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#1 Posted on:
Thu, 08/03/2018 - 11:57

M1927

Joined:
2018-03-08

 

Cold sweats, lying in bed next to your wife staring at the ceiling pretending everything is ok?

Looking at your kids face and seeing them happy and smiling oblivious to the world around them, and you are saying to yourself is ‘I need to STOP for them! They rely on me for everything’

But…………………

You tap on the app and transfer £10 to place a bet on some game of football on the other side of the world!

Don’t know their names?

Name of the stadium?

Top goal scorer?

Yet that £10 that could be spent taking your child swimming or a nice treat is being put on this game!

Then…………………..The world is on hold for 90mins and you keep checking

You lose internet connection

It feels like the earth has stopped turning

The house could be on fire

Yet you must! Connect back and see if that bet is winning???

 

You get out of bed and make an excuse to the wife you feel unwell and will go down on the sofa for a bit………….

 

Now the night feels lonely, dark and quiet and like nobody else in the world matters!

While your child sleeps, dreaming of the toys you promise, the life you will give them…..

 

But

 

£10 is on a 2 -2 draw

 

You get internet connection again, 5 mins left and its 2 – 1

 

Now your heart is beating, one more goal and its £160

 

3 mins left and BANG! It’s 2 – 2

 

All the thousands you have lost over the years!

The hundreds you lost this week!

The times you risked driving the car while watching your phone!

All the times you ignored your child dancing, laughing, learning a new thing

 

Non of these matter now!

 

60secs left…..it’s yours! You have finally beaten the bookie! You’re the winner! EVERYTHING IS GREAT!

You’re the best husband

Best Dad

Best ******* Gambler ever!!

 

Then……..

 

It’s gone…

 

Winning goal…….3-2

This was me!

And that dark lonely night was my last!

I sat there like my whole world had ended and said to myself “NO MORE!”

 

I thought to myself, on my deathbed will I look back and think about

The chances I missed? NO

The places I never went too? NO

The Car I never drove? NO

The days, weeks, months, years wasted gambling? YES!!

 

I have never done it since or ever will again!

Now the sun shines brighter, life is sweeter and I feel free! Something that can only be likened to somebody getting the all clear of a life threatening illness!

 

Live your life people, walk outside and breathe in the air, you are part of this jigsaw in whatever part big or small!

Rid yourself of the chains that quick money making can bind you and get back to being yourself!

 

It’s a beautiful world

Your beautiful

Your Free

You are finally the Real Winner!

Posted on:
Thu, 08/03/2018 - 13:48

caughtup

Joined:
2018-03-01

OMG... love this, good for you! Xx true words, very inspirational xx

Posted on:
Thu, 08/03/2018 - 15:38

M1927

Joined:
2018-03-08

Thanks! It feels great to be rid of such a pointless thing as gambling and I just hope others can get there!  

 

Posted on:
Thu, 08/03/2018 - 22:22

caughtup

Joined:
2018-03-01

Definitely, couldn’t agree more, complete waste of time and money... life is too precious! Congratulations on your beautiful life! Enjoy your family and tonight - your sleep! Take care x

Posted on:
Thu, 08/03/2018 - 23:04

M1927

Joined:
2018-03-08

Thanks, I’m here if you want to talk? 

 

Posted on:
Sat, 07/04/2018 - 19:26

caughtup

Joined:
2018-03-01

I didn’t see your reply until now, just viewed your post as inspired me so much last time! Annoyed at myself as threw money away again today so today is day 0, I have come clean to my mum and have self excluded, closed all sites and  feel like something as clicked today where I realise I won’t stop regardless of how much I win or lose! I have lost to much of my precious time to this awful habit and darkness! I believe I started to see if could try make more money for my family financially but along the way has got me hook line and sinker but I am a very strong person and got huge will power, so determined to crack this for good! Spring is here and this is the day I changed my life forever xx

Hope you are doing ok! Think is football for you, is slots for me! Together we can do it x Keep strong xx take care

 

 

 

Posted on:
Tue, 17/04/2018 - 11:23

wittle71

Joined:
2018-04-17

Brilliant

Posted on:
Wed, 25/04/2018 - 09:13

amanda077

Joined:
2018-04-25

I really loved it..great post :)

Posted on:
Thu, 10/05/2018 - 19:17

G100

Joined:
2018-05-02

Thanks for the post and reading your story was like reading my mind. I hope I can be like you and focus on the beautiful things in life. I’m at the start of my recent battle but reading stories like this makes me even more determined to turn my life around for me and my family.

Posted on:
Sun, 20/05/2018 - 02:28

Anne. 1

Joined:
2018-05-17

Thank you that was great to read so true and apt

Posted on:
Tue, 19/06/2018 - 08:00

markknopfler12

Joined:
2018-06-19

M1927 wrote:

Great post bro

Cold sweats, lying in bed next to your wife staring at the ceiling pretending everything is ok?

Looking at your kids face and seeing them happy and smiling oblivious to the world around them, and you are saying to yourself is ‘I need to STOP for them! They rely on me for everything’

But…………………

You tap on the app and transfer £10 to place a bet on some game of football on the other side of the world!

Don’t know their names?

Name of the stadium?

Top goal scorer?

Yet that £10 that could be spent taking your child swimming or a nice treat is being put on this game!

Then…………………..The world is on hold for 90mins and you keep checking

You lose internet connection

It feels like the earth has stopped turning

The house could be on fire

Yet you must! Connect back and see if that bet is winning???

 

You get out of bed and make an excuse to the wife you feel unwell and will go down on the sofa for a bit………….

 

Now the night feels lonely, dark and quiet and like nobody else in the world matters!

While your child sleeps, dreaming of the toys you promise, the life you will give them…..

 

But

 

£10 is on a 2 -2 draw

 

You get internet connection again, 5 mins left and its 2 – 1

 

Now your heart is beating, one more goal and its £160

 

3 mins left and BANG! It’s 2 – 2

 

All the thousands you have lost over the years!

The hundreds you lost this week!

The times you risked driving the car while watching your phone!

All the times you ignored your child dancing, laughing, learning a new thing

 

Non of these matter now!

 

60secs left…..it’s yours! You have finally beaten the bookie! You’re the winner! EVERYTHING IS GREAT!

You’re the best husband

Best Dad

Best ******* Gambler ever!!

 

Then……..

 

It’s gone…

 

Winning goal…….3-2

This was me!

And that dark lonely night was my last!

I sat there like my whole world had ended and said to myself “NO MORE!”

 

I thought to myself, on my deathbed will I look back and think about

The chances I missed? NO

The places I never went too? NO

The Car I never drove? NO

The days, weeks, months, years wasted gambling? YES!!

 

I have never done it since or ever will again!

Now the sun shines brighter, life is sweeter and I feel free! Something that can only be likened to somebody getting the all clear of a life threatening illness!

 

Live your life people, walk outside and breathe in the air, you are part of this jigsaw in whatever part big or small!

Rid yourself of the chains that quick money making can bind you and get back to being yourself!

 

It’s a beautiful world

Your beautiful

Your Free

You are finally the Real Winner!