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Posted on:
Mon, 11/06/2018 - 18:15

G100

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2018-05-02

36 days and counting. Things getting easier but know I have to resist any bets on the World Cup.

Posted on:
Fri, 15/06/2018 - 09:33

G100

Joined:
2018-05-02

Day 40 GF, and I am at the stage now that Thoughts of gambling are not entering my head. It does show that gradually the mind can be re-wired to think about different things if you can get past those early stages. Having said that I went GF for 6 months last year and thought I had cracked it, and we all know what happened. Need to stay focused and continue this battle with a clear mind and remember what this terrible addiction has done to my life. 

Posted on:
Fri, 15/06/2018 - 22:35

Dmpowell81

Joined:
2018-05-01

Good going mate!

Posted on:
Sat, 16/06/2018 - 20:36

G100

Joined:
2018-05-02

Thanks dmpowell81, glad to see your battle is going well. 

Posted on:
Sun, 17/06/2018 - 10:48

G100

Joined:
2018-05-02

Happy GF Father’s Day everyone. So nice to be spending it with my family rather than checking bets and thinking about what bets to lose on later. A GF day is a happy day.

Posted on:
Sun, 17/06/2018 - 13:45

fatmanglenn2

Joined:
2018-06-17

Hi G100, I have been reading your posts. I have only just joined the forum after waking up this morning and realizing I have a massive gambling problem. I lost £1750 last night playing roulette on top of the £4500 I have lost earlier this week. I have had some big wins in the past but massive losses as well. You're right in what you say about Roulette, it's the one that sucks us in. 

Posted on:
Sun, 17/06/2018 - 14:15

spoofy

Joined:
2018-06-17

happy Sunday, so what is more interesting to be part of so that you manage to stay IN real life only?
Is it the invention of every day life self made promises that need to be kept?

Like a task, that is self imposed ...

Posted on:
Mon, 18/06/2018 - 09:19

G100

Joined:
2018-05-02

Hi Fatmanglenn2, yeah roulette is the one that does the most damage, well for me anyhow. I only used to do sports bets quite happily until I won on roulette one night. I soon lost that and loads more, which then Inturn affected my sports bets as I was staking more to try and chase my losses. You should stop now before it’s too late as I tried to chase losses for years and in the space of 2 years I was 50k in debt worrying every minute of everyday on how I could gamble my way out of the mess that I had created. I’ve now found the way and that way is to not gamble at all. Yes the debts are still there but gradually they will go, however although still early days i’m Living again. Good luck on your journey and don’t let your losses turn into something that you can’t control as that’s what will happen if you keep gambling....especially on the roulette.

Posted on:
Thu, 21/06/2018 - 09:28

G100

Joined:
2018-05-02

Day 46 and still going strong GF. I think it’s essier when I forget about the debts but it’s payday tomorrow so that always reminds me when I see about 1k going straight out in DD’s to pay off loans and CC’s....that’s the depressing thing. Only 5 more years of that. How could I have been so stupid?. Never mind, approaching my next milestone of 50 days and need to stay busy and positive. 

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Fri, 22/06/2018 - 09:10

G100

Joined:
2018-05-02

Day 47 GF and i’m In a really foul mood today. Nothing has happened apart from it being payday and a Friday. In my old life this would be a happy day and time to look forward to the weekend. Now I have to watch all the DD’s go out of my account and face another month of being careful with what money I have left. This is the life that I have created for myself with my selfishness and stupidity so I suppose I just need to suck it up and get on with it. I hate gambling so much that i’m Not even tempted so I suppose that is a positive. Have a good weekend all.

Posted on:
Mon, 25/06/2018 - 07:19

G100

Joined:
2018-05-02

50 GF days not out, bring on 100.

Posted on:
Thu, 28/06/2018 - 09:35

G100

Joined:
2018-05-02

53 days GF. Don’t really think about gambling anymore apart from when I read people’s stories on here. I think that has been a massive part of my recovery. Reminding myself everyday what this terrible addiction can do to your life. I still get depressed at the thought of the debts and my moods can shift in a blink of an eye, however the past 53 days has certainly made me feel happier in myself and concentrating on being a good dad and husband. My journey continues. 

Posted on:
Thu, 28/06/2018 - 10:11

cassie51

Joined:
2018-06-21

Well Done G100. Onwards and upwards

Posted on:
Sat, 30/06/2018 - 10:35

WhereIsMyMind

Joined:
2018-06-13

Thanks for the post on my diary. Just had a quick read of yours and it’s great to read about the struggle in the early days and how you’re now getting more control over things. Keep up the good work!

Posted on:
Mon, 02/07/2018 - 13:29

G100

Joined:
2018-05-02

57 days GF. Took the kids to the seaside yesterday and had a great day with the family. We did end up in the Amusements though as the kids like playing the 2p machines to try and push some sweets off. I know it’s gambling but i’m Not counting that as I was only watching and they were doing it for fun.....until they didn’t win the sweets and kicked off. Hopefully they learn from an early age that it’s a mugs game. Anyway feeling ok and content with my journey, I can’t dwell on the past and need to focus on the future. Need to move house in a couple years so that is my motivation for now to not gamble again. 

Posted on:
Wed, 04/07/2018 - 09:20

G100

Joined:
2018-05-02

Things are definitely changing for the better. I’m now 59 days GF and England are now winning penalty shoot outs. Great stuff.

Posted on:
Wed, 04/07/2018 - 12:56

shake the disease

Joined:
2018-02-06

congratulations G100 on 59 days youre smashing this mate. Im at GF23 and its suprising how quickly the days mount up and you buzz off seeing the number increase as well as the obvious benefits of not having the gambling monkey on your back. I feel liberated like i am now in charge it feels great, theres a heatwave on, world cup quarter final and the football season starts in a month (well it does for teams outside the greed league). Life is Good. Keep it going mate

Posted on:
Sun, 08/07/2018 - 10:54

G100

Joined:
2018-05-02

Thanks mate, 63 days now GF and England are in the WC Semifinals....happy days. I feel a bit down today though as went to the pub with mates to watch the game and the chat turned to people’s bets and they all know I love a bet. I then was asked why I wasn’t betting so I had to let the cat of the bag. My closest mates already know but now another 5 or 6 do and I now have this feeling of embarrassment and that everyone will now be talking about me and saying what a mug i’ve Been. I know that it’s true but I still don’t want some people to know about it. To be fair they was all offering my money but now I feel like a charity case. I politely decline as I know that is not the answer. I got myself in this mess so I need to deal with it and the embarrassment that goes with it.

Posted on:
Sun, 08/07/2018 - 12:17

Forum admin

Joined:
2010-11-01

Hi G100,

please don't be embarrassed, it is a very brave thing to do - admitting you have a problem. Also, this admission to another 5-6 friends just solidifies your commitment to your recovery. 

Food for thought - just as much as these friends didn't know about your gambling problem, how can you be sure anyone from that group of 5-6 people doesn't have a gambling problem? Your admission might have been the inspiration for someone else to take action. 

You are doing really well, you have the right attitude, be proud of what you've achieved and be proud you are brave.

Keep going, keep posting.

All the best,

Eva

Forum Admin

Posted on:
Mon, 09/07/2018 - 09:34

G100

Joined:
2018-05-02

Thanks for your comment, however I still don’t like the way i’m Feeling and wish i’d Kept my mouth shut now. I’ll just have to try and forget about it and try and stay focussed on what I need to do. 

Posted on:
Mon, 09/07/2018 - 18:00

G100

Joined:
2018-05-02

I’ve been really emotional today. Happy on the outside but so upset inside at the thought of what I have done. I went a few weeks feeling happy but after telling a few more people about my addiction I now feel like a complete failure and a loser. I thought it would help but all it has down is remind me of the 5 year slog coming up clearing the debt. I hope this feeling passes again so that I can stay focused on my family as right now I hate myself again. I know I have to suck it up and ride the wave, but just hope these feeling go away soon as I know it’s only money and not important in the grand scheme of things.

 

 

Posted on:
Tue, 10/07/2018 - 17:34

TM1985

Joined:
2016-05-30

Thanks for the post G100. Are you getting any help with your recovery except for using this forum? Gamcare counselling is something that has helped me tackle the mental/emotional side of the addiction not just the financial side. 

You are doing great staying gamble free. Just a note to say there is more help out there to help you with the negative thoughts and slumps which are only natural.

Posted on:
Tue, 10/07/2018 - 23:53

G100

Joined:
2018-05-02

Thanks TM1985, no i’m Just using this forum as my inspiration. Reading people’s stories is a real help to me. I’ve got GAMSTOP in place so in regards to gambling I know that I have cracked it at the moment. I hate it so wouldn’t even consider putting a bet on again. I do just have some ups and downs with my moods which I can only assume it’s down to the gambling debt that i’m Paying off. I think it’s just something that I will need to live with for a bit. I’m having a lot more happy days than bad days so I know that things are on the up. Thanks for commenting on my diary and let’s hope England can reach the WC final with a great win tomorrow.

Posted on:
Wed, 11/07/2018 - 08:29

G100

Joined:
2018-05-02

66 days GF....it’s coming home.

Posted on:
Sun, 15/07/2018 - 10:37

G100

Joined:
2018-05-02

70 day GF. Still a struggle at times as if i’m Missing out on something. Just trying to fill the void by spending time with the family etc. Next target is 100 days. I think i’ll Make it, as hate the thought of gambling and what it did to my life.

Posted on:
Sun, 15/07/2018 - 21:04

Kensington

Joined:
2018-07-14

Well done G100 on your achievements.

I first admitted in 2012 I had a problem and managed a period away from gambling before relapsing in 2013. I’d a sustained period away for around 3.5 years before I started to dabble and of course the intensity increased and disaster ensued.

I’m starting again today but can categorically say that life was better when I didn’t gamble. My mistake was thinking that I could gamble normally again and in my head harbouring a desire to gamble rather than fully committing to a recovery

My challenge today and each day forward is to learn from the mistakes of the past and not repeat - we can all help each other do this

Posted on:
Sun, 15/07/2018 - 22:49

Joey3011

Joined:
2018-07-13

Hey,

Just read your story and well done! Life is so much more beautiful without the toxic lie of gambling! Keep it up :)

 

Posted on:
Mon, 16/07/2018 - 09:30

G100

Joined:
2018-05-02

Thank you both for your comments. We are all in this together and the support that we can give each other is the winning fotmular to beat this addiction. Day 71 GF and I feel good. Negotiated the World Cup without a single thought of gambling so pretty confident I can continue this when the football season starts in a few weeks. Here’s to a happier life, which doesn’t involve gambling.

Posted on:
Thu, 19/07/2018 - 09:27

G100

Joined:
2018-05-02

74 days GF. Still going strong. The thoughts of what i’ve Done are always there, but i’m Just trying to focus on the future and living a happy life. I suppose I have two choices. 1. Be moody and depressed thinking about the money that i’ve Wasted or 2. Forget about the money and focus on enjoying the time with my family. The 1st option is not easy to ignore but i’m Going to try with option 2 and hopefully Over time the thoughts of option 1 will disappear for good. 

Posted on:
Thu, 19/07/2018 - 10:49

Reminder

Joined:
2018-07-18

I just read this topic and some of the things are very relatable for me. I am not in debt myself, but I can very much relate to the fact that after a few months you think that you have got it under control and one little bet would not hurt. Well, it does hurt, because it will escalate very quickly into bigger bets and chasing losses again. At least, that is my experience.

Your life is much better when you are not refreshing your football scores app every second and constantly worrying about if your bet will or will not win. If you try to look at this behavior from the perspective of an outsider you can see how weird and depressing it really is. I can understand that you get emotional when you think about the long road ahead, but you have to let go of the money you lost and look at all the positive things in your life.

I am impressed by your story, keep going strong! You are doing awesome.
I wish you the best.

Posted on:
Thu, 19/07/2018 - 17:46

G100

Joined:
2018-05-02

Hi Reminder, thank you for your comment, it means a lot. Completely agree with what you say, it’s a struggle but ultimately the only path for a happy life is the one without Gambling. Good luck on your journey also.

Posted on:
Thu, 19/07/2018 - 18:41

Madsam200

Joined:
2018-07-19

Hi I’m new, not really sure what I’m supposed to do on here

Posted on:
Thu, 19/07/2018 - 21:15

G100

Joined:
2018-05-02

Hi Madsam200, welcome to the forum. You should start your own thread and use it as a diary to put your thoughts down and comment on your recovery. People on here will then give you advice and support to help you overcome this addiction. I wish you the best in your recovery.

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