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First Month GF - Milestone Update

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#1 Posted on:
Sat, 30/06/2018 - 09:34

Sjr12

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2018-06-01

Hi, 

I thought I’d post a diary update as I’ve just reached my first month GF and it’s quite a milestone for me. I don’t ever remember going this long without gambling and I can’t tell you how great it feels. 

I’d be lying if I said it wasn’t easy, but weirdly I haven’t had excessive ‘cravings’ or temptations. But there is something in the back of my mind for sure. My mind is equally as determined to stop as my first GF day, the stakes for going back now are too high. 

During my first month GF, I have been presented with opportunities but it is not my desire to fall back into the trap. I’ve had my first payday that has not been spent on gambling too, I’m not financially better off with surplus cash due to my debts that I have to pay off - this part is quite disheartening but progress is progress and I will get there, eventually. 

I have felt on edge at times, anxious, nervous and getting agitated over the smallest things, the classic withdrawal symptoms.

I know I have such a long way to go and it is never just done, we are never just ‘cured’. I’m realising that this will be a constant battle in my mind for the rest of my life. Maybe the little demon in my head quietens down throughout this process.. he’s still there and always will be. 

I guess I also just want to thank each and every person who has taken the time out to help and give me advice, I have felt so alone in this dark place but coming here has changed my life. I honestly don’t know where I would be without the support. Thank you for everything so far!

Anyway, I plan on spending today having a mini celebration and chilling in the sun! Will keep posting on each milestone to share my experiences, there are so many people here who I can relate to. 

Last month, the house won. This month, I win! Cheers to that! 

Sjr x

Posted on:
Sun, 01/07/2018 - 12:09

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Joined:
2010-11-01

Hi Sjr12,

I congratulate you on your Ist milestone – abstaining for a whole month! Well done you, and I will say “keep going, and don’t ever look back”.

It seems like you’ve been struggling for a long while until you found our forum, and I’m glad our forum has supported you in achieving a month of and staying gamble free.

We also welcome your appreciation of all who contributed to your month of abstinence. May your new found hope, strategies, and your determination to stop gambling be realised and continue to be.

Yes the urge will be there but you don’t have to respond to the urge if you can replace  your gambling time with some other activities to distract you. It seems like the strategies that you are applying are producing positive result so keep to what is working for you, and keep looking for more strategies to add to keep you progressing in your recovery.

Now you know you’re not alone, and that help is readily available, and that Gamcare is here to give you a listening ear and to support too.

I wish you a happy celebration, and try and keep up the good work, and also keep posting!

Best wishes,

Beatrice