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Posted on:
Sat, 03/03/2018 - 15:59

adam123

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Actually its 70 already, horray ten weeks

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Sun, 04/03/2018 - 19:50

adam123

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Went to pub last night and today, felt strong enough at the time but think it was still too early, didn't drink alcohol and didn't gamble but I was tempted to have a drink, u know what they say if you keep going to a hairdressers eventually ud going to get a haircut. That's exactly how I feel with the pubs if I keep going ill have some alcohol and if I have alcohol the change will go in a fruity and the mess that is my life will re awaken. So I'm going to stick to if and not drink or gamble thru [email protected]

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Sun, 04/03/2018 - 19:53

adam123

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2015-06-09

I might have a drink on my birthday and Christmas I may not tho we will see

Posted on:
Sun, 04/03/2018 - 22:09

Forum admin

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2010-11-01

Hi Adam,

just wanted to congratulate you on your new-found resolve and focus. 60 days is very good going, well done for that.

As others and you have said - it looks like you've turned a corner.

Keep up the good work.

All the very best,

Eva

Forum Admin

Posted on:
Sun, 04/03/2018 - 23:53

Stephen The Strong

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2017-05-10

Congratulations Adam on your 10 weeks gamble free.

Great progress and an inspiration to myself and others.

Take care and keep blazing that trail...stephen 

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Mon, 05/03/2018 - 21:25

adam123

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2015-06-09

Thanks for the post Eva and Stephen means a lot.

So I've done two whole months now and i can say my life has completely changed. I'm healthier, ive lost half a stone through exercise and not drinking alcohol. Ive been to the gym a lot, I go with my mum now, we go about three to four times a week for about forty minutes a time, it defo works for me. Id not been to a pub for two whole months before Saturday, when i went it was good but I felt the urge for a drink to let my hair down, I did however resisf and I didn't gamble. I think ill give the pub a miss from now on tho its hard work not getting a haircut in a hairdressers if u keep going in. Work is happening, I'm going for less hours a week now but its a staggered return of sorts. I don't have as much of the associated stress anymore so that's good and its physical which I like. Got a meeting with a vocational expert for mental health problem people tomo. She keeps u in employment and coaches u I think. It'll be good to speak to her about all the problems ive had over the past ten years and what she can do to help. Then seeing my doctor on Thursday. So lots on a long with work. Here's to a continued break from stress...​

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Thu, 08/03/2018 - 22:12

adam123

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2015-06-09

Hello diary, I saw my docter today and she said I can drink alcohol again if I want to. Now I've not drunk since new years eve and even then it was only a couple. Going to pub tomo for a drink with friends, not sure whether to make it an alcoholic one or not. Its been a long time and ive lost a lot of weight so not drinking has done me well however I would like to have a drink occasionally .... Well I gues ill decide tomo might just have a half....

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Thu, 08/03/2018 - 22:39

Stephen The Strong

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2017-05-10

Your doing really well adam.

Excellent progress with a great attitude, plus your an inspiration to others.

Wishing you contentment, good times and happy days...stephen 

Posted on:
Fri, 09/03/2018 - 11:01

adam123

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2015-06-09

Thank you stephen

Posted on:
Fri, 09/03/2018 - 12:31

Cynical wife

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2015-06-23

Has 2018 been different precisely because you’ve not been drinking in the pub with the machines?

Posted on:
Fri, 09/03/2018 - 17:06

sjw

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2017-10-27

Hello Adam, yea i'd say just be careful with the going back to drinking. Im not saying you shouldn't, thats your choice of course but you have done great so far, don't let alcohol get you down. Its great to hear what you've done this year.

All the best mate, have a good weekend.

Posted on:
Fri, 09/03/2018 - 18:36

degenerate

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2013-05-10

I would not have some drinks at the first opportunity. You have been doing well without alcohol. Maybe wait a short while.

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Sun, 11/03/2018 - 18:05

adam123

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2015-06-09

Hi guys and girls, well I would say that not going to the pub definately helped, alcohol and change in a pub is a dangerous combination. I was a bit wary of drinking again because of the gambling aspect and the weight loss ive made its been super productive. However in order to let my hair down and socialise with my friends its important to not just stick to gym and home plus my mates go to pubs not coffee houses. So I went on Friday had about four or five drinks. Then Saturday went out and had a fair few drinks round a mates. I didn't gamble I did think about it as the machines are there and flashing but I kept strong and had a good time. I'm very proud of myself. I'm not going to pubs for a couple of weeks now as I want to save for holiday and I feel I've let my hair down and relaxed. It could have gone horribly wrong but I feel I've created a habbit now of not gambling and id like to stick at it.

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Mon, 12/03/2018 - 21:18

adam123

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Hello diary, on a bit of a come down after the highs of the weekend, lots of laughter and a few beers. Back to work today. Early night tonight then.....

Posted on:
Mon, 19/03/2018 - 19:31

adam123

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Really, really down today

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Wed, 21/03/2018 - 21:46

sjw

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Hello Adam,

Just seen your last post. How you doing mate?

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Thu, 22/03/2018 - 07:55

Ineffable

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2015-02-21

eAdam, recently things have not been going so well for me but somehow I managed to keep GF but realised drinking excessively is just aggravating the situation so I have resolved to stop for a month and see what happens. I think, partly, my low moods are triggered by alcohol and that then triggers me to lose interest in my physical fitness and diet and work, etc, etc. Hope fullI can get back to where I was in Jan and Feb.  I say this as I have read a few of your posts and wondered if you had any thoughts about what might be triggering your low mood?

Anyway, I wish you the very best and glad to see you are forging the way ahead.

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Sat, 24/03/2018 - 18:45

adam123

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2015-06-09

Hi sj and inef thanks for the posts, feeling a lot better now, a few days have passed, ive made plans to move out my parents this time next year. Gives me time to get back to full time work and be healthy, if gives me time to work on the wage I'm earning and it also gives me time to save for furniture I will need. I'm only earning 800 a month at the mo so I've got to work on getting better so I can work full time. Been decorating this and last weekend so I have been quite tired just worked out ill have worked 18 days in a row by nthis Thursday. Almost there, then I'm off work for four days. You migh ask why earn soo little for working all these days, well decorating doesn't pay just doing it for family. So now I will rest up tonight then gardening tomo all day. Keeps me busy I gues. Still not been to gym its been two weeks today but I have been busy so have burnt off the calories thru other ways. So all in all plan in place to move out and then I will be more independent and hopefully healthy and happy. Drink wise ive had one can of cider most evenings this week, not much but will not drink early next week to give myself a break.

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Tue, 27/03/2018 - 22:30

adam123

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2015-06-09

Update, not had a drink so far this week, not been out either, just stayed at home after work. Went to gym on way back from work today, felt good. Going to work two more days then off for four days , cant come soon enough completely knackered. So not gambled for 94 days its becoming pretty easy I feel I've got into the habbit of it now

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Wed, 28/03/2018 - 19:45

adam123

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2015-06-09

One more day at work tomo then off for four days completely knackered cant wait for a lye in and a day watching DVDs at home on Friday, a very good Friday indeed. Still not had a drink been three days now good to have a rest from it.

Posted on:
Mon, 02/04/2018 - 14:55

adam123

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2015-06-09

Hello, i'm at the end of my 4 day weekend and boy did i go off the rails.  Got drunk friday and saturday, spent a lot and regretting getting soo drunk.  It was a good couple of days tho.  Need to get back to being tee total again for  a couple of weeks get my life back in order.  Hit the 100 days of no gambling today, im also on about 460 days of not smoking all going very smoothly.

Posted on:
Mon, 02/04/2018 - 22:49

Stephen The Strong

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2017-05-10

Glad you enjoyed the Easter weekend Adam.

Congratulations and respect for your 100 days gamble free.

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Tue, 03/04/2018 - 19:40

sjw

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2017-10-27

Hello Adam,

Im a day late but that just means you are a day further ahead! Well done one 100 days, amazing to see you doing well with how much you was struggling before. Keep it going mate, you know what and where you could slip up so just be careful!

All the best.

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Tue, 03/04/2018 - 20:01

adam123

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2015-06-09

Thanks for the posts Stephen and sj, means a lot, I'm now an elder and will be using my knowledge to help newbies coming to the site in the hope that they will get better quicker than I did. Worked 7.5 hours today rather than 5 and I will have worked 35 hours for the week so I should earn a bit more money for mays paycheque happy days. Still recovering from the weekend,

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Tue, 03/04/2018 - 20:04

adam123

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2015-06-09

Ive cancelled next weekends plans as they involve drinking and travel and a hotel and I'm thinking I cant afford it. So ill have a quiet weekend for a month or so and cut back on the alcohol again, a healthy Adam is a smart Adam. Have a great evening people

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Sun, 08/04/2018 - 11:19

adam123

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2015-06-09

Right I didn't drink for a week then had a few yesterday round a mates, was better then going to a pubas its cheaper. I'm getting pretty savvy at this age in my life, I can see what's overpriced and what's good value. I'm going to buy the new star wars dvd tomoshould be good to watch I again. Well over a hundred gamble free days today horray.

Posted on:
Sun, 08/04/2018 - 18:22

Forum admin

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2010-11-01

Hi Adam,

belated congratulations on 107 gamble free days form us Forum Admins as well. It looks like you've finally got into the swing of things.

Keep up the excellent work!

All the very best,

Eva

Forum Admin

Posted on:
Mon, 09/04/2018 - 11:29

adam123

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2015-06-09

Thank u Eva, back to work today after a nice weekend, I feel rested and ready to take on whatever comes my way. I shall buy star wars DVD on way back fro m work horray.

Posted on:
Tue, 10/04/2018 - 10:37

adam123

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2015-06-09

I have a lot to be thankful for but I can't help feeling down at the mo. I'm wondering whether its because I'm not gambling my body is missing it.

Posted on:
Tue, 10/04/2018 - 11:18

adam123

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2015-06-09

U do get endorphins from gambling and feelings of expectation that cant really be replaced, plus I'm missing some of my poker buddies. I think I need to throw myself into something and that something is going to be the gym. Been watching the commanwealth games and it would be nice to have a healthy body to go with my unhealthy mind.

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Tue, 10/04/2018 - 20:13

adam123

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2015-06-09

Had thoughts of starting poker again tonight, even thought about going this evening for the start of the new season. Its the first time I've struggled to make the right decision in a while. Spoke to my mum about it and she sais d it was / is a bad idea. All from a message sent out on facebok about their upcoming finals. Its s funy how one thought and i completely forgot about how much effort its taken to get here. Well I'm safely still at home and I've spent hardly anything the past four months.

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Thu, 12/04/2018 - 17:58

adam123

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2015-06-09

Got thru my fleeting thoughts of poker. Thoughts of playing it safe, being strict with myself and not going on fruit machines. All complete ******** id not doubt spend a lot more money and get caught up in the act of gambling and ofcoarse id be back to the start again

​. Howver if it wasn't for my mum id definitely be back playing again so words of advice for others is when you have the thoughts of gambling again ask someone's advice, it wont be the answer you're loking for but it will be the correct one. So been at work all week, haven't spent any money socialy since Easter so that two weeks now which is good. Ive spent not including gym 450 pounds this year socially which is great and I've even paid for a festival and hotel for August which was 85. So all in all life is a lot more sensible and slighly more boring but the sensible road is the best one for me. Decorated my flat and got some new tenants in which is good. I have promissed myself that when these tenants decide to move on I will move out my parents and into the flat, it will be very tough on my small wage but hopefully well lets be positive I will be working full time then and will be able to afford all bills. Onwards and upwards.

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Thu, 12/04/2018 - 18:29

gtingo18

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Hi Adam.

Congratulations on making it this far into the recovery process, I hope I will be able to look back in time and say I made it this far myself. To avoid the pleasure of having a drink as well as battling the gambling urge is commendable, I freely admit for the time being I will be focusing purely on the gambling as I do like my real ales, but if drinking beer encouraged me to play fruit machines then I too would take the step to stop.

Brilliant willpower to resist the poker game, particularly if there were friends playing as the social element of it is an extra pull to get involved. Hopefully in the future when gambling is truly out of your life, more minor social pleasures such as this one may become feasible again. I think it's great you feel able to ask others for advice in the case of speaking to your mum, and shows you are open and honest with people. This can also make the lonely place of gambling not feel quite so lonely, I have personally confided in my best friend and will call him going forward whenever I feel in danger of relapsing.

Here's hopefully to many more hundreds of days of gamble free life for you to enjoy

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Mon, 16/04/2018 - 16:17

adam123

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2015-06-09

Hi gtingo, yep my doctors said I can drink again a month agoso ive been out a few times and had a few beers,machines were in sight and flashing but I know the consequences of playing them. Also ive made it this far without going to my pub poker games, its been hard but I've been finding new hobbies. This weekend I ended up having a curry in

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Mon, 16/04/2018 - 16:20

adam123

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2015-06-09

Crystal palace and playing golf in hassocks. Going to play a lot of golf this summer its very enjoyable. Also had a holiday day today so been relaxing, bit of a lye in then lunch and chilled.Back to work tomo but only start at midday so a lye in again... Happy days a successful diary this one horray.

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Tue, 17/04/2018 - 11:25

adam123

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2015-06-09

115 DAYS HORRAY.  ive worked out how long i need to be living with my parents, the longer i stay here the more stable my finances will be.  Is 40 too old to be still living with ur parents, i gues it is, but i would be in a much better financial position if i did.

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Sun, 22/04/2018 - 13:14

adam123

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2015-06-09

WELL IVE STUMBLED, made it to 119 days, went to a bbq yesturday with my poker friends ive not seen for a while.  Got really drunk and they started the poker game and i said that i wouldn't play for money but got tempted and didn't want to be left out so i played.  20 pounds gambled yesturday.  I did however have a very nice day and it was good to see them all again.  so back to day one today

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Sun, 22/04/2018 - 23:25

Stephen The Strong

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2017-05-10

Evening adam you little scallywag. It must have been very tempting for you seeing your friends sitting down for a game of poker and an acquaintance willing to give you a sub. I'm pleased that you have come back to the forum and not gone on a wrecking spree with your recovery.

Your starting on day 1 again but don't let that distract from your achievements over the last 119 days, you have done really well and shown a lot of courage and commitment.

 

 

 

Posted on:
Tue, 24/04/2018 - 10:58

adam123

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2015-06-09

Day three working at it, twenty pounds spent in a year on gambling would be pretty good so I'm aiming for that. Five months down so far

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Thu, 26/04/2018 - 21:43

adam123

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2015-06-09

Day five and looking forward to the weekend. No plans as yet but u never know what will come up. Ive spent two hundred so far this month twenty of which was wasted on gambling so looking to not spend much moreuntill next month when ive been paid. Still got thirty left in my account so might go for a coffee this weekend. I'm pretty devestated my run ofdays came to an end but I've come a long way since last year and am reaping in the rewards of changing my lifestyle. Ive not been to a pub poker game since December and don't intend to. Ive not smoked since new years 2016 so that's a result too. If I was smoking drinking and playing poker still I reckon id been in a lot of trouble right now. Of and out

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Thu, 26/04/2018 - 21:46

Mixer

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2016-12-03

You're doing great, Adam. Yes, you've had a minor slip up but - look, you've been honest and upfront about it and that's important. You've beat yourself up a bit, but that's Ok too. It shows you care. You're doing great, my friend :)

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Mon, 30/04/2018 - 18:58

adam123

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2015-06-09

Thanks mixer mate for the post means a lot. I'm feeling a bit meh today, maybe its because its Monday, maybe its because of the set back of day count or maybe its because my jobs not going too well.

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Tue, 01/05/2018 - 16:53

adam123

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2015-06-09

Feel better today, worked a full day and worked really hard, feel like I've walked a good few miles at work today, good exercise. Got paid yesterday and altho its not much if pays the mortgage and all other bills and leaves me with one hundred for the month. Going to go out on bank holiday weekend at the end of may for my birthday so will hopefully be able to save the money for then. Couple of quiet weeks ahead.

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Sat, 05/05/2018 - 22:02

adam123

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2015-06-09

lovely day at the beach today, sat in the sun, took a packed lunch, drunk four pack of ciders, sat contently looking and listening to the sea.  Simple pleasures ey.  The sun gives me vitamins and i feel soo much better in it.  Another couple of days in the sun sunday and monday so looking forward to that.  If i was still gambling online id no doubt be sitting in my bedroom all weekend watching snooker and gambling more money than i should.  Thankfully im enjoying more healthy pursuits now and reaping the benefits.  All my friends are still gambling and smoking and im thankfull that i can mostly stay clear of this.

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Sat, 12/05/2018 - 22:04

adam123

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2015-06-09

Weekly update, no gambling this week, had the urge to go to pub poker on Thursday but managed to stay clear. Had training at work this week and passed the exam so pleased with that. Went to town today and got some cds from a charity shop 50p each and managed to get some that id wanted for a while so pleased with that. Been going to gym three or four times a week and starting to see good results. I only weigh 12 stone 9 pounds now so down half a stone had to have a clear out of my wardrobe as everything was too big but luckily id kept clothes from when I was smaller in the loft ive gone from a large to a medium now horray. Lye in tomo so not sure what time ill get up prob walk to gym and go for a coffee. Happy days

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Mon, 14/05/2018 - 11:37

adam123

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Thought id do an update at a different time for a change. Went to gym yesterday then on the way back went to a harvestor and had a steak and some ciders in the sun, don't think id of been able to do that during my gambling period as id be thinking twenty pound for the fruity not for tangible things like food and drink. Anyway two weeks till ive got a couple of days holiday and my birthday, should be good. Gonna tighten the wallet strings this week so I can spend what I want over my birthday and not think about it. Off to work I go now start of a new week.......

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Tue, 15/05/2018 - 11:31

adam123

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2015-06-09

went to gym again last night.  Going to gym again tonight, love to have my addiction lye in something thats good for you.  Roll on two weeks for 5 days off work horray.

Posted on:
Mon, 21/05/2018 - 11:23

adam123

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2015-06-09

Back to work today, had a good weekend, need a week or two off alcohol. Time for a detox.

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Mon, 21/05/2018 - 21:52

adam123

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2015-06-09

day thirty navigated, got some overtime this week so up early tomo.... Day one of not drinking down. I will start to feel more healthy by the end of the week. Over and out.​

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Mon, 21/05/2018 - 22:03

Stephen The Strong

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2017-05-10

Congratulations adam on passing the 30 days mark.

Full of admiration for your determined attitude and upbeat approach. I think if anybody can do this, than you can.

I am plodding along a couple of weeks behind you and hope it stays that way ...stephen 

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