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#1 Posted on:
Thu, 30/11/2017 - 02:24

Heva162

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2017-11-30

I need to do this after years of problem gambling in secret i cant keep doing this any longer. I want to focus on my family and not feel that dreaded feeling that i have wasted more money on nothing. Not sleeping I feel so guilty nobody knows, I'm in so much debt hiding it from my husband....it time to stop forever now. NO MORE. Day 1.....

Posted on:
Thu, 30/11/2017 - 11:37

Heva162

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2017-11-30

Ive just told my mum, my sister is a recovering alcoholic so understands addiction. she took it relatively well. I feel some sense of relief but now i need to somehow tell my husband im not sure weather to write a letter or face to face. Hes away at thw moment so i have a little time to think.

Posted on:
Thu, 30/11/2017 - 12:11

S_J_B

Joined:
2013-05-25

Hello Heva,

Welcome to GamCare ☺

Great to see you already putting so important steps down as admitting you have a problem. Coming clean to our loved ones is the most difficult thing to do, but the honesty is best policy. Support is out there, for you and also for your loved ones.

Put some practical blocks in place. Self exclusions and blocking software on your devices..
GC also offers free counselling sessions and I find them really beneficial.
There was outside support as GA around the country. Everyone is very supportive.

You're not alone...please remember this.

Read around the forum, You will be surprised how much you can relate to.

Addiction is strong, but with hard work, honesty , determination and desire to get better - you can turn your life around and arrest it.

Take it one day at a time..keep posting and be kind to yourself. None of us are perfect and we all make mistakes in life, but there is always place for education in learning from them. ☺

Wish you well - keep posting!

Sandra

Posted on:
Thu, 30/11/2017 - 12:18

Muststop123

Joined:
2017-10-03

Hi Heva

Well done on telling your Mum and keep strong on your intention to tell your husband. I guess it depends if you feel strong enough to do it face to face or not. Doing it in person will obviously help when he has the inevitable questions but from experience I know how difficult this all is.  

I sure you are feeling scared, guilty, ashamed and a whole load of other emotions but remember this is just day 1 of your new life. If you are willing to take responsibility for your past actions and take the necessary actions to prevent yourself from gambling in the future then things will improve and you can start on a new and better life.

Keep posting and remember you are not on your own.

Muststop123

 

Posted on:
Thu, 30/11/2017 - 17:06

Heva162

Joined:
2017-11-30

Thank you so much for your replies. Ive also told my sister she has said she will come with me to a meeting she is in AA and has been chating to me this afternoon. My husband is away at the moment so i have a few days to try and get myself together and work on hiw to tell him and move forward hopefully. We have 2 beautiful children anf i basicly loath myself. But so far ao good today im actaully looking forwatf to 24 hours no gambling. Heva x

Posted on:
Fri, 01/12/2017 - 19:11

Heva162

Joined:
2017-11-30

Kiddies in bed the most difficult time for me alone watching boring tv and itching but i WILL resist!

Posted on:
Fri, 01/12/2017 - 19:16

S_J_B

Joined:
2013-05-25

Keep talking ☺

Take the fact of kids being in bed as YOU time..to chill, relax, calm down after the day (I half raised my nephew so know what a mayhem it can be lol).
Stay close by...keep reading or come along on chat at 8pm.

You're not alone ☺

Posted on:
Fri, 01/12/2017 - 19:44

Heva162

Joined:
2017-11-30

Thank you for replying currently watching coronation street. Your totally right chill time x

Posted on:
Sat, 02/12/2017 - 19:37

Heva162

Joined:
2017-11-30

Kiddies in bed pizza and wine time :)

Posted on:
Sat, 02/12/2017 - 19:43

S_J_B

Joined:
2013-05-25

Enjoy & relax!

Pizza sounds good ☺

Well done on your ongoing journey!

One day at a time

Posted on:
Wed, 06/12/2017 - 19:06

Heva162

Joined:
2017-11-30

Doing ok wrote hubby a letter to attempt to explain ita gone ok ish i guess. Hes a bit in shock i think. Glad he finally knows but that was so so hard.

Posted on:
Thu, 07/12/2017 - 06:25

Little miss lost

Joined:
2016-05-24

Well done for sharing Heva, it's very difficult to admit to having these struggles.
Hope your strength continues to grow day by day.
Take care.
Onward and upwards! x