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#1 Posted on:
Mon, 12/05/2014 - 05:37

Rst.Ex-CG

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Hi, my names Dan or in Mr Brightsides challenge page I'm down as RST18, 25 and from Derby. I've never started a recovery diary as I don't think I ever truly wanted to quit gambling.

I reached 100 days of no online gambling from the start of 2014 but then totally slipped up as I fell in to the trap of one little go is ok, after all I've saved loads of money by not gambling. Bit of a mistake and disappointed that I let the group down.

So a bit about me, I'm a university educated student still studying for a management accounting qualification and work for a pub company at their head office, yet still on basic wages due to lack of promotion (caused by my mind taken over by gambling).

I'm starting this diary at 5am as I woke up eager to gamble. I'm currently 7 days free of the time wasting. So why the title of "100 day target" surely it should be a lifetime target? Well I have a holiday to America in the summer and I leave on my 96th day of abstinence. It's a sort of motivation that I can celebrate 100 days relaxing not a care in the world and know that the rest of my life will be like that.

In terms of debts I have built up 15-20k over just 3 years due to my obsession with getting more loans to try and win it all back. I haven't taken out a loan since Oct 2013 and am slowly paying it off, although I'm not rushing and with my bank I have a 7 year plan to pay it off. 7 years!!! I bet some of you think that's forever but it gives me freedom to still live my life a little bit and not leaving me scrapping around before payday, even putting some into savings accounts. Hopefully I can pay it off in 5 or sooner due to saved cash or a pay rise but for now it's not affecting my credit rating and I can afford holidays.

Despite the pain and time wasted that gambling has caused I do not want to feel sorry for myself and be ruining the next few years as I think this will only lead to my return to gambling which happened only a couple of weeks ago, but that was due to sheer boredom from my studying. I have exams next week so this is the best time to quit.

My vice is betting on my phone, the numerous website you can visit with a click of a button and the amount of in-play betting is scary. I was betting on random basketball and volleyball teams I'd never heard off, often losing 500-1000 a time. Crazy but all it took was one big win and you think, "I can do this again until I win it all back", but you can never win because you will never stop.

So this diary will be pretty short and sweet probably just a weekly check in, might chat about my week and positive things I have done instead of staring at my phone from morning to night, (yes this even included my office when I'm working). Sorry for the long intro but if anyone sees themselves in this and wants to follow my journey then welcome. I hope to bring positivity not only to myself but anyone else who feels they are going down the dark road of gambling, I'll try to show the light at the end of the tunnel (like the Facebook video that's gone viral) "look up from your phone and leave distractions behind, you never know what you could miss". RST.

Posted on:
Mon, 12/05/2014 - 07:05

dgr

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2014-05-05

Dan, good to hear from you.
I'm more than happy to follow your journey.
My name's Davie and i am now 8 days gambling free.
I've wasted about 30 years of my life to gambling and have determined to not waste a single day more.
My biggest vice over the last few years was online football betting. I very rarely went into a bookies or a casino. It has consumed the majority of my life , my thought process my personality.
I know it's only 8 days, but for the first time for as long as i remember i feel positive and i have hope. Genuine hope, not the false hope i've lived with for so long.
Dan, i hope we can both reach our goals and transform our lives. I'll look forward to keeping up with your diaries. All the best.

Davie

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Mon, 12/05/2014 - 07:11

duncanmac

Joined:
2012-01-26

Dan
Fella an amazing post written by the rational side of the mind,not the one which compels you to lose your money over and over.
I applaud your making a plan to repay your debt in a way that there won't be pressure to find extra money through gambling to make repayments.
Keep setting targets,goals,they will help greatly in your resolve to achieve them.
On a more practical side have you considered 'down grading' your phone,I have today a phone upon which I can only make calls and text.
My choice came from sitting on another smart phone and breaking another screen!!
the new phone is like stepping back twenty years lol,but hey it does the job I need it to.

Keep making the right choice
Duncs stepping forward never back

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Mon, 12/05/2014 - 18:15

Rst.Ex-CG

Joined:
2013-11-22

Hi Davie, good to hear from you, glad my diary struck a cord with you and hope that we can both beat this obsession. Bit of Monday morning blues today, lots on at work and come home to yet more studying, at least no time for gambling, only distractions I have are candy crush and my need for food.

Dunc thanks for your words, not sure about the going back to olden days without a touch screen phone but I have blocked and changed passwords on numerous betting sites, although I think it's more my mindset that will help. I feel in a much better place financially and outside of work life.

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Wed, 14/05/2014 - 06:50

Rst.Ex-CG

Joined:
2013-11-22

9 days free of gambling. 91 days to go (have had 1 slight urge to bet). So that means on average il get 10 before my holiday. All blocks in place so bring on the next urge and il just laugh it off and count up how much I've saved from staying gamble free.

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Wed, 14/05/2014 - 09:01

duncanmac

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Morning Fella
Great attitude you have there,I hope it continues to serve you well.
Abstain and maintain
Duncs stepping forward never back

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Thu, 15/05/2014 - 13:10

Rst.Ex-CG

Joined:
2013-11-22

10 days clean. 1/10th of the way. Those last 10 days flew by. World full of distractions right now, exams next week then off to London to see Derby in the play off finals and Arctic Monkeys. Currently sat in a quiet room studying at work, knowing I'm starting to get over this gambling problem. 6 months ago I would lie to people saying I was studying to just sit for an hour and watch 500 slip through my fingers with the last shot of a basketball game. Looking back I realise how stupid and wasteful I have been but looking forward the opportunities are endless with all the free time and money. RST.

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Fri, 16/05/2014 - 20:56

Rst.Ex-CG

Joined:
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Coming to the end of day 12. Having a few drinks tonight so came on here to reassure myself that I wont gamble tonight even if I get a bit drunk. Sometimes my downfall but something I always regret in the morning. It will make the hangover more bearable knowing that I won against my urge to gamble.

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Sat, 17/05/2014 - 08:25

duncanmac

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2012-01-26

rst
fella thanks for the kind words upon my thread,it raised a huge smile to think my ramblings could help others.
I simply write a true account of life today,one in which I do encounter like everyone the trials and tribulations of life,but can always find a light to focus upon,something to ensure my glass is always half full.
My friend I hope yours got topped up last night,the head is not too sore this morning lol!!

Abstain and maintain
Duncs stepping forward never back

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Sat, 17/05/2014 - 19:32

dgr

Joined:
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rst, thanks for your words of encouragement on my thread. Sorry i haven't really been keeping up with everyone elses diaries the last week. I work offshore so am doing 12-14 hour days every day. However i'll be off this Wednesday so looking forward to that.
A really big well done on staying gambling free. It's a fantastic feeling isn't it?
There have been so many lows in my life and so many times i've made deals with myself that i'll stop, but i've never really determined to do it like this time. This website has been fantastic and people like you that are going through the exact same thing as me have been an amazing encouragement. It's amazing how you get so secretive, insular and depressed with gambling that you really think you're the only person in the world like that!! Being honest on here and seeing other peoples honesty is fantastic. It kind of breaks the power gambling has over you because it brings it to the light and exposes it.
Sorry about the rambling. I went so long bottling things up that now i find it hard to stop when i start:-)
Anyway. Well done on staying gambling free and i'm glad i'm on this journey with you. Cheers mate

Davie

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Sun, 18/05/2014 - 07:56

Rst.Ex-CG

Joined:
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Don't worry Davie ramblings are good, getting everything out is such a great feeling and probably a reason why I've just started a recovery diary even though it was at the start of 2014 that I have been making an active effort to quit. Actually my 26th birthday today and its going to be the first of many where I am not ruining the day by gambling. Too young for this burden of debt. Hopefully by 30 will be gamble and debt free but no need to rush things, off for a meal and drinks with my girlfriend tonight, she will be paying too which is a bonus :) Day 14 of freedom and feeling refreshed.

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Tue, 20/05/2014 - 06:48

Rst.Ex-CG

Joined:
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Morning of day 16. So stressed with exams coming up but no urges to gamble as I literally have no time to think right now. By the time my exams are over I will have saved myself 180 (based on 10 a day). Hopefully that will spur me on to stay clean as I would really enjoy having 1000 towards my holiday and to start up general savings again. As you can tell I am driven by wanting more money but can get so impatient that I turn to gambling to try and get money quicker, which inevitably leads to more losses and wanting more money back so its a deadly cycle I need to be out of for good.

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Tue, 20/05/2014 - 08:44

duncanmac

Joined:
2012-01-26

Rst
fella great to see your life has the correct priorities in place,I have three kids myself,eldest is just ending year two of an english degree,middle one is just sitting her A levels and youngest currently sitting his first gcse's. I am fully aware how my gambling effected not only my life but theirs too.
Keep making the right choice and life will gift you continued opportunities to actually live without the cloud that our compulsion to gamble and the misery it brings.
Patience is something a great deal of us need to learn with recovery,my whole life has been pretty gung ho,with some devastating outcomes.
Good luck with your exams,I hope your effort is rewarded.
Duncs stepping forward never back

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Thu, 22/05/2014 - 17:15

Rst.Ex-CG

Joined:
2013-11-22

Day 18, exams done and dentist visited. Keeping self busy so I don't go back online now I suddenly have more free time. Dentist visit not great as need some work that may cost 80-100. There goes my savings from the last week and a bit. :( Ah well, 1 more week free and that's paid for though. Always things like this come along and my first thought is to gamble and get it paid for. But not this time, should feel more rewarding that way.

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Sat, 24/05/2014 - 16:03

dgr

Joined:
2014-05-05

Hey pal. Great to see you're pushing on and staying gamble free. Fantastic.
I'm still right alongside you. 20 days free. Feels great.
I haven't been checking in because I've been travelling home. Staying with my Mum and Dad on the way. Been a lovely few days. Home today and feeling brilliant not gambling. Looking forward to 3 weeks free tomorrow!!
Keep on keeping on mate.

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Sun, 25/05/2014 - 16:32

Rst.Ex-CG

Joined:
2013-11-22

Cheers Davie. Well day 20 was eventful. Had my second big urge while at Wembley.

Once inside the ground getting a pint and joining in the fun and chanting with fellow derby fans saw the bookies and with plenty of money in my wallet for drinks and the evening ahead really wanted to put some money on derby to win so I could have extra drinking money for later. Said no at that point and watched a pretty dull first half then at half time saw odds had gone up but again said no and enjoyed the game knowing there was no money involved.

So gutted about the way the game ended but relived I didn't have that bet and despite defeat had a really good evening at Arctic Monkeys gig. After that we had more drinks in our hotel room and unlike before I didn't even think of lying in bed betting after everyone was asleep.

Such a good feeling today knowing I've got over my latest urge. Off to play footy now.

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Tue, 27/05/2014 - 07:15

Rst.Ex-CG

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2013-11-22

Morning of day 23, lots on at work today so that should keep my mind busy. Managed to spend yesterday planning my summer trip which is my main motivation and I can't wait to be in America after 100 days with spare money to enjoy myself, but also knowing I'm steadily getting closer to clearing debts and getting my life back.

Posted on:
Tue, 27/05/2014 - 07:36

I wished

Joined:
2014-04-25

Hi rst
Well done on day 23 and keeping strong it feels good doesn't it
Each day we abstain we are moving forwards and as you say getting our life back
I think of my life now as my new life and I never want to go back to the other life Which was not real
Best wishes Suzanne xx

Posted on:
Wed, 28/05/2014 - 06:53

Rst.Ex-CG

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2013-11-22

Day 24, boy these urges are coming on thick and fast. Anything can set them off, like an invite to go out for a mates birthday this weekend even though its not payday til next week. Should have enough to cover it but I always want more just so I'm not counting every penny on a night out and looking tight.

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Thu, 29/05/2014 - 17:59

Rst.Ex-CG

Joined:
2013-11-22

Day 25 - thoughts of money on my mind all this afternoon. I think I've set too ambitious targets for savings limiting myself to x amount per week but certain unexpected events are leaving me wanting to cover the extra expenditure with gambling.

Hope these thoughts will die down once pay day comes around but then it's the frustration that I can't splash out like everyone else does on payday.

Anyway to end on a positive 1/4 of the way to my goal :) and only 71 days until holiday.

Posted on:
Thu, 29/05/2014 - 20:33

May27th

Joined:
2014-05-28

Hi mate, congrats on how you've done so far. Couldn't believe Derby lost in that way!

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Fri, 30/05/2014 - 22:17

Rst.Ex-CG

Joined:
2013-11-22

Thanks May27th was so unlucky. I have read through your entry and want to say well done for coming on here, there are plenty of inspirational stories and also a really good community to support your journey.

26 days clean but having to take sacrifices. Lying in bed as I didn't want to go out for my friends birthday as I am trying to save every penny.

Had a good chat with a guy from work about gambling sites and how a lot are based in Gibraltar due to tax benefits. He used to work for them setting the odds and earning really good bonuses. I obviously didn't tell him about my problems but it made me wake up and think that I'd paid towards his fat bonus while I suffered and was earning nothing due to being in debt.

Not paying any more to these people. I have so much time tonight that I could easily gamble but dont want to as I know my hard earned money is coming through on Thursday and after paying my monthly debts the rest is for me to enjoy/save.

Busy tomorrow and Sunday so will soon be Monday and il be 4 weeks clean, 10 to go.

Posted on:
Sat, 31/05/2014 - 08:11

duncanmac

Joined:
2012-01-26

rst
fella a continued well done from me for your efforts in arresting the destruction that was your gambling.
Great to see you are eating into your target of being gamble free until your holiday.
My advice is start thinking about your next target after that,they are great for self motivation.
Oh and the addictive side of the brain hates it!!!
Keep making the right choice
Duncs stepping forward never back

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Tue, 03/06/2014 - 11:10

Rst.Ex-CG

Joined:
2013-11-22

Day 30, totally lost track of days as have been busy and not had chance to come on here. Really good article on the overcoming gambling section with a list of things that James P says are crucial to quitting. Have printed this and have it in my room so can have a quick read if I need a lift.

Dunc thanks for your words, my next goal will be to halve my debt by the end of 2015 this will require me to get a promotion in my current workplace which I'm working on by taking on new responsibility and just generally working my a**e off as I have more energy and am not side tracked by gambling.

Football tonight then seeing the mrs so keeping busy, also did a lot of cleaning and tidying during the weekend which I actually really enjoyed :)

Posted on:
Thu, 05/06/2014 - 15:15

Rst.Ex-CG

Joined:
2013-11-22

Day 32 - Payday :) takes the pressure off a little bit as was having to be really careful with my money at the weekend. But head screwed on and carrying on as normal keeping to my tight budget will hopefully see the rewards at next payday. Only 64 days until holiday 1/3 of the way there!

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Thu, 12/06/2014 - 13:22

Rst.Ex-CG

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2013-11-22

Well what an idiot. Was doing so well then a few days of gambling am I'm so in the brown stuff. 1,500 down in 2 days through chasing. I'm now going to struggle to save for holiday and my bank wont let me have another loan. Help!!! Is there anyway I can reduce my loan repayments. Currently 280 a month. I'm panicking at work right now.

Posted on:
Thu, 12/06/2014 - 18:40

triangle

Joined:
2014-03-14

don't give up rst18

so many examples of people on here who have turned it around

if that's not enough could you get help elsewhere? doctors? groups? ga?

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Thu, 12/06/2014 - 20:14

Rst.Ex-CG

Joined:
2013-11-22

Thanks triangle well I've increased my overdraft on debit card just so I can get by til next pay day which is still 3 weeks away. No way of getting any loan which in a way is a good thing as I already have too much to pay off.

So annoyed as I had started to save up and now all that plus an extra 1000 gone. Having now calmed down a bit since my initial panic and have cancel the new account.

With around 60 days until holiday I can try to stay out of trouble. Going for it this time.

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Thu, 12/06/2014 - 20:32

Frozen

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2010-11-22

Hi, my name is Michael just want to let you know you can do this. Build from your failure don't handle money and you can get there. I was just talking to someone like you today and sometimes we all let the amount we lost drag us back. You have got to forget, focus and move on. Not easy but can be done.

Michael

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Thu, 12/06/2014 - 22:45

baggins

Joined:
2014-03-03

Hi rst - Glad to read that you are feeling a bit more positive. Re. finances, if you look at the thread 'Financial Advice Needed' from D70 on the 'Overcoming problem gambling' page, there are lots of good suggestions for loan management etc. which you may find helpful.
Best wishes,
Joanna

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Thu, 12/06/2014 - 23:24

duncanmac

Joined:
2012-01-26

RST
fella this may come across a bit harsh but I see the fact that you cannot access more funds as a result for you
Why??
because if you had more funds at your disposal would they be used to facilitate debt or fund more gambling??
My guess is they would be used to chase the losses.
Addiction,the compulsion we share will tell you/me it will be different next time around,that the losses will be recouped and the winning will begin
We both know that is a pipe dream,the lie our addiction has spun our brain
My advice,live within your means,if that means you eat beans for 60 days to fund the holiday so be it.
The key to recovery for me today is life has an end game,the result of prolonged abstinence is we can plan,budget and see the results.
If you choose to listen to the gambler the end game never comes,the losses do.
I hope you find the resolve to again arrest the punt
Abstain and maintain
Duncs stepping forward never back

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Sun, 22/06/2014 - 15:01

Rst.Ex-CG

Joined:
2013-11-22

So I'm back. Clean for 1 day after having a bit of a blow out the past week, need to get things out of my system. No more cash damage luckily and will get through to next payday ok with no extra loans so have calmed down now.

Dunc thanks for the harsh words, I needed them and looking at it I am still slowly paying off my debts and in a much better place than at the start of 2014. In 2014 I have lost 1,500 to gambling (putting this in perspective in Nov 2013 I lost this amount in one morning).

So I have this website, mr brightside, you and others to thank as I was in a bad way at the end of 2013. Yes so im still not in a great place but I think I am learning from my odd relapses. 48 days until my holiday, not long and I should be able to fund it even if paying off a little bit after as well.

I expect a relapse at sometime before 2015 hence why I have dropped out of the 2014 challenge but each time the losses are less and I look at things in a totally different light. Clean by 2105 my new moto.

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Tue, 24/06/2014 - 23:36

Rst.Ex-CG

Joined:
2013-11-22

3 days down, 46 to go. Out for a game of rounders after work tomorrow. Sort of a team building thing but just glad I'm kept preoccupied. So easy on a night with no plans to book aside time for focusing on gambling (as if by studying the games I bet on will help my success rate which I know is a lie).

Have a few days off in a couple of weeks so need to make a long list of things I can get done.

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Tue, 24/06/2014 - 23:49

mrbrightside

Joined:
2013-12-15

rst18 - good to see you posting again fella and really glad you're back on the challenge.

One small challenge to you personally - "I expect a relapse sometime before 2015" - really? Go into this pre-holiday phase believing what you've written and you will lapse.......your words are already pre-positioning it and almost "allowing" yourself it. Truly believe that you won't........go into the next phase of recovery believing that this is it this time........so the small personal challenge.........

On your days off, put yourself at the end of 2014 and begin writing what you see around about you. Write down how the world is going to look - your bank balance, your job, your debt, your holiday plans, your number of clean days, your relationships, the way you feel about yourself.......just paint a really vivid picture in your mind as to how it will be......and write it all down. Keep it somewhere that you can regularly read it and create a roadmap of how you can get there and what you need to do - know the path you will take. You are your own SatNav!!!

Enjoy the rounders tomorrow!!

Take care,

Mr B

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Thu, 26/06/2014 - 07:55

Rst.Ex-CG

Joined:
2013-11-22

Thanks Mr B, your right about looking to the end of 2014 with the number of days free from gambling.

That would be 193 days and at even 10 pounds a day saving would be enough to pay for a couple of luxury holidays away next year. I would have cleared 3000 of my debt. I would hopefully have achieved a pay rise and job upgrade helping me pay off my debts quicker in 2015. I can then live in a much simpler world where I don't feel I have to lie to friends family colleagues.

Relapse will not happen! That is my promise to you and this amazing and supportive community. 4 days down 189 to go then to 365 days in 2015.
Savings in 2015 - 3,650 pounds
Debt paid off in 2015 - 5,000 pounds.

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Thu, 26/06/2014 - 08:06

Rst.Ex-CG

Joined:
2013-11-22

One further thing to add to my list of benefits is my credit score which has been destroyed in the last year. So in case I do need to get a house or a loan for something I actually need there will not be a problem or any embarrassment.

Also my health and sleep patterns will be better alongside my physical appearance and we'll being. Need to get back into running and the gym as have a 10k obstacle course challenge in October.

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Thu, 26/06/2014 - 18:54

Rst.Ex-CG

Joined:
2013-11-22

So a new thing I'm going to do every day, this may become tedious for some but it keeps me challenging myself.
1. Days abstained
2. Days to go until 2015
3. Money saved
4. Debts paid off
5. Money spent on gambling...0 :)

Posted on:
Fri, 27/06/2014 - 18:51

Rst.Ex-CG

Joined:
2013-11-22

6 days free of gambling
187 days to go
48 pounds saved (8 pounds a day)
273 paid off, one of 2 debt payments came out today.
0 spent on gambling.

Glastonbury all this weekend some amazing acts but so expensive to go, so feel like I'm saving money and keeping dry by viewing It all from the comfort of home.

Friends going to ibiza in 3 weeks time would love to go even for a couple of nights. Flights 110 spending money at least 150 for 2 nights so I think il give it a miss. Without my debts that would be a no brainer but hopefully staying clean will mean I dont have these dilemmas in the future.

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Sat, 28/06/2014 - 22:48

Rst.Ex-CG

Joined:
2013-11-22

7 days free of gambling
186 days to go
56 pounds saved (8 pounds a day)
273 paid off, one of 2 debt payments came out today.
0 spent on gambling.

Good catch up with a friend and walked her dog and had a evening meal at a nice local pub.. No thoughts of gambling all day, although spent a bit of money but at least it was on something I enjoyed.

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Sun, 29/06/2014 - 07:40

I wished

Joined:
2014-04-25

Hi rst
I like your method with the diary well done on 7 days
Keep going and keep strong
Suzanne xx

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Sun, 29/06/2014 - 19:35

Rst.Ex-CG

Joined:
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8 days free of gambling
185 days to go
64 pounds saved.
273 paid off.
0 spent on gambling.

More Glastonbury today and signed up to be a mystery shopper so I can do something in my spare time and get a bit of cash for it too. Enjoyed the footy without a bet although saw Holland getting back in it and sort of wish I had a bet as the odds would have been good. Looking forward to a busy week and hope to turn down the gambling music in my head.

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Mon, 30/06/2014 - 23:45

Rst.Ex-CG

Joined:
2013-11-22

9 days free of gambling
184 days to go
72 pounds saved.
273 paid off.
0 spent on gambling

Busy at a football secretary meeting then watching Germany scrape through against Algeria, no thoughts this evening.

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Tue, 01/07/2014 - 21:52

Rst.Ex-CG

Joined:
2013-11-22

10 days free of gambling
183 days to go
80 pounds saved.
323 paid off. (50 to parents - 1st of month)
0 spent on gambling

Busy day at work and keeping in touch with Wimbledon watching all the favourites crash out has been fun knowing I didn't put a bet on. Cycled 10 miles round trip to footy at st George's park and had a really enjoyable game. Saving money and keeping fit as we'll no brainer :)

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Wed, 02/07/2014 - 18:09

Rst.Ex-CG

Joined:
2013-11-22

11 days free of gambling
182 days to go
88 pounds saved.
323 paid off.
0 spent on gambling

Early check in as I'm out for a few drinks with a friend tonight. Would prefer to have a night in and save 20/30 quid but there's only so many times I can turn people down before they are no longer there as a friend. People already seem suspicious but don't want to tell anybody yet, hope to have beat this by Christmas and then I can be more relaxed with spending my spare money.

So true about a video I watched on YouTube the other day about 'the secret addiction'. Well worth a watch.

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Fri, 04/07/2014 - 11:13

Rst.Ex-CG

Joined:
2013-11-22

12 days free of gambling
181 days to go
96 pounds saved.
323 paid off.
0 spent on gambling

Early morning post after a work night out, feeling rough but gambling far from my mind. Looking forward to a weekend in leeds coming up with tour de France on sat.

Posted on:
Sat, 05/07/2014 - 08:04

Rst.Ex-CG

Joined:
2013-11-22

13 days free of gambling
180 days to go
104 pounds saved.
323 paid off.
0 spent on gambling

Chilled evening seeing my friend in leeds, paid for my meal which was a bonus as had expected to spend 20 pounds on food and drink. Sort of takes off the pressure as I usually spend money at the weekend and think, "let's try and win that back so it was a free weekend", which actually sometimes turns into a 2/300 pounds loosing spree. Anyway off to watch the Tour de France

Posted on:
Sat, 05/07/2014 - 08:15

I wished

Joined:
2014-04-25

Hi rst
13 days and climbing well done to you
Enjoy watching Tour de France beats gambling doesn't it
Suzanne x

Posted on:
Sun, 06/07/2014 - 01:13

Rst.Ex-CG

Joined:
2013-11-22

14 days free of gambling
179 days to go
112 pounds saved.
323 paid off.
0 spent on gambling

Wow those 2 weeks went by quick. Very tiring day cycling from near leeds to Harrogate (the short cut not the one the professionals did) steady 40 mile round trip but it was such a fun day and puts everything into perspective. Got more of a buzz and feeling alive than at any other point this year. Definitely got my life music turned right up at the moment. More on that tomorrow. zzzzz

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Sun, 06/07/2014 - 19:31

Rst.Ex-CG

Joined:
2013-11-22

15 days free of gambling
178 days to go (33 until 2 week holiday)
120 pounds saved.
423 paid off - forgot 100 went out on 23rd.
0 spent on gambling

So back to the grind tomorrow but survived the weekend pretty well, didn't even look at the odds on tennis or anything.
A new feature every Sunday for me will be how the volume is turned up in different aspects of my life to drown out the gambling:
Life - 6 (10 being the loudest)
Family/Friends - 5
Gambling - 5
Financial Worry - 8 (this is worse than the noise from gambling and hopefully over time will be turned down)

Posted on:
Mon, 07/07/2014 - 21:47

Rst.Ex-CG

Joined:
2013-11-22

16 days free of gambling
177 days to go (32 until 2 week holiday)
128 pounds saved.
423 paid off
0 spent on gambling

Long day at work finalising a pricing menu model for over 100 pubs. Yes I'm the guy that hikes up prices in pubs for meals although we do also reduce them to make it more appealing too :). Just time for a budget shop, total spend 5.06 using a voucher for 1.14 that I got last time. Amazing what you can get for a fiver when being careful, makes me realise how crazy my shopping was after a big win.

Posted on:
Tue, 08/07/2014 - 18:59

Rst.Ex-CG

Joined:
2013-11-22

17 days free of gambling
176 days to go (31 until 2 week holiday)
136 pounds saved.
423 paid off
0 spent on gambling

So today went really quick. Tonight will be interesting as at work I got Germany in the sweepstake (don't consider this as gambling due to it not being secretive and on my mobile, which is my problem). Anyway might get 20 quid if they go through to the final so cheering them on tonight. But will use this as cash to pay back debts not to re bet, that old me is gone.

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