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#1 Posted on:
Fri, 10/11/2017 - 11:33

SEL87

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2017-10-18

Hi everyone I'm now 20 days gf on my first ever real attempt of quitting gambling,I can't say enough of how amazing this site has been on getting to this stage as I've checked in every day reading everyone's posts,it definetly has helped me to not walk into the bookies.i thought id just start my own diary just to update it from time to time to keep track and jot down my feelings.at 20 days I feel great about not going near a bookies and I have to say i havnt really felt the urge to place a bet.i know there will be a lot more tougher days ahead so I won't start thinking that I have this horrible disease beaten as I know it never really is beaten,3 weeks tomorrow I placed my last bet which was 200 on a 3 game goal rush,it feels good to be able to watch the football without sweating about the result since then.i see a few people on here talk about relapsing which is something I hope I never do,good luck to me and to everyone else on here il update this now and again when I feel the need.

Stay gamble-free folks 

Stevo x

Posted on:
Fri, 10/11/2017 - 19:04

Smashed

Joined:
2017-08-13

Thanks for posting on my diary, it is hard trying to recondition your mind to think differently, as it's a lot easier to say " Aww **** it" as whats another £10, £20 and we all know how the story goes from there. Do what works for you, fight the urges everyday as they will come for you. Take it easy man.

Posted on:
Sun, 12/11/2017 - 10:32

Slot Fool

Joined:
2017-09-20

Well done Stevo, your of to a great start, long may it continue. Good luck.

Posted on:
Mon, 20/11/2017 - 19:31

SEL87

Joined:
2017-10-18

30 days gambling free

As the premiership football returned at the weekend I did have a few urges to bet,the weekends will always be trying for me but thankfully I drove home from work on Saturday and Sunday and stuck two fingers up to the bookies on the way past.

feeling pretty good at 30 days and well proud of myself,was able to go shopping on Friday and spend some money on my girlfriends Christmas/birthday presents(her bday is xmas eve)..I bought her something the previous week aswell so if I can get one or two things every week il be well sorted by xmas..she's still managing my bank card and only giving it to me when I need cash for bills or groceries.shes asking me regularly too about how I'm feeling which is great so I can be honest with her If I'm feeling the pressure or any urges to bet.im lucky enough to have someone as understanding and caring as her as I know if I didn't have her I would never stop gambling.

anyways I'm glad to get that weekend over gambling free,taking it one day at a time,bring on the next one.

 

 

Posted on:
Wed, 22/11/2017 - 12:27

SEL87

Joined:
2017-10-18

Day 32

Yesterday I had the little gambling devil on my shoulder telling me to bet on the football last night,there was a lot of matches on and I had planned to take my younger brother to the cinema so I was going to need my bank card from my gf,but I had €30 and knew it would be enough,the thoughts were creeping in to ask for it anyway to place a football bet but thankfully I resisted and went to the cinema with my wee bro and am happy to say had a great evening gamble-free and the €30 was more than enough,going to have to keep strong and fight these urges for a long time as I know 1 bet for me is never enough as it just starts the ball rolling and the next thing I would know is I'm down 2 grand chasing losses,not yesterday and not today gambling devil on my shoulder.i will resist and I will enjoy my days without the awful feeling at the pit of my stomach wakening up knowing you've to go to work and think about what was lost..not anymore..I was able to buy my gf another birthday/xmas present today,feels so good to spend money on her and my family instead ******* it away in the bookies.

 

I'm Stevo and I'm a compulsive gambler and today I will not bet.bring on tomorrow!

 

Posted on:
Thu, 30/11/2017 - 18:00

SEL87

Joined:
2017-10-18

40 days!!  

 

40 days without a bet,watching the football stress free is great,no worries on the outcome of the match and just being able to enjoy sport for what it is brings me back to before I ever gambled.feeling great again personally aswell no real urges to gamble although at times after a result of something it would pop into my head awh Jesus I wonder what crazy odds for that would have been but then I just shut it down and say to myself who cares,not me anymore! 

I've got most of my xmas shopping done still just a few things to get for my girlfriend so il hopefully have her sorted in the next few weeks,approaching my 30th birthday aswell (13th December) I'm glad I've finally copped on and stopped giving the bookies my money,only took me 12 years!hope everyone else is staying gamble-free and to anyone just starting out my sympathies are with yous it's a horrible place to be,just know it can and will get better and to take each day as it comes!

 

 

Posted on:
Mon, 04/12/2017 - 19:03

SEL87

Joined:
2017-10-18

44 days 

Had a good weekend no urges to gamble and my girlfriend threw me a surprise 30th birthday party on Saturday,I was totally oblivious to anything as my birthday isn't until Wednesday week ha she caught me well,had a great night with family and friends,lots of drinks and lots of laughs were had.I've a much sounder mind frame now I don't gamble anymore,life is good again less stress and more quality time with my loved ones instead of my mind being elsewhere,this is definetly the longest I've ever gone without betting.

Hope everyone on here is staying strong and fighting off the urges.may peace and happiness be with yous all and gambling without.

Stevo 

X

Posted on:
Mon, 11/12/2017 - 11:41

SEL87

Joined:
2017-10-18

51 days gamble free

At the start on day 1 this seemed like a milestone too far away for me t get to and low behold I'm here,over 50 days without betting is hard to believe but I've done it,51 days of no stress no mornings of waking up with the horrible guilty feeling in my stomach after losing a fortune the night before.thank god for this site is what I will say because logging on and reading everyone's stories has definetly helped me so thanks to you all.

Had a few urges on Saturday to bet my friends were talking about what to back on the football and when I was leaving work it was going through my head to just go and place a wee safe double sure be no harm in that,but thankfully I said to myself there and then absolutely no chance,not today will I be doing that and hopefully not ever.was out for our staff party on Saturday night then and had a great night still suffering today though but at least it's not suffering mentally from the horrible gambling disease that I used to have so long ago now.

100 days doesn't seem as far away as what 50 days did at the start,just taking it one at a time is the way to go.

Posted on:
Mon, 11/12/2017 - 19:53

Mouth from the south

Joined:
2017-12-11

Nice one Stevo, I'm starting today hope IL b able to do same

Posted on:
Tue, 12/12/2017 - 06:52

Little miss lost

Joined:
2016-05-24

Well done - 50 days is a great achievement!!
Your posts sound so upbeat. You know what you have to do and you're doing it. Results = gifts for your girlfriend, quality time with family and peace of mind. Give yourself a pat on the back, next step 100 days - bring it on! X

Posted on:
Tue, 12/12/2017 - 11:29

Stephen 67

Joined:
2017-05-10

Congratulations Sel on 50 days gamble free.

With all our sad memories of gambling it should be a doddle but it isn't. The addiction will try everything to get us back gambling so we must forever be on our guard. Just one bet and it can all come tumbling down around us.

Wishing you a great birthday tomorrow and happy times over christmas. 

Posted on:
Tue, 12/12/2017 - 13:00

SEL87

Joined:
2017-10-18

Thank you mouth I hope you can overcome this addiction just take it one day at a time and believe in yourself that you don't need gambling in your life.

Thank you little miss lost,yes it's great being able to afford the presents for xmas as it wasn't looking good for it 52 days ago I was a lost soul miserable and depressed from losing everything again that I worked so hard for,so getting to this point feels amazing.

Thanks abstainer the big 30th tmoro I'm glad I'm finally seeing sense and gambling for what it is no matter how much the stake starts at..hope your feeling good again I'm following your diary on here I was sad to hear of your relapse and most importantly your health situation,wishing you a full recovery and happy health for the future,you've done very well not to feel sorry for yourself and revert back to gambling which a lot of people would struggle with.

Posted on:
Tue, 12/12/2017 - 14:55

chartom3

Joined:
2015-03-11

Thanks for the encouaging post on my diary ..... well done on your 52 days gamble free great going, reading through you diary we are similar in that we gambled on sport (mainly football),i hope to get back to watching a match again for what it is and not sweating on how many goals,corners,cards etc there might be. Keep up the good work mate you seem to have came a long way these past 52 days,with proper blocks in place and the support of our  gamcare friends we can change things for the better.Have a great gf 30th birthday  tomorrow you deserve it.

Posted on:
Sun, 24/12/2017 - 21:13

SEL87

Joined:
2017-10-18

64 days from the devil's work

I find myself on xmas eve sitting with my girlfriend, stepson and little dog chilling out eating rubbish and watching movies after a hard few days at work,having spoiled herself tday as it was her birthday I'm so glad I gave up the gambling 64 days ago or I'm pretty sure I wouldn't have been able to afford the luxury of buying her lovely gifts and being comfortable with my finances at xmas,i havnt been on the forum as much the last week or so just been busy sorting things,I hope everyone on here is still gamble-free and to anyone new starting their journey then good luck to yous,life is so much better without gambling.happy xmas and peace be with yous all,here's to a gamble-free end to 2017 and gamble-free rest of our lives.

Posted on:
Sun, 24/12/2017 - 22:01

RSmith39

Joined:
2017-12-24

 

Hi Stevo. Just joined but wanted to say well done and have a great Xmas. I’ve just stopped my sky sports subscription as don’t think I can watch two flies up a wall without having a bet. Always been a Castleford rugby league fan and kidded myself I had the sky to watch their matches ... promised myself if I make a year gamble free i’ll buy season tickets for my dad and kids (used to go with my dad, but cheaper to watch on tv and have a few bets).  You seem nice and chilled, so hopefully i’ll get there in a couple of months.

Anyway, keep it up .... at 30 you’ve done great to get to this point ... took me a fair bit longer to come to my senses.

Richard

Posted on:
Sat, 30/12/2017 - 20:53

SEL87

Joined:
2017-10-18

70 days winning

70 days since my last bet,can't believe I've made it this far,I didn't think I could beat it but with every passing day it definetly gets easier.

No urges to gamble at all and I have saved a little over the past couple of months which is great after a lot of presents were bought over xmas and my girlfriend's birthday.Had a good xmas,went out with friends on boxing night and made up with a friend I hadn't been speaking to for 4 years,we fell out at another friend's wedding those years ago and didn't speak since but thankfully we put our differences aside and shook hands and spoke,he was one of my best friends for a long time in my teens and early 20s so I'm glad we buried the hatchet.

Glad to be at 70 days winning,maybe this is truly the only way to beat the bookie and keep your own money to yourself.Looking forward to a gamble free 2018 happy new year to everyone on here.

Posted on:
Tue, 02/01/2018 - 20:20

chartom3

Joined:
2015-03-11

Well done on 73 days gf mate,keep going the bigger distance you can put between you and your last bet the better you will feel ..... i wish you a happy gamble free new year, your doing great.

Posted on:
Sun, 07/01/2018 - 17:01

SEL87

Joined:
2017-10-18

78 days

Still free from gambling,have the odd thought about placing a bet or thinking on what odds this or that team would be but I keep managing to overrule these thoughts with the rational side of my brain,I'm glad I'm thinking straight again and not in any gambling trance!i used to check the odds on a certain website every single day of who was playing each day and think about who I was going to back,I also used to do the same lotto numbers every Tuesday and Friday spending €30 each day on lotto alone..I've never checked if my numbers have ever come up since and I never will,i didn't think I could ever stop and still can't believe I've gone 78 days without betting.il never get too ahead of myself as I know it's always going to be there in the back of my mind teasing me to bet..I see so many people on here talk about relapsing and it's my biggest fear,I don't know how I would cope if I ever did relapse but I'm hoping il have the strength to keep going through each day without betting.78 days without the horrible stress of losing money has made me so more relaxed and happier aswell,things are great between myself and my girlfriend and she's very proud of me for going so well.

Abstaining from gambling for 2018 is my main priority for the year along with saving each week towards a deposit for a mortgage which is going well,26 weeks saved now so half a year done,its flew in.

Hope everyone has had a great xmas and new year I'm with you all in this fight.

 

Posted on:
Sun, 07/01/2018 - 17:17

Stephen 67

Joined:
2017-05-10

Congratulations Sel on 78 days gamble free. You are doing really well.

Thank you for posting on my diary, I appreciate the support. It is maddening to think where I could be if I wasn't so stupid. I can be so positive and determined but if I get in the wrong frame of mind than I can lose the plot. Hopefully I have finally seen the light. Looking forward to sharing the journey with yourself, and all our gamcare friends, in 2018.

Wishing you every success ...stephen 

Posted on:
Sun, 07/01/2018 - 18:02

SEL87

Joined:
2017-10-18

Thank you Stephen it was disappointing to see that you had relapsed and scary that you did as you are great on this sight giving everyone support and have some great words of wisdom for all to see I hope you can refrain from losing the plot in future as since I've joined this site it does feel like a big family we're all in and we're all against the one thing so it's great to have the support of the likes of yourself..keep refraining bud the days will soon clock up again and your mind will continue to ease.

Posted on:
Mon, 08/01/2018 - 18:26

Slot Fool

Joined:
2017-09-20

Congrats on 79 days. That's awesome work, well done. You should be proud of what you have achieved so far. Keep going, all the very best.

Posted on:
Tue, 09/01/2018 - 11:51

chartom3

Joined:
2015-03-11

Well done on 80 days mate, great work your doing great .... keep moving forward and getting further away from that gambling devil with each day that passes ......

Posted on:
Fri, 12/01/2018 - 16:13

SEL87

Joined:
2017-10-18

Thank you chartom for your kind words,it's great to have your support.

83 days ago I finally wised up.

Hello everyone who reads my diary,today is probably the first day in 83 days that I've had a real strong urge to bet,I'm not going to because I'm not going to.ive a few bills to pay this week on top of having to sort out my car in the coming weeks I.e servicing and fixing a few things with it,I can't complain much about my car though I've had it 5 years with very little bother.my and my girlfriend are heading to Paris in a few weeks aswell and I booked off a few days from work for upcoming weddings and stag dos il have this year and the urge has come on me today to try and have a wee double or try and get out of paying my bills by making free money from sports betting,but as my now wise mind has copped on to the gambling devil I shut down any urges and just get on with my daily routines,just need to not look at odds on a certain website and il be fine...I know if I ever did relapse I would more than likely spiral into a binge of betting which is why it's important for me to keep going down the gamble free path.hope everyone's January isn't too bleak,I'm happy to be free of gambling for 83 days and counting.

Posted on:
Fri, 12/01/2018 - 16:20

RSmith39

Joined:
2017-12-24

Congratulations on the 83 days and really interesting post ... I know exactly what you mean ... I posted on Stephen’s diary earlier as he had a small relapse recently ... I know if I did i’d think I was back to zero so might as well go at it full pelt! It looks like you’ve got lots of great things lined up ... if you gambled you might have a bit more, but the likelihood you’d be skint for them! Easy to get complacent, so interesting that you can get tempted out of the blue so long down the line ... you’ve done great to ignore the itch, and you’ll be into 3 figures before you know it. Rich

Posted on:
Fri, 12/01/2018 - 16:29

SEL87

Joined:
2017-10-18

Thanks rich yeah it's a tricky one because this is the first time I've ever given up gambling and am afraid of relapsing as I've read so many stories on here of so many wise people who have relapsed so it's something I don't want to do,yes similar to you I'd probably definitely get carried away with it..yes a lot to look forward to this year which means I need every penny I earn which means I need to keep doing what I'm doing and not give in to the itch..thanks for the support mate.

Posted on:
Wed, 24/01/2018 - 18:15

SEL87

Joined:
2017-10-18

95 days

A bit surreal to have gone so long without gambling,feeling good about it still get the urges and thoughts about it but still fighting them off daily.a friend of mine has been winning a lot recently and it always makes me think I wonder if I can have a small bet now and again without getting into a chasing losses spiral,I know I can't but sometimes wish I didn't have this addiction problem..anyways things are good in my life away from gambling and being away from it makes it easier and less stressful in life,not as exciting without the gambling but that comes hand in hand with losing I suppose and I don't want to lose ever again so by abstaining I'm sure il always be winning!hope all fellow gamcare addictees are ok and gamble-free no matter how many days if it's 1 or 1000 at least your here and not gambling today. 

Posted on:
Mon, 29/01/2018 - 10:36

chartom3

Joined:
2015-03-11

Hi mate .... well done on 100 days gamble free great achievment, 100 days of winning, keep fighting those urges and reaping the rewards .... all the best.

Posted on:
Mon, 29/01/2018 - 18:25

SEL87

Joined:
2017-10-18

Thanks chartom I'm amazed I've gone so long all I want to do now is keep going and not let that counter go back down to zero..100 days gamble free feels great still taking it day to day though as I still get the urge but still never beating my own mindset yet,the Super Bowl is on this weekend and I've always gambled on the American football so it's gona be a tester of a weekend I think,still think sometimes I could have one bet every weekend of 25 pound or so and just be done with it if it loses and great if it wins lift it and leave, have another bet the following weekend..this is what's currently going on in my mind but I'm still refusing to bow down to the addiction.

Posted on:
Mon, 29/01/2018 - 23:16

Stephen 67

Joined:
2017-05-10

Congratulations Sel on 100 days gamble free...stephen 

 

Posted on:
Tue, 30/01/2018 - 06:46

Ineffable

Joined:
2015-02-21

Congrats on 100 days!!!

Posted on:
Tue, 30/01/2018 - 09:37

RSmith39

Joined:
2017-12-24

Great result, well done.  Know what you mean about the small bets, I feel the same .... what's really the point though ... you could only win a relatively small amount, whilst the downside would be a major relapse, setting the counter to zero, so best to stay gamble free.  Cheers.  Rich

Posted on:
Tue, 30/01/2018 - 10:19

Took a wrong turn

Joined:
2012-02-22

Congrats SEL on passing 100 days, be proud of yourself.

Wilsy

Posted on:
Tue, 30/01/2018 - 22:13

SEL87

Joined:
2017-10-18

Thank you all for the kind words of encouragement and support this website and all you kind people are the main reason why I've been able to stop gambling so I thank you all and hope you all can keep going with me on the gamble free path,it's such a better way of life.

101 days done not much to report no gambling thoughts just been working away and at my footy training tnite there and after our match on Sunday past there the legs are feeling very heavy,it's a good feeling to have again though as it shows I'm starting to get back a little bit of fitness after the xmas break. Everyday gamble-free is another day I'm winning.

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Wed, 31/01/2018 - 13:25

Took a wrong turn

Joined:
2012-02-22

Hi Stevo, thanks for popping on my diary and a big congratualtions on a massive 101 days gamble free, you are a legend!

Wilsy

Posted on:
Thu, 08/02/2018 - 19:13

SEL87

Joined:
2017-10-18

110 days

Sorry folks this is going to be short and sweet and also apologies for not being on the forums much this week I'm currently on holidays with my better half,at the minute sitting in Paris having a pint after a long day at Disneyland,tomorrow we will be getting the train and heading to Brussels for a few days.hope everyone on here is keeping well and still gamble free.

Posted on:
Fri, 02/03/2018 - 22:40

SEL87

Joined:
2017-10-18

132 days

As days add up gamble free I find myself coming on this forum less and less,very little urges to gamble just the ongoing thought of maybe I could just have a 25 quid footy bet every Saturday but still rejecting this thought thankfully..saving is going well,it’s amazing how much you can save staying out of the bookies it really has opened my eyes for the first time in 10 years,happy to be in this position right now and hopefully if I keep going this time next year i will have achieved my goal of saving enough money for a deposit for my own house.

For anyone just starting their gamble free journey reading this my advice is to give ur bank card and credit cards to someone close to you and have a limit of what you can get access to every week,Keep the head down in the early weeks and before you know it you will have a month racked up,take pride in the number and just keep fighting the urges because they will always be there.

Posted on:
Sat, 03/03/2018 - 10:48

chartom3

Joined:
2015-03-11

Hi mate thanks for popping by my diary ...... good to see you racking up those gamble free days and enjoying all life has to offer, also good to see your saving is going well , trying to save myself and as you say really is amazing how much we can put by when we are not gambling.I also sometimes think i could have a small football bet on a Saturday and just leave it there but we both know thats not the case as we cant control it. Keep up the good work mate you are doing great .... have a good weekend.

Posted on:
Tue, 06/03/2018 - 10:26

Stephen 67

Joined:
2017-05-10

Congratulations Sel on 136 days gamble free. 

You have certainly done it by the book. Showing honesty and openness towards your partner, putting blocks in place and having your finances regulated. All this has kept you one step ahead of the addiction. 

In answer to your query about my changing name and thread. It's in the mind obviously but it helps me to see it has a new beginning with fresh hope.

Posted on:
Tue, 06/03/2018 - 11:06

Took a wrong turn

Joined:
2012-02-22

SEL87, you are doing so, so very well, really pleased for you

Wilsy 

Posted on:
Wed, 07/03/2018 - 20:58

SEL87

Joined:
2017-10-18

Day 137

Alls good no real gambling urges but I’ve my friends stag do at the weekend which a lot of my mates will be gambling,I’m looking forward to banter we’re going to have but also a little worried about gambling as I know thel be going to the bookies on Saturday to do their football bets and I don’t know how I will react after a few drinks in me,hoping to stay strong and abstain.It will be nice to have a few days off work and relax with my friends I just hope I don’t give in to temptation.

Posted on:
Wed, 07/03/2018 - 21:53

Compulsivegambl...

Joined:
2018-02-15

IYou’ve done so well to reach 137 days mate. Don’t give up, alcohol lowers inhibitions so don’t drink too much and stay in control. I’m on day 20 myself, but have given up for over a year before. 

I also no longer drink very much for health reasons, but I do find drinking does lead to stupid decisions, so just make sure that you don’t drink too much , but at the same time enjoy yourself!

Posted on:
Thu, 08/03/2018 - 10:03

Took a wrong turn

Joined:
2012-02-22

Hi SEL87,

Thanks for posting on my diary we are doing so very well and just think how pleased you will be to have the banter on the weekend but also how elated you will be when you get to Monday and report you are still gamble free. I know you'll be okay because you are determined not to give in.

Keep up the good work.

Wilsy

Posted on:
Mon, 11/06/2018 - 20:55

SEL87

Joined:
2017-10-18

Hello all I haven’t wrote on here in quite some time,although I’ve been checking in every week on the 2018 challenge to keep an incentive for myself to keep logging in,I can report that I’m doing well and have little to no urges whatsoever especially now the football is over..even though the World Cup is 3 days away which I’m really excited about as I’ve found the love of watching football again without having a stupid bet on and stressing out over the game,I now relax and enjoy it for what it is.233 days since I last walked into the bookies.i know there’s always going to be a niggle there to just do one wee bet but so far I’ve declined each of those urges thankfully,it really is a dark and horrible place to be when ur in a chasing losses spiral and you cannot stop even though you want to,it was the hardest thing to do those first 2 months gamble free but after that it’s fairly easy to just say every day that I will not gamble today.since I stopped gambling I’ve been able to save 6500 quid which is all going towards a mortgage deposit which will hopefully be saved by this time next year..things are looking up for me and it’s all thanks to being my able to stop gambling with huge thanks to this website which was instrumental in doing that for 4 months or so,the only reason I haven’t been on it is because I don’t feel I need to be.

I hope anyone who reads this who has a problem will see the light that life is so much better without a gambling addiction and if your on here you do need help,for yourself and for your loved ones no matter how much you win you will always lose in the end.take the help and help yourself.