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Posted on:
Wed, 26/07/2017 - 19:29

Abstainer

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2017-05-10

Hi Sharon . Many thanks for your enlightened  post on my diary ;  " to be able to enjoy ' normal ' situations without gambling looming in your mind " . I liked that .

Only just realised that I didn't once think about gambling when out with my friend , that is excellent . When I had my gambling head on it sort of took over my life .

Changed the dressing on my poorly arm today , should heal up soon ( thankyou for asking ) .

Wondering what your new thread will be called ? ? Don't keep us in suspenders for too long ! ! 

Posted on:
Wed, 26/07/2017 - 22:28

Sharon41

Joined:
2017-03-16

Haha....just toying with starting a new thread :)

Posted on:
Wed, 26/07/2017 - 22:44

Sharon41

Joined:
2017-03-16

After a really up and down time lately just want say thanks to all the supportive lovelies here and will just leave this here. 'Remember how far you've  come,  not how far you have to go' S x

Posted on:
Fri, 28/07/2017 - 23:09

Abstainer

Joined:
2017-05-10

Thanks for that Sharon , wishing you a good GF weekend . Like your advice " Remember how far you've come , not how far you have to go " . I will bear that in mind when i'm beating myself up ! Got to give ourselves some slack , we are battling a monstrous addiction and it takes a lot out of us . 

I'm really sad when friends are struggling but it's heartwarming to see friends who are a long time into their recovery and remaining gamble free . It reminds me it can be done . 

Had counselling this afternoon and went to G A tonight . Maybe i'm overdosed on therapy ! My brain is frazzled .

So pleased you are doing so well . The support of friends like yourself has kept me going when I might otherwise have given in .

I think this time with my GamCare friends I have a real chance of overcoming my urges to gamble ....stephen. x 

Posted on:
Sat, 29/07/2017 - 21:13

Sharon41

Joined:
2017-03-16

As always thanks for being there along my journey, as you say this awful addiction takes us to the depths of despair. It really pains me to know of others here struggling and suffering. I only hope they can pull through and find inner happiness and recovery, I was thinking earlier that when I was caught in the ganbling cycle I existed, I wasn't living my life, But I can only see that now. So stay GF and have a peaceful weekend S:) 

Posted on:
Sat, 29/07/2017 - 21:20

Who am I

Joined:
2017-05-17

Keep going Sharon!!! You are doing amazing x

I hope to one day be where you are.

Posted on:
Sat, 29/07/2017 - 22:06

Sharon41

Joined:
2017-03-16

Thanks WAI,  I take this as a huge compliment. This journey has been my saviour as if I hadn't stopped gambling I think I might have gone over the edge mentally. Gambling had made me selfish, secretive and isolated. I feel I'm gradually becoming the 'real' Sharon again. I hope you find the strength and inner drive to get through this, you know that everyone here is with you every step of the way,  take care my friend S x

Posted on:
Sat, 29/07/2017 - 22:15

Who am I

Joined:
2017-05-17

Thank you and the words you say bring tears to my eyes: "This journey has been my saviour as if I hadn't stopped gambling I think I might have gone over the edge mentally. Gambling had made me selfish, secretive and isolated. I feel I'm gradually becoming the 'real' Sharon again".

Enjoy your mini break, you deserve it :) x

Posted on:
Sun, 30/07/2017 - 09:03

Sharon41

Joined:
2017-03-16

Sending every ounce of positivity your way WAI, cut yourself some slack, have some reflection then you'll be ready to come out fighting and we'll all be there to cheer you on. Thank you I'm looking forward to a few days away with my daughter to have a peaceful time. Take care hugs S:)

Posted on:
Sun, 30/07/2017 - 09:44

S.A

Joined:
Before 2009

Yes I guess I need to cut myself some slack. Ive just been ranting on my diary.

Have a nice time away with your daughter. take care... S.A :-)

Posted on:
Sun, 30/07/2017 - 10:35

Sharon41

Joined:
2017-03-16

You really do! It'S good to rant/talk/vent/cry.,,,,thanks again x

Posted on:
Sun, 30/07/2017 - 10:44

Loxxie

Joined:
2016-01-15

I'm glad my own journey helps others....you're doing just fine Sharon. ...and I'm over the moon to hear of the break youve managed to arrange....diesnt matter how small an achievement is hun....its been acheieved by you...because you made the choice to say "no more"...as time moves on...things will fall into place because youre making good choices....because youre facing youre addiction head on...and not letting it chain you up again...
Enjoy you're break....make lots of memories and be proud of what you've achieved xd

Posted on:
Thu, 03/08/2017 - 09:38

Matt 24

Joined:
2012-04-25

140 days, flying towards day 150, you go girl!

You are doing great and thanks again for your invaluable support on my diary.

Matt

 

Posted on:
Thu, 03/08/2017 - 09:46

Abstainer

Joined:
2017-05-10

Heard a whisper Sharon Superstars back in town Yeeehaa she's mean she's keen n ready to kick gambling demons up the butt  . Enormous respect and congratulations on 140 Days Gamble Free . Hope the holiday went well .

You have shown yourself to be a gutsy heroine , displaying courage , compassion , humour and wisdom . A real rock lending support to your friends and fellow travellers . 

Take good care of yourself Sharon . Wishing you peace , happiness , fun and good times . You deserve to be happy .

Posted on:
Thu, 03/08/2017 - 09:51

Sharon41

Joined:
2017-03-16

Thanks Matt, ditto!! So really enjoyed our minibreak, so good to have a small amount of disposable cash for some treats etc. Walked by the pier arcades one night and felt relieved to not feel tempted to put in 'just a twenty' where not that long ago I would have emptied my purse without a doubt. I definitely feel I'm in a different phase of recovery and am trying to look after myself and look to the future but still taking a day at a time, as always the support on this site is invaluable. Have a great GF day S:)

Posted on:
Thu, 03/08/2017 - 22:35

Sharon41

Joined:
2017-03-16

Stephen as always your generous words make my heart sing! Had a lovely break and am genuinely thinking less and less about gambling but know that this site and everyone encouraging me is my rock. I honestly wouldn't have progressed this far without it.Take care and here is to a GF future S:) 

Posted on:
Thu, 03/08/2017 - 22:40

Sars27

Joined:
2017-06-02

Good job Sharon ! 140 days that's awesome ! Keep it up ! Wohoooooo :) x

Posted on:
Mon, 07/08/2017 - 14:45

Sharon41

Joined:
2017-03-16

So hello Monday! Haven't posted much recently as work is super busy and to be honest I don't really think about gambling. Only when an e-mail or text pops up from Payplan am I reminded that I used to gamble literally every penny I had away.When I think back now I was in the full grip of gambling even though I thought I was in control. I praise they day I found this site and made the decision to put an end to the madness. I'm not claiming to have full recovered and that everything is peachy but life is liveable now instead of existing. Anyone at the beginning of their journey please hang in there, it will take time but it'S the only way forward. Have a great GF week and many more S:)

Posted on:
Tue, 08/08/2017 - 00:31

Our Lady

Joined:
2017-02-21

Hi Sharon.

Lovely to read that you are now "living" life again - it's good isn't it?!!

Have a lovely week ahead.

Our Lady 

Posted on:
Tue, 08/08/2017 - 12:23

Loxxie

Joined:
2016-01-15

Great to see you're in a better place Sharon...living life...even with its usual daily ups/downs...is way better than existing in an addictive state...and all the **** that comes with it...
Well done you xx

Posted on:
Tue, 08/08/2017 - 22:22

Sharon41

Joined:
2017-03-16

Thanks Loxxie, your diary and kind words are a source of inspiration S:)

Posted on:
Tue, 08/08/2017 - 23:52

Abstainer

Joined:
2017-05-10

 

Hi Sharon thankyou for the post on my diary , always appreciate your advice and encouragement . Think you would probably make a great Counsellor with your insight , compassion and understanding .

Just been to my Salsa class which was fun .

About to arrive in 90 Day GF . Plan to spend the day here and savour the moment , might just chill out , soak up the atmosphere . Than back on the road refreshed and ready to rock and roll . Below is a little reminder of the day Sharon Superstar passed through here .

Day 90...time seems to be effortlessly flicking by unlike in the early days when an hour seemed like an eternity. So good to do 'normal'things like pay bills, do a shop without being tight and looking forward to a minibreak. Still haunted by the losses but that money isn't coming back so to quote a phrase I heard today 'park it up and move on' Forever grateful to this site and everyone here happy GF evening people S :)

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Posted on:
Wed, 09/08/2017 - 00:02

Abstainer

Joined:
2017-05-10

Sorry Sharon I made a mess of sending that last post . As you will have noticed your 90 days  post is the last paragraph . All the other stuff is my thoughts . What an idjut I am x  

Posted on:
Wed, 09/08/2017 - 13:53

Matt 24

Joined:
2012-04-25

Hi Sharon

Hurtling towards 150 dys free of gambling, hats off to you girl.

Matt

Posted on:
Wed, 09/08/2017 - 14:39

Sharon41

Joined:
2017-03-16

Thank you both,  longstanding supporters and providers of inspiration/encouragement.  Sometimes it feels weird to have spilt alot of personal beans to people I didn't know but now feel like old friends. I know I would have got nowhere doing this journey alone for sure. Here's to GF if somewhat damp day, take care S:)

Posted on:
Wed, 09/08/2017 - 18:39

Who am I

Joined:
2017-05-17

Hi Sharon, 

So happy things are looking so much brighter for you nowadays and they will only continue to get better. Glad you enjoyed your minibreak; so many more good times to look forward to in the future. Onwards and upwards x

 

Posted on:
Wed, 09/08/2017 - 20:32

Sharon41

Joined:
2017-03-16

Thanks so much WAI for such thoughtful words, seriously feel like a different person these days doing 'normal' stuff and not dreading the evenings when I knew I would give in to gambling,  also waking up in the morning full of regret. But still aware that I need to stay focused and not think just a tenner is ok because it would be like opening a  can of worms. Take care and thinking of you on your journo to a GF future S x

Posted on:
Wed, 09/08/2017 - 20:41

dan1981

Joined:
2015-02-20

Hi I'm Dan a long term gambling addict. I have sought help in the past and felt I was going well until the past few months when on two occasions I lost my spare money within the first few days of being paid. I have been to GA and will try to go as frequently as I can and have contacted Gamcare for counselling which I previously had over an 18 month period and never had a gamble. I am now at the end of day 8 and feel ok although I really am in a position of the spare money I have this month will cover petrol and food and nothing else.

Posted on:
Fri, 11/08/2017 - 10:11

Sharon41

Joined:
2017-03-16

Hi Danm well done on day 8, there is lots of inspiration on help on this site, including admin. Best wishes for your journey S:)

 

Posted on:
Sat, 12/08/2017 - 21:08

Sharon41

Joined:
2017-03-16

On the eve of my 15th GF I feel liberated from the endless cycle of evening) Try not to gamble, give in with 'just £10', lose between 20-300. morning) Wake up either euphoric about win but planning next session or gutted over lose. This went on for 5 years, I am obviously p***ed off with myself but am also glad to have found the strength, mainly through this site to bring it to an end. So however people choice to stop and whichever methods they use anything is better than gambling. Have a great GF weekend S:)

Posted on:
Sat, 12/08/2017 - 22:29

Sharon41

Joined:
2017-03-16

*150

Posted on:
Sun, 13/08/2017 - 00:02

Abstainer

Joined:
2017-05-10

Yihaaaaa  Woohoo and Yabba Dabba Do......  Congratulations Sharon 150 Days GF .... Your a star getting brighter every day .

Posted on:
Sun, 13/08/2017 - 00:09

ItMattersMoreWh...

Joined:
2017-06-02

Awesome work Sharon, that's another day of living instead of being wasted on gambling.

Posted on:
Sun, 13/08/2017 - 02:16

Little miss lost

Joined:
2016-05-24

Congratulations Sharon, fantastic achievement!
We know how difficult it can be at times to overcome the 'tricks' our minds can play on us.
Spot on with your last post. Been there many a time. Just like you, I don't want to go back there.
Keep up all the good work. Enjoy the moment. Onward to the next milestone!! X

Posted on:
Sun, 13/08/2017 - 09:50

Sharon41

Joined:
2017-03-16

Morning, thanks so much for posting....I feel quite reflective thinking about how much I have got out of giving up gambling. Not just financially, it feels like I've opened a door on lots of things I had chosen to shut away for a long time, some good some bad. But having the clear headspace to address issues and take action has been priceless.

@Stephen You are one in a million...fact!

@It matters thank you and indeed everyday counts

@Lml Thank you for your support and understanding, onwards and upwards x

S x

Posted on:
Sun, 13/08/2017 - 22:06

Who am I

Joined:
2017-05-17

Congratulations Sharon on 150 days!!! So so happy for you x

Posted on:
Sun, 13/08/2017 - 22:19

S_J_B

Joined:
2013-05-25

150!!! Way to go ☺...well done you and keep up the good work!..rewards are endless huh, keep reaping them...You're worth it!

Ps. Santa IS real! How do i know? Because i feel like another miracle has happened every Xmas morning.. don't ask...i must lost the plot and imagine things now ;-)

Keep up good work and keep smiling ☺

B&S xx

Posted on:
Mon, 14/08/2017 - 10:56

Sharon41

Joined:
2017-03-16

Thanks heaps Hopeful, I imagine you're saying 'you're worth it' with a L'Oréal hair flick lol. Indeed Santa is real we all know it! Thanks again and here's to a GF week and future S:)

Posted on:
Mon, 14/08/2017 - 22:33

Abstainer

Joined:
2017-05-10

Likewise Sharon , hope your weeks a good un .

151 days is really wonderful ,  you've been through terrible  battles , the addiction knows our weak spots and is always there ready to pounce . Takes a lot of courage what you've done , battling this horrible addiction and protecting your loved ones from the fallout . The addiction has tried to prey on your feelings of remorse and regret to lure you back into gambling . You've stayed strong and resolute , determined to get your life back .

You have my utmost respect . Keep going Sharon . If you look behind you 56 days you'll see an old confused guy following your footsteps ! Ha ha thats me ..... stephen 

Posted on:
Tue, 15/08/2017 - 09:49

Sharon41

Joined:
2017-03-16

Hi Stephen, as always you are too kind! ! Without sounding soppy although technically yes I have racked up more days we are all in this together, whatever stage we're at and you really have brought a unique quality to the forum with good timing and a use of words that is fantastic. I must admit sometimes I feel I have been cut out to lead quite a solitary life (sound like a right saddo but you pro get what I'm saying) but knowing you guys are there means everything and more. My daughter has just gone on hols for a week with a friends family and I think I'Lloyd miss her more than I thought. Anyway, ramble over have a great day Stephen as you gallop up to 100 days....what a journey hey? Hope you see way to pursuing poetry or creative writing as you have a special gift. Take care S:)

Posted on:
Tue, 15/08/2017 - 10:02

Phil72

Joined:
2016-10-07

You're doing great Sharon. Thanks again for your supportive comment on my diary yesterday. Best wishes, Phil.

Posted on:
Tue, 15/08/2017 - 15:22

Matt 24

Joined:
2012-04-25

Hi Sharon

A belated congrats on your 150 days, A month or so away from half a year :-)

Keep going.

Matt

Posted on:
Tue, 15/08/2017 - 16:26

Sharon41

Joined:
2017-03-16

Thanks Matt, am a little jealous of your karaoke pursuits but glad you had a great weekend. Yep will keep going, live is for living being GF, take care S:)

Posted on:
Tue, 15/08/2017 - 17:14

Sars27

Joined:
2017-06-02

152 days wowwwww ! I'm super inspired :) . Well done Sharon ! Keep on sailing . Next target is to double the numbers obviously one day at a time ;) 

Sars 

Posted on:
Tue, 15/08/2017 - 19:42

Sharon41

Joined:
2017-03-16

Thanks Sars am really pleased and feeling more confident each day, although you're on great journey yourself!! Have a great GF week S:)

Posted on:
Sun, 20/08/2017 - 08:24

Abstainer

Joined:
2017-05-10

Thankyou Sharon for your kind words on my diary . Hope your daughter had a good holiday and is back safe and sound . Wishing you every happiness....stephen 

Posted on:
Mon, 21/08/2017 - 21:14

dan1981

Joined:
2015-02-20

Sharon41 wrote:

Hi Danm well done on day 8, there is lots of inspiration on help on this site, including admin. Best wishes for your journey S:)

 

Thank you i have now managed to achieve 19 days still very early as I have been here so many times but I am determined to keep going.

Posted on:
Tue, 22/08/2017 - 09:57

Sharon41

Joined:
2017-03-16

Well done 19 days is great! Yoi're definitely on the right track take care S:)

Posted on:
Tue, 22/08/2017 - 14:36

ItMattersMoreWh...

Joined:
2017-06-02

@Sharon41 fancy swapping GF days? You're smashing it!

Posted on:
Tue, 22/08/2017 - 15:24

Sharon41

Joined:
2017-03-16

A aah thanks Itmatters S:)

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