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Posted on:
Thu, 12/04/2018 - 13:07

breakfree

Joined:
2011-01-01

Day 237

Still grinding away at work and home and trying to beat this addiction that's crippled me for years.

I am in unknown waters right now going so long without a bet.

It's a rollercoaster of emotions each week as gambling has consumed a lot of my time from age 17-33.

All I know is I'm 34 now with two small kids and I can't **** up now, it's time to wise up otherwise I'll be in a dark place for sure.

I'm proud to have almost 8 months GF and I have a lot to look forward to.

Even though I feel I have everything. A fantastic missus, two amazing kids and good job I still have these selfish thoughts of going absolutely mental with the gambling.

I'm not sure if that will ever go away but I am happy that I'm on the right path.

Sorry for the rambling but as you all know it's good to get some thoughts off your chest.

All the best everyone.

Breakfree

Posted on:
Fri, 13/04/2018 - 00:32

samba79

Joined:
2018-03-22

Good luck mate, it scares me when I see someone with your numbers mentioning how tough it still is as i’m only less than 3 weeks into my journey.

Wish you all the best

Posted on:
Sun, 22/04/2018 - 06:16

breakfree

Joined:
2011-01-01

Day 247

Sunday morning and feeling reflective.

My weekends are very different these days.

No deposits, no stress, no chasing, no mood swings, no praying for that goal, no false borrowed money from the bookies, no lies and no recovery plans after doing my nuts.

It's been 247 days since I decided enough is enough and I've come a long way but this is just the beginning.

I've still got my eye on 1 year gamble free :-)

The best way I can describe my situation is.

I've been living in a bubble for 15 years thats been controlled by the bookies and finally I've popped the bubble and there is no more pain.

Have a great Sunday:-)

Breakfree

Posted on:
Tue, 01/05/2018 - 06:08

breakfree

Joined:
2011-01-01

Day 256

Plan is now to grind away and enjoy life until my summer holiday in August.

August will mark 1 year gamble free, the longest I've ever managed.

Stay strong everyone.

Posted on:
Sat, 12/05/2018 - 19:20

breakfree

Joined:
2011-01-01

Day 267

Just popping in to say hi.

Still no betting with the bookies. Life is moving fast being a family man, working and trying to improve my golf game!

Almost 9 months GF now and I don't miss it a bit.

Have a great evening everyone.

Breakfree

Posted on:
Sun, 20/05/2018 - 19:00

breakfree

Joined:
2011-01-01

Day 275

Debt is heavy on my shoulders at the moment and would normally turn to gambling for an answer.

I'm chipping away at it and I need to be more patient as life is great apart from my financial situation.

Breakfree

Posted on:
Thu, 31/05/2018 - 16:56

breakfree

Joined:
2011-01-01

Day 286

Enjoying the summer here and free from thoughts of gambling:-)

Take care all
Breakfree

Posted on:
Tue, 12/06/2018 - 13:14

breakfree

Joined:
2011-01-01

Day 298

Hello diary.

Posting less and thoughts of gambling are less frequent. It doesn't interest me anymore and to be honest I am a bit ashamed of how much I've lost over the years.
Now the gambling fog and red mist is clearing, I am really seeing how much of a trance I was in.
Always telling myself that I have things under control and I can keep my head in front.
The reality was I was never in front, I was drowning and truly sucked into the gambling bubble.
The bubble is burst for now and I'm looking forward to my summer holiday with the family.
August 18th marks a big day for me, one year without a bet.
Strong strong everyone.

Breakfree

Posted on:
Thu, 14/06/2018 - 03:48

breakfree

Joined:
2011-01-01

Day 300

300 days GF :-)

Breakfree

Posted on:
Sat, 30/06/2018 - 06:06

breakfree

Joined:
2011-01-01

Day 316

Enjoying the summer, World Cup and great weather!

Don't miss that black cloud above my head. Almost 11 months GF now :-)

Stay strong everyone

Posted on:
Sat, 14/07/2018 - 13:22

breakfree

Joined:
2011-01-01

Day 330

11 months GF and looking forward to my summer holiday in 3 weeks.

Stay strong everyone

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