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#1 Posted on:
Wed, 08/11/2017 - 18:46

Fighter_1

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2014-01-07

Hi all,

Some of you may remember me from a few years back,  some may not.  

I previously broke the cycle and was on the mend and thinking I would never gamble again.

After more than 2 years free I moved into a new place last xmas time.  Money to burn with the arrival of my bonus and plenty of time I thought why not have a little to again,  what's he worst that can happen......

To cut a long story short I've been gambling again for 11 months and find myself 20k in the red ans with a baby here.  

I decided to stop yesterday after having that night that I completely forgot about.  Having lost everything I was short of an important debit.  I went to bed heart racing,  sweating and in a complete state of panic.  Things had to change.

In the morning I self excluded from everywhere new I had joined.  I am fortunate my credit rating is decent and my job pays pretty well so I managed to secure a consolidation loan.

Cards are now paid off.  Onwards and upwards.  I will not gamble again

Best wishes to all

 

 

Posted on:
Sun, 12/11/2017 - 17:47

Forum admin

Joined:
2010-11-01

Hello Fighter_1,

Well done for starting a diary, and congratulations on self-excluding from your gambling accounts. 

How has your week been?  You're welcome to continue sharing peer support here on the forum.  We also have group chatrooms if you'd like to chat with others in real time. 

If you need any extra help for your recovery, locally or online, you can call us on 0808 8020 133 for more information.

Take care,

Forum admin.

Posted on:
Mon, 13/11/2017 - 08:52

Wilsy

Joined:
2012-02-22

Hi Fighter,

sounds like you have hit your rock bottom just like me and realise that there is no better time than now to make changes. Good luck with your recovery, like a lot of us you have done it before so you can do it again, one day at a time.

Wilsy

Posted on:
Wed, 15/11/2017 - 20:40

Fighter_1

Joined:
2014-01-07

Week has been good,  channelled my thoughts and efforts into other things.

Thanks for taking the time to comment Wilsy.  I certainly have done it before which is why it is all the more frustrating to find myself back in this position, still I've come to terms with the fact I won't be winning it back which I guess is only a good thing. 

I find there is a direct correlation with my lifestyle choices and my gambling.  When I'm keeping physically active I really get into it and it has a positive impact on my life.  When not,  I can slip.

I started up again at the gym this week and now I know it'll become my new goal in life, seeing the improvements physically will keep me going.

Onwards and upwards and good luck with your recovery!

Posted on:
Wed, 15/11/2017 - 21:12

sjwsjw

Joined:
2017-10-27

Hard to admit a relapse but you've taken action to get things back on track. You've done this before and have experience on your side this time around. Lesson learnt (maybe look at if you need more/other blockers to help make things easier?).

Can only work on today, tomorrow has gone. Heres to your GF future. All the best.

Posted on:
Thu, 16/11/2017 - 22:38

Fighter_1

Joined:
2014-01-07

Blockers is something I've done,  maybe not to the extent I could do but I'm comfortable with it.

I've always only been an online gambler so I'm lucky I don't have the lure of the bookie.

I'll keep my guard up but feeeking good right now