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Posted on:
Tue, 12/07/2016 - 22:09

ITDamo

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2016-01-26

Hey Adam, sounds like you are making the right decisions now mate. Staying away from all forms of gambling is the best way forward....one day at a time.

Good luck.

Posted on:
Wed, 03/08/2016 - 22:26

adam123

Joined:
2015-06-09

Hello again. Bit of an update last night I played on fruit machine. Fifteen pounds. Today is day one. Ive managed to stop smoking weed for six years and although it has its moments of wanting to do it again when I don't the next day I feel a lot better. Hopefully I can get this good feeling the next day after managing to not gamble ? Lets see.

Posted on:
Wed, 03/08/2016 - 22:33

adam123

Joined:
2015-06-09

Need to get back to being myself a normal hard working, friendly person who enjoys life. Need to stop obsessing about everything. I really don't know what life has instore for me now but I know I need to make some basic changes or at least give them a try to see what's around the corner rather than staying in the same groove ive been in the past year

Posted on:
Wed, 03/08/2016 - 22:37

adam123

Joined:
2015-06-09

things I can possibly change are playing on fruit machines, drinking in pubs, smoking, poker nights, exercise, weight, social activities, the amount of hours I work, the amount I save each month and so on.​

Posted on:
Wed, 03/08/2016 - 22:39

adam123

Joined:
2015-06-09

​first lets see if I can stop playing fruit machines like smoking weed lets see if I can do march.

Posted on:
Thu, 04/08/2016 - 20:10

adam123

Joined:
2015-06-09

​day two and alls good, gonna put ten pounds a week in a savings account and savs for a long holiday in a couple of years.

Posted on:
Sun, 07/08/2016 - 22:23

adam123

Joined:
2015-06-09

So update on this week, week going fine then Friday night put three pounds and sat put one pound in fruitys. My day off today so went round a mates and watched a film. Back to work tomo and day two of not gambling

Posted on:
Mon, 08/08/2016 - 22:51

adam123

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2015-06-09

Feeling really down, lost six pounds on fruit machine today, felt tired at work, didn't feel myself, played poker and didn't enjoy it. Thinkind about stopping poker and starting something new. Need to have a big think about what I'm going to do but I'm pretty tired so it wont be today.

Posted on:
Mon, 08/08/2016 - 23:24

Oldhamktf

Joined:
2015-09-26

Adam it's time to have a rethink mate. The only time you seem to post is on the back of a bet your using your diary wrong you should be posting good bad and indifferent.

All these £10 here £6 there are just keeping the embers burning it's not a lot of money but eventually you will have a blowout and that's not what you want. 

I think you need to consider are happy to continue gambling the way you are or if you are going to give it your all stop this once and for all and by that I mean making some big changes, getting some help from outside sources and building you blocks up so its way harder to have a bet than it is now, it seems just to easy for you to have a bet. 

KTF 

Posted on:
Tue, 09/08/2016 - 11:34

adam123

Joined:
2015-06-09

Cheers for the post Oldham going

​to have a think

Posted on:
Tue, 09/08/2016 - 19:06

adam123

Joined:
2015-06-09

I have a problem, I admit it I'm addicted to poker, all I can think about is poker, whens my next game, whens the next bigger game

Posted on:
Tue, 09/08/2016 - 19:11

adam123

Joined:
2015-06-09

With bigger stakes, I get excited every week about playing go then come back thinking not going next week then do it all over again. I'll have a think about what I want to do ? Think I need to give up one thing at a time. First poker, then smoking then drinking. I have said this many times now so I wont try and do too much too fast. This week I wont go to poker today, Thursday and see how I feel at the end of it.

Posted on:
Wed, 10/08/2016 - 20:41

adam123

Joined:
2015-06-09

yesterday was day one and I succeeded, today is day two and I succeeded​

Posted on:
Wed, 10/08/2016 - 22:04

Guestuser9

Joined:
Before 2009

Well done Adam keep climbing

Posted on:
Wed, 10/08/2016 - 22:09

Oldhamktf

Joined:
2015-09-26

ODAAT Adam make this the start of something. 

Posted on:
Thu, 11/08/2016 - 17:26

Guestuser9

Joined:
Before 2009

Checking in hopefully day 3 for you Adam? I know Thursday's are a big day for you so stay strong
Deano

Posted on:
Thu, 11/08/2016 - 18:19

adam123

Joined:
2015-06-09

Cheers deano, good news todays got offered a full time contract at the hospital happy days, gonna go to the pub for a few bevvies in celebration, no fruitys will be involved.

Posted on:
Thu, 11/08/2016 - 18:26

Guestuser9

Joined:
Before 2009

Congratulations dude. Enjoy your night out mate

Posted on:
Thu, 11/08/2016 - 19:03

Oldhamktf

Joined:
2015-09-26

Good news Adam enjoy your night it's a lot more fun without that sinking feeling when you put that first pound into the fruity. 

KTF 

Posted on:
Sun, 14/08/2016 - 20:42

adam123

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2015-06-09

Right so I'm back to square one, day one tomo, I'm going to write every day. I spent 131 pounds from Friday to Sunday this weekend much too much, I went out drinking on Friday, had bbq all day sat and bbq and foot ball all day today.

Posted on:
Sun, 14/08/2016 - 20:44

adam123

Joined:
2015-06-09

In a way I had a really good weekend I just wish I could gave a reaally good weekend without doing anything associated to gambling.

Posted on:
Sun, 14/08/2016 - 20:45

adam123

Joined:
2015-06-09

​I have a really good job now and have weekends off now which is nice. I will start to look for other ways to spend my time socially.

Posted on:
Sun, 14/08/2016 - 21:01

Bal

Joined:
2015-04-18

Welcome back Adam

Posted on:
Mon, 15/08/2016 - 17:00

adam123

Joined:
2015-06-09

so here I am in day one, doesn't feel like day one as I've been battling now for a year. Once spend two hundred a month on gambling all my spare money, now battling to get if down to zero. Felt a bit tired at work today nothing new for a Monday.​

Posted on:
Mon, 15/08/2016 - 18:30

Oldhamktf

Joined:
2015-09-26

Evening Adam good to see a post. Let's try and make this the last day one. Stay focused it might be worth speaking to your landlord and just saying if you see me on the machine pull me off it. It might just make you think about not going on in the first place, let's face it you don't want to be pulled up on public, it could be that extra block you're looking for. Also good to see you sign up the the new year challenge. 

KTF 

Posted on:
Tue, 16/08/2016 - 13:12

adam123

Joined:
2015-06-09

On my lunch day 2 very sunny

Posted on:
Tue, 16/08/2016 - 21:21

adam123

Joined:
2015-06-09

So day two successfully completed, no poker and no gambling. What do I want at the mo ? I don't know but I spent a lot at the weekend so staying in for a while is a good idea to get back some money. Working full time is good for me keeps me out of trouble. I don't know what I'm going to do with my time sports ? Maybe, tennis this summer ? Maybe, pubs ? No thank you, alcohol ? No thank you, snooker ? Maybe, betting ? No thank you

Posted on:
Tue, 16/08/2016 - 21:23

adam123

Joined:
2015-06-09

​what do I want to do every evening ? Relax.......that sounds good to me

Posted on:
Thu, 25/08/2016 - 19:58

adam123

Joined:
2015-06-09

Knackered

Posted on:
Fri, 26/08/2016 - 09:21

Oldhamktf

Joined:
2015-09-26

Adam have got a virus on your computer or a problem with your keyboard? It's just I keep seeing you post random letters on people's diaries and I'm a little confused. 

Posted on:
Sat, 27/08/2016 - 22:13

adam123

Joined:
2015-06-09

This will be my last poston my diary.... Ive come to realise I'm spending a lot of time thinking about what I'm spending, adding up all my outgoings each day, week, month and beating myself up about it when I do bad, moneys tight but I shouldn't beat myself up. I find myself thinking about how long ive worked to pay for everyday items. I don't think for me gamcare has been a successful journey and altho ive met a lot of great people who have supported me I don't think I'm going to improve and get down about my actions week in week out.

Posted on:
Sun, 28/08/2016 - 08:48

Cynical wife

Joined:
2015-06-23

Adam,

GamCare's services provide help and advice but only you can choose to follow it.

If you want to keep gambling, that's your choice and you alone are responsible for what you do. Your gambling is not down to an inadequacy on the part of GC or anyone or anything else.

CW

Posted on:
Sun, 28/08/2016 - 21:23

Forum admin

Joined:
2010-11-01

Hello anon ad,

It sounds like you're feeling demoralised.  You're feeling less hopeful about your prospects for improving, and you've come to the view that using the forum has focused your attention on where you're not succeeding.  Please try to keep things in perspective anon ad, and remember that everything is relative... rather than compare yourself negatively with others, remember as well where your behaviour has been less harmful and more successful.

It is true that the forum may not adequately meet everyone's needs, as we are all different with varying needs, and for example, some people feel they flourish more with the 1-2-1 attention provided by a counsellor.  Do feel welcome to contact the 0808 8020 133 freephone or Netline if you'd like to talk about how you're feeling about your recovery, or if you want more information on additional resources like local counselling agencies or online counselling appointments or online group sessions provided by GamCare.

Take care,

Forum Admin.

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