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#1 Posted on:
Wed, 02/03/2016 - 21:21

adam123

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Here's a new diary

Posted on:
Wed, 02/03/2016 - 21:23

adam123

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Take three a new diary for a new fresh start. I'm realising that changing my gambling habbits is going to mean changing my whole life.

Posted on:
Wed, 02/03/2016 - 21:25

adam123

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day one today and no gambling. Ive spent the day relaxing woke up at one and going to bed at ten. I'm very relaxed and well rested. ​

Posted on:
Wed, 02/03/2016 - 21:27

adam123

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Ive left my old diaries behind and made positive steps towards a gambling free life. No more poker I might change my username.

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Wed, 02/03/2016 - 22:01

adam123

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​a big thank you to all the people on here who stand by me on my ups and downs it really helps to have a place like this where we can come and share our experiences

Posted on:
Wed, 02/03/2016 - 22:02

adam123

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my aims for march 2016 are to be gamble free and to go to the gym seven times.​

Posted on:
Wed, 02/03/2016 - 22:49

Oldhamktf

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2015-09-26

Let's hope this is the diary that gets you winning for the right reasons Adam. Otherwise you'll have more diaries than Adrian Mole. 

KTF 

Posted on:
Thu, 03/03/2016 - 11:29

adam123

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So here's day two, on the way to work, feeling relaxed and refreshed.

Posted on:
Thu, 03/03/2016 - 18:53

RA_1990

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2016-02-14

Good on ya Adam keep it up mate 

Posted on:
Thu, 03/03/2016 - 19:19

adam123

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Very positive day at work, worked really hard and on my way back home now, will be on chat at 8

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Fri, 04/03/2016 - 08:33

adam123

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Day three on the way to work, couldn't get to sleep last night, strange.

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Sun, 06/03/2016 - 10:23

adam123

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Day 5 today and I can feel the withdraw from not playing poker, really want to go to my weekly games on Monday and Tuesday especially as their on my days off and their my social activity, will I be strong and not go ?

Posted on:
Wed, 09/03/2016 - 18:39

adam123

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Well I gave in and played in my weekly games, back to day one today not playing next week. On a plus note ive gambled less money over last two months about a hundred

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Thu, 10/03/2016 - 21:25

WCID

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2015-11-29

Hi Adam the plus note you mentioned is still a positive step in the right direction. Oh and welcome to the madness of CGU. - wcid

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Sat, 12/03/2016 - 10:21

adam123

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​happy Saturday people, ive been reading some other diaries and I'm pleased that I haven't got any grief on my diary, people just encourage and advise some people get into arguments that are not needed and don't help tand make people feel worse, anyways gace a great weekend I'm at work but happy enough

Posted on:
Thu, 17/03/2016 - 19:26

adam123

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So a bit down at work today knowing that ill only be there another month

Posted on:
Sat, 19/03/2016 - 21:40

adam123

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So haven't gambled since Tuesday night and that was just a fiver in a fruit machine in a pub. Everything blocked now so no temptation. Going to work till Tuesday then a week off then two more weeks and no more work. Going t ok hunt for jobs on my week off and try and get one soon. Going to spend my time off going to the gym every day.

Posted on:
Sat, 19/03/2016 - 23:35

andy14

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2015-05-25

Good Luck job hunting.

Going to the gym sounds like a good plan, take your mind off gambling.

Take care.

Posted on:
Thu, 24/03/2016 - 19:41

adam123

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Hello, struggled today but didn't get drunk and didn't put any money in fruit machines. ....result

Posted on:
Sun, 03/04/2016 - 21:32

adam123

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Hello I'm back, not written in my diary much lately been busy......right gambling or not gambling as it were is going pretty well. The only gambling I'm able to do now is my weekly fiver on poker, fruit machines in pubs and casino that I'm a member of..

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Sun, 03/04/2016 - 21:35

adam123

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The first I'm not keen on stopping as its a release and its a social activity I love, the second fruit machines in working really hard to stop

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Sun, 03/04/2016 - 21:38

adam123

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The third casinos I'm going to self exclude from. Every other form of gambling is self excluded which is good.... Ive not been to my gym much lately so going there tomo for a jog. Smoking in carrying on with. Drinking alcohol I'm carrying on with.

Posted on:
Wed, 13/04/2016 - 22:43

adam123

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​haven't posted for a while now, finnished my job looking for a new one, will sign on soon, been gambling on fruit machines lately its my last avenue towards gambling I have to battle. Going to gym tomo on my first day off will keep you all posted on my progress towards not gambling and losing weight I'm currently thirteen stone and three quaters

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Sat, 23/04/2016 - 22:40

adam123

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So haven't posted in a while. Looking for a job tick, going to the gym tick, not gambling on fruit machines cross, not drinking too much tick, losing weight tick. I'm making real progress. With the London marathon on tomo ill be going to the gym and running my mile or so then off to the social club to play snooker

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Sat, 23/04/2016 - 22:44

adam123

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​I find that when I take out some gambling places I find new ones eg online went to bookies, bookies went to casinoes, casinos went to pubs, no what scratch cards I gues. Ive thought today I might take up snooker instead of poker as a hobby. Will update my diary when ive decided, giving snooker a go tomo

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Sat, 23/04/2016 - 22:45

adam123

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I'll bring my day count up to date and see what next week brings. On a plus only spent a tenner on social things including gambling this week

Posted on:
Sun, 24/04/2016 - 00:32

ODAAT

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Great work on most of the fronts but you are switching addictions because you're not treating the cause!  How about taking up GA or a bit of counselling to go along with the snooker?

Posted on:
Mon, 09/05/2016 - 23:12

adam123

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Every now and then I have a moment of clarity, where I look at my life differently and see the important things in life. Tonight is one of those times. I haven't gambled on a fruit machine for two weeks now and although ive spent a lot of money socialising I haven't wasted any.

Posted on:
Mon, 09/05/2016 - 23:13

adam123

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Now for some new targets. This week I say week I'm not going to make my targets too long as I may not achieve them.

Posted on:
Mon, 09/05/2016 - 23:15

adam123

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I'm going to not go to my poker nights on Tuesday and Thursday. I'm going to save a little money and see how I feel at the end of it.

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Tue, 10/05/2016 - 01:02

chubb5000

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Good work Adam, are the poker nights for cash? Either way, probably best to avoid. If you find a non gambling replacement, you'll forget it in no time. Good luck mate

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Fri, 13/05/2016 - 00:04

adam123

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​got a job now started yesterday and went well, will get paid weekly, which is good. Going to spend a bit of time at home and try to save some money

Posted on:
Fri, 13/05/2016 - 16:38

adam123

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I actually spent 30 on fruit machine last night, a bit gutted, just saw a fruit machine put a pound in then a fiver then the rest is history.i played poker badly then went home.

Posted on:
Fri, 13/05/2016 - 16:40

adam123

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​I'm going to try and give the pub a miss for a bit. I think beers and pubs for me equal fruity.

Posted on:
Wed, 18/05/2016 - 16:56

adam123

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went to the pub last night and didnt play on fruit machine for the first time very pleased with myself, horray.  Sitting at home at the mo, got work tonight till 12 then back home and another day off tomo.  been reading a lot of diarys over the last few days and heard a saying where if you put all ur problems on a pile on the table with other peoples would you happily select one from that pile.  I would definitetly rather have my problems and life than somebody elses.  This makes me think that im in a good position.  Also read another persons diary which started back in 2008 and theyve been on here ever since.  They were doing really well for eight months and it was a good read however when i fast forwarded to 2016 they had lost all their savings again and were struglling to keep afloat and not bet.  This has shown me that you can go eight months without a bet and still get back into it unfortunately.  I have only managed a month so far (my best), however with all the blocks ive got in place now i beleive im in a better position than when i started a year ago.  I will still go to my poker but not count this as gambling towards my non betting days.  I beleive that when i play poker for a fiver its the cost of a drink and is just paying for entertainment rather than gambling with the hope of making money.  So this poker will cost me sixty pounds a month 12 five pounds entry fees and i will be able to see my new friends.

Posted on:
Wed, 18/05/2016 - 17:03

adam123

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the thing thathelped me last night was that i decided not to drink and only took ten pounds with me 6 pounds poker and 4 pounds for two coffees, happy days :)

 

Posted on:
Sun, 22/05/2016 - 22:34

adam123

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Well its been three days since betting gonna stick to alcohol as my vice now.

Posted on:
Sun, 22/05/2016 - 23:06

adam123

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Apparently every ciggy u smoke takes eleven minetes off ur life, cant afford that ive been smoking since sixteen that's nineteen years average five a day say ill work it out

Posted on:
Sun, 22/05/2016 - 23:09

adam123

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At the moment I will have lost 0.7 years of life thru smoking averagely. Half of people who smoke die of cancer not good toknow

Posted on:
Sun, 22/05/2016 - 23:11

adam123

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I have four ciggerettes left and going to smoke them as a last resort if I have to but going to go with it new job new start new life. My new job is next to my gym so no excuses going to go

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Sun, 22/05/2016 - 23:17

adam123

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I usually have these moments of clarity then a week later go back to my old ways. I might give up the pub job as everyone smokes there and drinks a lot and I think id rather change my lifestyle and change everything. So right number one no poker nights. No poker nights mean no gambling at all so that's a big plus. No gambling since Thursday that's a big plus I'm already off the mark. New job horray. I'll just do whatever hours they give me above the twenty hour contract and pay my mortgage and rent and go to the gym and live a healthy lifestyle. I'll put six pound in a jar every day for the saving of not smoking and it can go towards a holiday in sept

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Sun, 22/05/2016 - 23:23

adam123

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​so that's 20x8x4 equals640 shouldn't be much tax on that so take home 550rent three hundred, gym 54 saving for holiday 180 ooo this is gonna be tight may have to keep working at bar untill find another healthy job, ill get looking tomo night. Just don't want to work at pub as it will make me drink more, smoke and not be healthy, I will check in tomo with progress.

Posted on:
Tue, 31/05/2016 - 20:07

adam123

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So its all about small achievable goals with me, I usually once a month give myself unachievable goals and don't suceed, my goal for June is to not play on a fruit machine. This for me is very difficult but I will try and stick to it.

Posted on:
Tue, 31/05/2016 - 20:08

adam123

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On Thursday I will have lasted one week.

Posted on:
Wed, 01/06/2016 - 09:25

paul01

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Hi Adam

What I find helps is to set milestones, for instance I have done 150 days, I have now set a target of 160 days.

Good luck and never give up giving up. You can do this!!!

Paul

Posted on:
Wed, 01/06/2016 - 15:09

adam123

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One of my colleagues at work is going on holiday abroad and I asked if they could buy me some ciggies and id give them the money, they seemed a bit against it and told me how their husband who works with me too iz suffering from cancer and was told four years ago that he only had half a year to live. This has made me think how young he is at sixty to go thru this. I have decided to try and give up to set a good example. I am thirty five now and have smoked a long time. It will be hard but its for the best

Posted on:
Thu, 02/06/2016 - 04:19

chubb5000

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2016-03-30

Good Luck Adam on the smoking. There's some new medication out there (well a few years old) that has helped a lot of people. I highly recommend going to the doctors for a chat if you haven't already. 

Posted on:
Sun, 12/06/2016 - 16:17

adam123

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So an update, not gambled since Thursday, smoke all the time, not been going to the gym so gonna cancel my membership.

Posted on:
Sat, 25/06/2016 - 21:33

adam123

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Been playing on fruities a bit not too much lost a tenner last night. Saving fifty four by not going to gym every month. Having a nice relaxing weekend at home. Job going well. Should be able to book a holiday next pay cheque

Posted on:
Tue, 12/07/2016 - 20:23

adam123

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Next entry read my diary and its just attempt after attempt to change my ways actions speak louder than words.

Posted on:
Tue, 12/07/2016 - 20:25

adam123

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Ive stopped going to casino, ive stopped online, ive stopped bookies, this week I'm staying in and saving money for my holidays. Today is day one of no gambling

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