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Sat, 19/08/2017 - 18:53

Neveragain121016

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Thank you for your posts they mean alot and they keep me going.

Posted on:
Thu, 14/09/2017 - 14:07

Neveragain121016

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2011-10-04

Day 530 just dropping in its been a while. Should've come on here more recently really as I've had loads of urges big and small in the last month or probably 2. I had some things I really had strong opinions on and some that I knew odds on and kept thinking how much? What can I do? Can it be a one off? Can I just do this x, y, z etc. Luckily I'm far enough along and have to much to lose and I worked through it in the right way and decided not to gamble. That's the lesson for myself and for everyone it's all about choices. Yeah its not easy and unless you have this or another addiction you just can't understand but if you stop and take the time and make the right choices then you can overcome addiction. I'm along way from "cured" and to be honest I get the feeling I'll always be a gambling addict I just hope I'll be a gambling addict that doesn't gamble.

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Mon, 16/10/2017 - 00:23

Neveragain121016

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2011-10-04

Day 562. A rare post on my diary, just wanted to explain the name change. I had been using my username for dates that I wanted to get to and seeing my username regularly and seeing that date would help me keep that goal in mind. But after i keep having to change it I have decided that I'll try Neveragain121016. It's perfect really as I never want to gamble again and the date is my daughters dob and she'll keep me on the right path.

So a new name but the same goal to start and end everyday gamble free.

Posted on:
Mon, 30/10/2017 - 11:13

Neveragain121016

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2011-10-04

Day 576. Very stressful times, problems at home, personal, emotional, financial. Working through it. I think I have depression. Well to be honest I must have. I've had it in parts for approx 12 years. I've never said that but I must have, the things I feel and think must not be normal. I've never gone to the docs as I've always wanted to get through things myself. I know depression is serious and you never know what someone is really feeling but I do think it can be played on by some and some just want the doctors note for some time off. Maybe in some cases I'm wrong in that opinion but I think in some cases im not buying it. For the record I'm closing in on 10 years of service at my works and had one day off sick which was about 7 years ago.

I think I can get through this myself. I know some changes I need to make in my life and I will in time make them all. I don't know if I want to go to the docs or not, I have thought this a few times in my recovery, as I say I think I can survive but I wonder if some sort of medication would give me that pick me up that may improve my life and therefore my families also. To be honest I never go to the docs whatever I'm feeling, if I'm sick etc I just deal with it so the likelyhood is I'll do the same.

I'm just typing away, if anyone is depressed don't take this as any advice or a valid opinion and if you find any part in anyway offensive I apologise. I just felt like getting it out there.

Posted on:
Sat, 04/11/2017 - 07:02

Neveragain121016

Joined:
2011-10-04

Whenever I check my account I still can't quite believe I've been gamble free for so long. Day 581 for me. I could gamble today and be back on day 1 tomorrow but how gutted and destroyed would I be. I don't want to have another day 1 ever again. My big target is 1000 days. My first aim is 600, then see out 2017 and then look to April when I'll be 2 years bet free. Then it's just a big push to complete 2018 which will see me have a second Calendar year bet free and reach my 1000 day target. I have it In me to do it, I just have to stay strong and make the right choices.

Posted on:
Sat, 25/11/2017 - 20:59

Neveragain121016

Joined:
2011-10-04

Day 602 and feeling good. My wife is getting better and I'm done with gambling I really think this could be it for me but no complacency.

I'm also trying to fix other areas of my life which I now realise I have a few issues, depression I've always known I've had to varying degrees but also I realise how anxious I can be and a few other things I can hopefully adjust in my phsyci.

So moving forward with my life in many ways. Trying to grow, long way to go on this road but walking in the right direction.

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