, 29/10/2017 - 10:34

Moorey631986

Joined:
2016-09-08

Today marks 1 week free from gambling. 

First mini milestone ticked off. 

Getting urges to gamble today but immediately trying to find replacement activities.  

Sunday would usually be a big betting day with all the European football that’s on, but today I’ll concentrate on going for a run and getting things done around the house. 

Moorey

Posted on:
Sun, 29/10/2017 - 18:54

adam808

Joined:
2017-08-27

Hi Moorey,

Thanks for the post on my diary. Shame to hear that you're getting urges today - they're incredibly annoying aren't they?! I'm glad that you're staying focused and pushing them aside and getting on with your life.

How did the run go? 

Stay gamble free. Another week and you're halfway to a month!

Posted on:
Sun, 29/10/2017 - 19:29

Moorey631986

Joined:
2016-09-08

adam808 wrote:

Hi Moorey,

Thanks for the post on my diary. Shame to hear that you're getting urges today - they're incredibly annoying aren't they?! I'm glad that you're staying focused and pushing them aside and getting on with your life.

How did the run go? 

Stay gamble free. Another week and you're halfway to a month!

The runs have been going well this week mate. As have my gambling urges. But inevitably, they will always come creeping back into your mindset, especially during the early stages of your recovery.

Thankfully, I’ve not acted upon them which is the most important thing.

I’ve put my mind to something else instead.  

Posted on:
Tue, 31/10/2017 - 18:25

Moorey631986

Joined:
2016-09-08

Day 9 - Today has seen less urges. Although I can’t lie, there was a moment earlier when I was wishing I could put a coupon on the Champions League football tonight. But where would that land me? On a downward spiral to further losses and further financial trouble. 

It’s just not worth it. 

I’d much rather take satisfaction in looking at the amount of days I’ve abstained for and looking at my bank account to see no stupid transactions made during that time. It looks normal for once. 

So tonight I’m going to keep away from the football and watch something else. Maybe I’ll check the results before I go to bed. 

Another day defeated....

Moorey

Posted on:
Wed, 01/11/2017 - 17:23

Moorey631986

Joined:
2016-09-08

Into double figures. 10 days free from the evils of gambling. 

Busy day. No real urges. Onto the next....

Posted on:
Thu, 02/11/2017 - 07:28

Moorey631986

Joined:
2016-09-08

Day 11 - Things starting to look up. I can finally feel myself being there in MIND and body in situations with my girlfriend/friends/family.

I feel like I’m able to properly concentrate on what they’re saying to me, rather than just nodding, smiling and thinking about my next bet.

Waking up in the mornings are lovely. No guilt. No feeling bad about the night before. 

Long may this continue.

Posted on:
Fri, 03/11/2017 - 07:31

Moorey631986

Joined:
2016-09-08

Day 12 - Woken up with a slight hangover after drinking too much last night. Tough day at work so I thought I'd try and relax with a quiet night in in front of the telly. I'm not in work until later so it gives me chance to sort myself out for the day ahead.

Not much to say on the gambling front. No major urges which I'm pretty pleased about, given the European football that's been on this week. I've steered well clear of it to be honest. I have to for the time being. 

Determined to turn my life around and to enjoy a gamble free Christmas. I envied all those around me last year who were able to enjoy the day with seemingly very little worries. This year, that'll be me. 

Posted on:
Sat, 04/11/2017 - 09:47

Moorey631986

Joined:
2016-09-08

13 days free from gambling. 

Almost 2 whole weeks. 

It’s Saturday, which means that I’m thinking about betting more than I have been doing recently. 

The only thing I can do, for the time being at least, is to steer well clear of the sport today (somehow) and focus on other things instead. 

I’m going out for a meal tonight with friends so that will be nice. 

It’s tough going at the moment though. 

I’ve just got to try and ride through the storm and keep focused on what being free from gambling actually means. Less stress, anxiety, financial worries etc.

Another mini battle coming up today but I’ve got to come out on top. By hook or crook.

Posted on:
Sat, 04/11/2017 - 10:03

velvet7

Joined:
2017-05-26

Keep at it Moorey. Get through today and enjoy your meal tonight. Just think how you'll feel eating with your friends later trying to cover up the guilt and anxiety you will feel if you give in. Keep strong.

Posted on:
Sat, 04/11/2017 - 17:14

Moorey631986

Joined:
2016-09-08

Must admit I’m struggling this evening. Got another unexpected car bill today which has left me deflated. In the past that kind of thing would lead me to gamble recklessly to try and win myself a quick £50-£100. 

These are the big tests for me during this recovery. Especially during the early stages of my journey. I’ve just got to keep telling myself that whilst I’m not gambling, then things will continue to pick up. Maybe not now, maybe not in a week or a month. But surely over time, it will eventually. 

Day 13. My biggest test so far. 

Need to stay strong and NOT gamble.

Posted on:
Sat, 04/11/2017 - 17:33

S B

Joined:
2017-11-01

Hey Moorey!

You answered your dilemma with your own logical thinking:

"I’ve just got to keep telling myself that whilst I’m not gambling, then things will continue to pick up".

Couldn't be more true words...have patience, allow yourself breathing space.
Gambling would only make things worse.

Stay strong!

Posted on:
Sat, 04/11/2017 - 17:51

Muststop123

Joined:
2017-10-03

Keep it up Moorby and keep GF.

Imagine how you feel with a car repair bill and a big gambling loss to go with it? 

You can do this.

Posted on:
Sat, 04/11/2017 - 20:57

adam808

Joined:
2017-08-27

The days are stacking up quickly. Already on Day 13 wowza.

Trust life to throw in an obstacle like that... I'm glad you're thinking logically about it all and avoiding that temptation.

Keep it up, think how much easier that bill will be without blowing another load of money.

Posted on:
Sun, 05/11/2017 - 10:53

Moorey631986

Joined:
2016-09-08

Thanks for your encouraging words Pasimetus, Muststop123 and Adam808.

You’ve given me plenty of food for thought as I hit 2 weeks gamble free. 

Yesterday was pretty tough. Today won’t be much easier with all the football on either. I seem to have come across some bumpy roads in my quest for a gamble-free life. 

Nobody said this would be easy though. I just have to make sure I don’t gamble. It’s one simple rule. 

I’m in the process of planning out my day, making sure that I don’t leave myself much spare time. 

Moorey

Posted on:
Mon, 06/11/2017 - 18:37

Moorey631986

Joined:
2016-09-08

So, 15 days ago I made my last bet. Or rather, I had my last spin on roulette.

During that time I’ve had to reflect on a few things in my life. 

Such as ‘What does gambling actually do for me?’

The answer is NOTHING. Or certainly nothing positive. 

All it does is create unnecessary anxiety and financial stress.

But it also takes away my precious time.

I’m a far better person when I’m with people both in body and mind. Rather than constantly checking my phone for goal alerts etc. 

Then there’s the fake front you have to put up when you’ve just lost heavily. It’s all so painful at times. I hate it!

So why do I continue to do this to myself when I know that it’s bad news?

Christmas means so much to me and my family. I’m already envisaging a gamble-free Christmas, with over 60 days under my belt. 

On those thoughts I’ll drink to that (Cherry coke tonight haha!). 

Moorey

Posted on:
Tue, 07/11/2017 - 04:19

Moorey631986

Joined:
2016-09-08

I've just had my first gambling related dream since my recovery began 16 days ago....

I dreamt I had just put a £9 bet on a football match. I won't go into the exact details of what the bet was but it left me sweating on the outcome as I watched the game. I was absolutely gutted as I knew this meant I had to restart the counter at 0. 

Nedless to say I was mightily relieved to wake up to find it was all just a dream... :)

Posted on:
Tue, 07/11/2017 - 07:25

Muststop123

Joined:
2017-10-03

Well done on the 16 days, Moorey,  the days are stacking up.

Odd you should mention the dream. I had a similar experience at about the same number of days. I think the gambling demons realise you are being strong while you are awake so try and haunt you while you are asleep. Only happened once really vividly to point I woke up convinced I had gambled away a big chunk of money, so relieved when I realised it was a nightmare.

Keep up the fight.

Muststop123

Posted on:
Tue, 07/11/2017 - 21:52

Moorey631986

Joined:
2016-09-08

I can’t lie, having been to watch my local football team tonight, I had some big urges to place a bet on the match I was watching. 

Particularly as the guy sitting next to me was watching on in what looked like ‘excitement’, as his bet seemed to be winning....

Thankfully I stayed strong and those urges passed.

But it goes to show that you can’t ever rest on your laurels, whether you’re 1 day GF or 1000 days GF.

I’ve got a solid base of 16 days gamble free and I don’t want to let this good start slip. I feel like I’m making some decent progress. 

Day 16 over and out. 

I win again! :)

Posted on:
Tue, 07/11/2017 - 23:04

Moorey631986

Joined:
2016-09-08

I must say that one of the biggest reasons why I couldn't bear to even contemplate putting a bet on tonight was that I'm enjoying being a part of this wonderful forum. It's a big part of my daily routine and I am getting so much more out of reading about people's individual battles against their demons than any win I may get from gambling. More to the point, I'm getting so much more pleasure out of people clocking up gamble free days and hitting some big numbers. 

I feel like I've made some good friends on here. Friends who totally understand the struggles that I am going through. When gambling, I feel totally alone and at times very scared and helpless. 

On here, I feel huge comfort and reassurance. 

That's why I will continue to abstain from gambling. My life is simply much happier and far more fulfilled without gambling. 

Posted on:
Tue, 07/11/2017 - 23:56

YorkshireLad

Joined:
2017-11-07

Hi Moorey, thought I'd check in on your diary, wow 16 days congrats...you should read back all of them days from day one to see just how far you have come in a short period of time. The gambling devils have already tested you on mulitiple occasions with your car repair, gambling related dreams and going to watch your local team play. You have passed all the tests so far! Don't rest on your laurels buddy and keep smashing it!!

Posted on:
Wed, 08/11/2017 - 09:15

Muststop123

Joined:
2017-10-03

Well done on what must now be 17 days.

I know what you mean about this forum. I get a real high every morning seeing all the GF days mount up for so many and the active support for those struggling even if it is a kick up the **** for anyone who is getting tempted. Very different from the feeling of loneliness you get when gambling - that sound of absolute deafening silence ringing in my ears in the early hours of the morning when I realised I had gambled away another chunk of money, desperately asking myself why I had not stopped earlier when I was up rather than gamble every last penny frantically looking for bonuses or comp points to gamble.

We can be different people and have much better lives.

Posted on:
Wed, 08/11/2017 - 21:46

Moorey631986

Joined:
2016-09-08

17th day of being gamble free and for the first time I’m starting to feel a genuine dislike towards gambling and what it does to you. 

Just thinking about it actually makes me feel sick. 

I’m not naive enough to think that I’m ‘cured’ forever and that I can relax and live happily ever after....

But to actually feel like this today, I feel is progress because I’ve never ever had this previous feeling before. 

I feel so much more at ease with this lifestyle. It suits me far better than the one I was leading just 17 days ago. 

Life presents us with enough difficulties/challenges at times without us voluntarily adding to those....

Feeling really positive as I close out Day 17. 

Have a couple of nights out coming up this weekend which would have fazed me a little while back. But knowing that I won’t be gambling anytime soon, I’m secure in the knowledge that I can have these two nights out without worrying about the state of my finances. They haven’t changed and won’t change until next payday when I can begin to save again.

Goodnight my GamCare family.

Moorey

Posted on:
Wed, 08/11/2017 - 21:56

sjwsjw

Joined:
2017-10-27

All sounding positive Moorey! I had a few rough days emotionally in the very beginning, been much more stable of late but its still very early days!

All the best

Posted on:
Thu, 09/11/2017 - 10:04

Moorey631986

Joined:
2016-09-08

Day 18 gamble free. 

Getting a little adjatated now, wanting to speed up the amount of days I’m gamble free. 

I guess that’s part and parcel of being a compulsive gambler. We want instant success.

I’m looking forward to payday so that I can feel as though I’m making some progress and building up my savings.  

Posted on:
Thu, 09/11/2017 - 10:21

Abstainer

Joined:
2017-05-10

Patience is a virtue but in time your gamble free days will come to fruition. It just needs more of the moorey doing what he's doing so well.

Soldier on my friend alongside your GamCare friends We're all going forward together and ignoring the taunts of the addiction.

We can do this.

Posted on:
Fri, 10/11/2017 - 06:57

Moorey631986

Joined:
2016-09-08

Waking up this morning on my 19th gamble free day. My thoughts? Still feeling a huge dislike towards gambling. I had a moment the other night (Day 16) when I thought I had some strong urges towards placing a bet, but thinking about it, I'm not sure I even really wanted to. My urges were more towards wanting to quickly improve my finances and maybe getting slightly envious of the person sitting next to me at the football about him being in a more stable position than I was. 

That may not make a lot of sense to anyone haha! 

But I know I must stay patient and I will be rewarded. Thinking about it logically, even though these days seem to be going slowly, I actually can't believe it's been nearly 3 weeks already since that horrible Sunday evening when I was playing and losing £450 on roulette. I'm halfway to my initial target of next payday. 

Sorry, just rambling this morning. Trying to keep myself positive. 

Have a good Friday and weekend, friends. 

Moorey

Posted on:
Sat, 11/11/2017 - 10:32

Moorey631986

Joined:
2016-09-08

20 days that I've now been gamble free. A personal milestone for me :)

I have lots of good/happy memories the last couple of times I was at 20 days GF. I remember being at peace and far happier in life. I have that feeling back again today. 

Moorey

Posted on:
Sat, 11/11/2017 - 11:19

Abstainer

Joined:
2017-05-10

Morning Mooreyman The Magnificent....20 Days GF and going like a stream train, Woohoo, Yihaaa and let's rock n roll.

Great to see your positivity and desire to be free. The past is over, let's move on and be who we are. Life is an adventure and good or not so good it is all part of the experience

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