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#1 Posted on:
Mon, 27/05/2013 - 04:36

S_J_B

Joined:
2013-05-25

Hello,

I only gambled for a year but it was enough to lose everything and get in to dept. I find it more and more struggle each day. I can't say i miss slots that much, i think i have got more time on my hands and all the rest of my problems start surfacing up. Its tough but i'm determined to stay off the hook! Roll on day 8

11/10/2013
5 months in my recovery with one slip and still fighting for my freedom. Putting few inspiring thoughts at the start of my diary to remind myself how far i went and what i learnt in my journey to better future.

"Every disappointment is an opportunity to start over. It’s a blank slate, a clean, white piece of paper. And don’t worry--if this time you still can’t color within the lines, you’ll get another blank sheet, as many new beginnings as you need".

No one is perfect. The human experience is an exercise in collecting disappointments and mistakes, ruminating on them for a little bit, and turning them into wisdom and growth.

Don’t scream at yourself. Speak to yourself with loving kindness, the same way you would to a friend who was just dealt a big, fat, unfair blow. You deserve kindness from everyone, including yourself.

“You can’t wait for the storm to be over. You have to learn how to dance in the rain.”

There is one thing that never, ever disappoints. And that’s hope. Hold onto it forever.

In this crazy world of high tech and high anxiety it is important to realize the power of slowing things down. Life does not have to be a daily race against time. You can choose to live at a gentler pace.
When you engage in the power of slow, you can keep distractions and haste at bay. Slow living does not mean you always crawl at a turtle’s pace. It means finding your custom-made speed and creating a more gratifying life as you pause to savor your experiences more fully.
The first step is to develop a positive relationship with time and a new attitude about how you use the hours in each day.

I have good days, bad days,
sane days and mad days.
There are heaven days, hell days
and coping sort of well days.
There are *** days, dry days and
" God i need to cry" days.
Then i have the Dread days:
The " i will stay in bed" days.
Also the days i smell success
and see my way out of this mess.
Those days when i look and feel great
and those days thunderous with hate..
These are my days, some full of strife,
some full of hope, this is my Life.
But there is this;.....they say it's true
That it's very much the same for you....

My wee pals Irene's words, which stuck with me in my recovery:
"The skating is a great analogy for living......when trying anything unfamiliar, we may need help, feel shakey and unsure. With practice and as our confidence builds, we get better and need to hold the railing less. We may still wobble occasionally but we will never give up!"

Gambling WAS my best friend, quiet corner to run away and hide.
Life will never be easy, but each day i open my eyes to the World i learn that i have to face my fears, look at my troubles in the eye and deal with them head on.
Every day i have a choice, and it's down to me to decide what i want from my future.
A day further from self destruction - a day closer to brighter tomorrow.

Viskas yra imanoma - anything is possible...just believe in yourselves

Few tunes which helped me on a way... Rihanna - what now http://youtu.be/b-3BI9AspYc Avicii - hey brother http://youtu.be/6Cp6mKbRTQY Icona Pop - I love it http://youtu.be/UxxajLWwzqY http://youtu.be/hpP2rpbRhxg S x

Posted on:
Mon, 27/05/2013 - 09:37

castle2

Joined:
2012-01-30

Hi Sandra

A big well done on the 7 days gamble free it might not seen much but when gambling has played a big part of ur life for the last year it takes a massive mental step change just to stop so be proud of urself for that as is really is not easy

Life problems play a massive part in why people gamble its sometimes easier to gamble and block all that pain away instead of facing up to them , finding the balance is key try to deal with what u can and the ones u can't leave them and dont worry till u can

Ultimately though it all comes down to choices to make that decision to choose whether to gamble or not , one will lead to a life of misery the one u know oh so well the other will be a life of whatever u make it , gambling is ruthless it will take everything from u it doesn't know when to stop , it takes all our self belief self confidence and replaces it with self hatred and loathing

Hopefully after 7 days the real u will start to return the confidence and belief will come back , each day u dont gamble will make u stronger and strength is the key in fighting this disease

Plan ur days well , boredom is another key factor and when u do go out take out what u need only take no chances and dont let complacency play any part

Stay close to this amazing site get all the support and advice there is and put into ur own recovery

I wish u all the best

Castle2

Posted on:
Mon, 27/05/2013 - 12:42

S_J_B

Joined:
2013-05-25

hello castle,
thank you very much for your reply, its amazing to know there is support out there. i didn't realize it's gonna be this tough, but i am ready for this journey to change my life, accepting all the help possible. This site is amazing, i don't know where would i be or do if not of all of you guys. Small steps at the time.

Posted on:
Mon, 27/05/2013 - 13:12

irene

Joined:
2012-11-12

Hi Sandra

Welcome to this forum! You are right, its a great place for support and sharing ideas.

Well done on taking the initial steps. I look forward to following your progress and wish you well!

Take care
Irene
x

Posted on:
Mon, 27/05/2013 - 19:28

atk85

Joined:
2012-06-05

Good on you for finding your way here, Sandra. You really are better off for having decided to quit the gambling. I was similar. My gambling went on for about a year and half, but I reached the point where you're probably at now where you need to stop for your own good. I wish you well on the start of an amazing journey. You can do this!
Best tip for the early days is if you have any urge to gamble, get yourself here instead. Post in your diary or read others. Urges will pass as the time will. You'll be stronger and will beat this.
All the best
Alex

Posted on:
Tue, 28/05/2013 - 03:20

S_J_B

Joined:
2013-05-25

Oh you all so great! I want to beat it and i hope i will. Its just started be very dificult to fight with myself. Im falling down a bit now. I don't gamble, just start having restless nights and facing all my demons if fall asleep. I can't believe i only had an hour kip last night, and dreamed of bloody slots. I know it took all my timebefore, but i don't want to spare a minute of my uncontious for that.
Anyway, day 8 (or 9 now) lost track in days really :-)
Just bring it on! I wont let it beat me!

You all take great care too guys, there is no one in a team. I believe we all will be free. Step at the time.

Posted on:
Tue, 28/05/2013 - 07:41

liberator

Joined:
2013-05-21

Hi Sandra, looks like we stopped together, I was hooked big time on the betting shop roulette, its been a period of 4 years that's seen my life spiral out of control and into debt, these things are evil.
Gamcare were great they got a councillor in place for me very quickly, this forum whether reading or posting is the place to gain strength and determination especially in those dark moments when the urges become strong.
Stay strong and true to yourself, be proud of day 8 money isn't everything, it helps but we have lives to live and try to enjoy.... Straight forward, no looking back fake care x

Posted on:
Tue, 28/05/2013 - 08:52

thetractor

Joined:
2013-05-27

Hello Sandra,

Congratulations for your decision and keep strong...i wish i could tell you how to defeat your demons,i cant because i cant do this for myself very well( but i fight it)...i also have this problem with nightmares,i can not sleep very well i dream of playing roulette...i think i shall move my jogging in the evening to exhaust myself and hope to sleep better....try to keep yorself busy!Be strong!Ivan

Posted on:
Tue, 28/05/2013 - 14:06

S_J_B

Joined:
2013-05-25

It's amazing to sleep at least 5 hours, i must of needed it after a week of struggle to sleep. I noticed, that if i get a bit down, i think about going back online, its like all the hate for myself floods up, and i just want to punish myself in a way, going back. I know i would loose again, so i must have some common sence not to go for it. Also thank you GamCare very much for suggesting web protection, that keeps my intentions well away, and of course helping to set up a counselling, which i start on Thursday. It's a challenge to go to see someone face to face, but now i start thinking how hard (or not) its gonna be, to keep all temptations away, because my sessions are gonna be in the heart of casino town. Don't get myself - i talk about the help im gonna get from Counselling, and my mind already on Casino and slots availability. But i suppose its double challenge for me, to face them all, and just say to my self NO- this time i come to this town to make a change in my life!
I will do it, because i see all of this mess is eating me alive inside out.
Thank you for your posts guys, keep your spirits high :)

sandra

Posted on:
Wed, 29/05/2013 - 09:15

S_J_B

Joined:
2013-05-25

Here we go, day 10. Feels like been to hell and back with my emotions. Have to stand and take better care for myself. Feel like going to the seaside, helps me to relax.
Roll on day 10 and so on .

Posted on:
Wed, 29/05/2013 - 14:51

atk85

Joined:
2012-06-05

Well done on your 10 days, Sandra. Double figures now. Don't look back. You can do this. Stay strong, be positive.
All the best
Alex

Posted on:
Wed, 29/05/2013 - 14:55

PhilB73

Joined:
2013-05-25

Sandra,

i have been 4 days now, and last night i dreamt i was gambling, pretty surreal, funny cos i didnt make me feel good in my dream, I was just frustrated and anxious......keep up the good work!!

Phil

Posted on:
Wed, 29/05/2013 - 16:48

S_J_B

Joined:
2013-05-25

thanx atk85 and Phil for posting.
I felt very low this morning, didn't know what to do with myself. I think i start thinking positive about all of this, i just thought - NO, i wont sit at home and feel sorry for myself, that just make me more miserable, instead i just went hairdressers, went shopping, filled my stomach after 10 days, and feel the whole lot better. Life goes on, and every single day is biggest achievement for me. i believe i will get out of this depressing state and find my old self. I'm sure i can do it, and i know we ALL can, so just stay strong and look forward.
One little tiny step at the time:)

Posted on:
Wed, 29/05/2013 - 17:57

liberator

Joined:
2013-05-21

Brick by brick, no looking back

Posted on:
Wed, 29/05/2013 - 22:00

S_J_B

Joined:
2013-05-25

Still day 10 and finally my body admits defeat and i can enjoy proper nights sleep in 7 days. Biggest thanx to Irene,Graham and the host we had tonight in chat room. It was fun. I feel great and would like to hold on to that feeling. Big day tomorrow,better get some rest.
Goodnight guys
Thanx for all your support, it means a lot to me.
Sandra

Posted on:
Thu, 30/05/2013 - 07:36

stu38

Joined:
2011-06-22

Hi Sandra
well done on your 10 days- brilliant! you can do it. I've just read your diary and really identify with it, I too have been dreaming about gambling and been feeling really low for a lot of my 20 gamble free days. I know that is to do with just missing the rush of it. I don't want to go back to those horrible feelings of despair and shame when I lost and lost and lost.
I'm glad you enjoyed the chat- I've really valued it too, wasn't able to get on there last night as was working but its really good to talk with others who understand.
stay strong- you can do it.
we will not gamble today
Stux

Posted on:
Thu, 30/05/2013 - 11:47

S_J_B

Joined:
2013-05-25

Thanx Stu for the post.
Well day 11 today, all my good last night feeling gone. New day i start miserable again... don't gamble, but going to casino town for my meeting. Temptations already there....I went so far . Cmon God please give me strentgh. I can do it, i want to do it, i get so much support and cant get back to square 1...
Cmon bring it on evil mashines, i dont need you anymore!

Posted on:
Thu, 30/05/2013 - 12:06

liberator

Joined:
2013-05-21

Hi Sandra, 10 days on I can't sleep those intrusive thoughts haunt me, I feel sick, I don't feel good, but I hope one day these thoughts will leave me, walk past the place and hate what it has done, imagine those machines covered in stinking manure, an evil cancer, we don't need em we re not gonna take it anymore..
We can do it together we are strong, focus on day to day things then one day Liberation.. stay strong

Posted on:
Thu, 30/05/2013 - 18:39

S_J_B

Joined:
2013-05-25

Proud of myself today,went to see counselor, and quite easily managed to walk pass all of them "entertaining places" , and found myself on a beach instead, having a little quiet time.
Rocky road ahead, im ready - i wont turn back anymore.
Keep strong everyone, there is no 1 in a team!

Posted on:
Thu, 30/05/2013 - 20:01

irene

Joined:
2012-11-12

Hey Sandra

It was great to catch up in "chat". You deserve to be proud- you are doing great!

I find it useful to anticipate potentially difficulties and work out a wee plan to manage them- looks like you did that today :-)

I hope the session went well.

Hopefully catch up soon
Irene
x

Posted on:
Fri, 31/05/2013 - 01:39

S_J_B

Joined:
2013-05-25

Thanx for your post Irene, i hope we catch up more in future;-)
Day 12 , im getting there slowly,seems like loosing my marbles a bit, but at least dont spend money. I feel another sleepless night ahead. Oh i hate it when cant sleep before my night shifts..been strange day altogether, too emotional, but here i am looking forward and facing reality.

Keep strong all of you, its worth looking to the future, changes always on a way. Only little step at the time - makes big difference ahead.

Thank you for all the support xx

Posted on:
Fri, 31/05/2013 - 01:39

S_J_B

Joined:
2013-05-25

Posted on:
Fri, 31/05/2013 - 08:44

stu38

Joined:
2011-06-22

hey Sandra
thanks for posting on my diary and lovely to talk with you on chat.
Well done for walking past temptation yesterday- you can do it, one day at a time.
Stuxx

Posted on:
Fri, 31/05/2013 - 15:38

S_J_B

Joined:
2013-05-25

Time goes slow today, tried to enjoy sunshine as much as possible. My mind is still racing, cravings still there, don't seem to get any easier. It's a shame, can't do any physical activities, feel a bit weak, since my mind decide to put my body on a "diet" .
Step by step i will put this puzzle of my life together, have to stay strong and beat this destroying disease.
roll on day 13

Stay strong everyone

Posted on:
Fri, 31/05/2013 - 22:27

irene

Joined:
2012-11-12

Hi Sandra

You are doing great! 12 days- fab :-)

I'm sure the "racing mind" will settle as you get more used to thinking without the gambling "fog". You are right, take it a wee bit at a time. Remember, the cravings are only thoughts (horrible ones!) but so long as we don't act on them we'll be fine :-)

Have a great weekend and keep at it!
Irene
x

Posted on:
Sat, 01/06/2013 - 01:00

S_J_B

Joined:
2013-05-25

Thanx Irene for your post, you are great support:-)

Well day 13... Not much to comment on that.. still at work, still few hours to rack up...found myself struggling with duties tonight. Hopefully better mood later on today.

Anyway nearly 2 weeks - keep it going..

There is a tiny little light at the end of the tunnel..

Stay strong everyone, best wishes

X

Posted on:
Sat, 01/06/2013 - 01:35

S_J_B

Joined:
2013-05-25

Thanx Irene for your post, you are great support:-)

Well day 13... Not much to comment on that.. still at work, still few hours to rack up...found myself struggling with duties tonight. Hopefully better mood later on today.

Anyway nearly 2 weeks - keep it going..

There is a tiny little light at the end of the tunnel..

Stay strong everyone, best wishes

X

Posted on:
Sat, 01/06/2013 - 12:33

S_J_B

Joined:
2013-05-25

Hi diary,
Restless night,run myself of my feet at work. A good thing though, the urge start going away. Bad thing - started emotional War with myself. Feel like all the running from my problems finally caught up with me, and hit me full force. Not sure if it's one of the feelings you should feel, overcoming this problem, but i surely didn't expect that.
I was constantly repeated, it's not going to be easy, it is a bumpy road, just didn't realized it can hit me through my past memories.
Anyway, time to pick myself up, and look forwards, i'm more and more determent every day to beat it . I know i can do and i will try my best and will. Roll on day 14 ! (yay nearly 2 weeks)

Thank you all for your support,
Stay strong, and remember - step at the time.
Sandra

Posted on:
Sat, 01/06/2013 - 21:35

irene

Joined:
2012-11-12

Hey Sandra

I know that post- nightshift feeling too well, yuk!
You are doing really well. You are right, the road can be bumpy but as each day passes, you'll deal with the bumps differently or even manage to avoid them :-)
Keep up the great effort
Irene
x

Posted on:
Sat, 01/06/2013 - 22:16

S_J_B

Joined:
2013-05-25

Hey Irene,
Well you make me laugh:-) yea, i know it might not help me rest wise, but it is at least a job. Keeps you motivted.

I hope you have a lovely weekend, thank you for you support
X

Posted on:
Sun, 02/06/2013 - 06:38

stu38

Joined:
2011-06-22

Hey Sandra, congratulations on your 2 weeks!, well done- brilliant achievement. It can be a difficult road and as you say there definitely are some bumps in it aren't there, but its worth it!
keep going- stay strong.
take care
Stux

Posted on:
Sun, 02/06/2013 - 06:49

S_J_B

Joined:
2013-05-25

Hello diary,

Day 14. Not too bad, getting there slowly. I think time has come to visit GP about my sleep and 'diet'. I really need to sort my healh out, not eating is not a laughing matter. Really struggled at work, it was right stresful night, my body aches, must of covered 30 miles running all over.
Had a lovely chat with a person who seems to know me more than i know myself at the minute. That felt like a proper slap in a face - wake up call. (even brought tears to my eyes) I only seem to see negative perspectives of my life, but you know what- im not doing too bad: i managed to stay away from evil mashines, i went on to see my counsellor, i start accepting help, and most of all i have got a new future to look forward to.

One step at the time. We will get there guys

SJ x

Posted on:
Sun, 02/06/2013 - 13:59

S_J_B

Joined:
2013-05-25

Finally had sum sleep, at least i know it is a last night at work tonight. Dreading tomorrow a little bit - second meeting..... Find it so much easier to put my thoughts down, instead of talking face to face. I used to be very good with eye contact, i know i lost self esteem now, can't take it looking at somebody. Shame, disappointment, embarrassment.
Evil habit took all my confidence of me, but Life goes on, and it's not too late to restore my old self. Hope and determination is still there, i can do it and WILL do it.
Roll on day 15!

Take care everyone
x

Posted on:
Sun, 02/06/2013 - 21:32

irene

Joined:
2012-11-12

Hi Sandra

2 weeks- well done :-)
I hope your shift's an easy one tonight.
You ARE doing it- keep it up!
Irene
x

Posted on:
Mon, 03/06/2013 - 02:57

S_J_B

Joined:
2013-05-25

Thanx for your post Irene :-)

Day 15, what a rollercoaster ride it's been for the last two weeks. To be honest after last 3 shifts, can't be bothered even to think about the destroyng addiction. Challenge comes in next two days,then i will have too much time on my hands. Feel better, hopefully nice weather coming up -do some gardening ( for the first time ) as they say there is always first for everything, so why not:-)
Thank you everyone for your support and advice, it can only get better - no way back!

Keep it up everyone, step at the time

*** cmon nearly home time *** :-) xxx

Posted on:
Mon, 03/06/2013 - 03:35

myles

Joined:
2013-03-04

Well done Sandra

The first few weeks are torrid because gambling consumes all thoughts (or at least it did for me). If you can compose yourself when the impulse comes and remember the commitment to change that you've made, you can talk yourself out of it once you consider how far you have come and how much can still be achieved.

Having an idea of things to do in free time is a good course of action. At least until the strongest impulses pass.

Good luck with everything, Myles

Posted on:
Mon, 03/06/2013 - 11:09

stu38

Joined:
2011-06-22

Hi Sandra
thanks for your kind words on my diary.
well done on getting through these first few weeks, its not easy is it but CONGRATULATIONS. Perhaps time for a little 'well done' treat, something simple that you can enjoy, even if its a nice bar of choc or glass of wine????
hope you have a good day today
Stuxx

Posted on:
Mon, 03/06/2013 - 19:08

S_J_B

Joined:
2013-05-25

Thank you for your posts Myles and Stu, helps me keep determination going:)
It's been very very emotional day, but i am very pleased, because i started letting things go. I suppose its OK to let them surface first, no matter how hard it is, but at least then you can start dealing with them bit by bit.
I'm so glad i found this site, and can express my feelings in a diary.
No looking back that's for sure, you can't change the past, but there is no reason why you couldn't create new future.

Stay strong everyone, we all can do it and we WILL do it, just believe in yourselves
Take care all
Sandra x

Posted on:
Tue, 04/06/2013 - 00:25

S_J_B

Joined:
2013-05-25

Day 16.

Checked my bank account tonight - its so strange not to see horrible sites transactions...Good im getting there.

I am so tired, but at the same time i cant make myself go to sleep.

Well, see what the day brings

Take care everyone x

Posted on:
Tue, 04/06/2013 - 02:22

duncanmac

Joined:
2012-01-26

Sandra.
may i take this opportunity to congratulate you on your continued abstinence.
you have a great deal of determination which will continue to serve you well.
your resolve grows with each post making your diary a pleasure to read.
keep up the good work.
be kind to yourself.
duncs stepping forward never back.

Posted on:
Tue, 04/06/2013 - 14:39

S_J_B

Joined:
2013-05-25

Thank you for posting Duncanmac.

Still day 16, got temptations today.probably couse had few too many last night, and dont feel too well today.No...need to find something to do. Its not worth ruining it all after doing quite well for two weeks.besides no money so why should i get in overdraft.
House in need for deep clean and hopefully will stop my head pounding.

Have to stay strong fir myself and everyone else. We are team and there is no 1 in a team.

Keep it up guys!
We will do it x

Posted on:
Tue, 04/06/2013 - 21:46

S_J_B

Joined:
2013-05-25

Hi all,
First would like to apologize for disapearing from the chat tonight. Had very important call to take...

Looking forward no way back.

Best luck to all of you

Sandra x

Posted on:
Wed, 05/06/2013 - 00:25

S_J_B

Joined:
2013-05-25

Hello diary,

Day 17. Half way through the month..not too bad, i suppose i should b proud of myself. I am actually in a way, it was tough time and is still hard to deal with it all, but i am getting help and support, it's amazing to know that there is people out there ready to take your call and lead you back on a path you seem to lose.
And of course there are so many people on this site who offers support, advice and encouraging words. Makes it all so much easier.
As far as i heard im heading to the next stage, a bit more dificult and challenging. Its like smoking, first few weeks you find it easier, but later on proper realisation of the habit strikes in. Im ready for it, take it day at the time with no looking back. And i know im not on my own - its a huge push for me to keep going.

Im up for the challenge, i will do it.

Take care all of you guys, i wish you to stay strong and move forwards.

Sandra xx

Posted on:
Wed, 05/06/2013 - 00:45

stu38

Joined:
2011-06-22

hey Sandra
thanks for the note on my diary, glad to hear you are ok. well done on day 17! take care, stay strong.
Stux

Posted on:
Wed, 05/06/2013 - 02:26

Adam321

Joined:
2012-07-31

Well done Sandra and you should definitely be proud of yourself. Every day without gambling is a great achievement. Just keep going now one day at a time I know what you mean about it getting harder after a few weeks ive struggled many times myself. But just think you could be posting on here in a couple of weeks saying how you've managed a full month without gambling that really would be an achievement and I look forward to seeing that diary entry from you. Keep up the good work.

Posted on:
Wed, 05/06/2013 - 14:21

S_J_B

Joined:
2013-05-25

Thank you for your posts Stu and Adam,

Each of our lives is a story of ambition, and they all appear to encourage someone. In the darkest hour the soul is full again, and it takes strength to continue what you have started and to endure anything.
If shared joy - it's double joy, if shared grief - leaving only half of it.
Much on the event, when actually stopped to look fear in the eye, we gain strength, courage, confidence. And i'm able to say to myself: -" I'm actually going through this horror - i can do it"!
Step at the time guys.

Sandra

Posted on:
Wed, 05/06/2013 - 14:28

Stubbsy

Joined:
2013-02-09

Hey Sandra, thank you for your message. I hope all's going well for you. Catch up on chat sometime.

Stub.

Posted on:
Thu, 06/06/2013 - 02:47

S_J_B

Joined:
2013-05-25

Thanx Stub we sure will:)

Day 18. Keeping myself busy at work. One foot in a 3rd week. I didn' t believe in myself uptil now. Great feeling to feel free from those evil destroying mashines. Determination to stay away growing bigger now.

No way back - never ever.
Best of luck guys, we will stick together and beat it!
Sandra

Posted on:
Thu, 06/06/2013 - 07:56

Charlottex

Joined:
2011-12-10

Hi Sandra,

Well done on 18 days gamble free, u r doing gr8 :)

Each day we do not gamble is a better one, u should be so proud of urself :)

Have a gr8 day xx

Posted on:
Thu, 06/06/2013 - 15:32

S_J_B

Joined:
2013-05-25

Thanx Charlotte,

That a day... No sleep all night and now another 12 hours to face....great.
Emotional roller coaster, rang my parents after a week and a half(couldn't face it doing earlier). Tough to pretend im all happy and doing well,while at the same time trying to hold tears back. Hate lying to them. Still running from reality, but im the one who created it, and i have to sort it out.

Roll on weekend, some time to relax.

take care guys, keep strong

Sandra

Posted on:
Thu, 06/06/2013 - 20:48

irene

Joined:
2012-11-12

Hi Sandra

Well done, you're doing great! I know it's not easy at times but your positive, determined attitude will get you through I'm sure.

Sorry I've not been about much this week, thanks so much for the encouragement.

Take care
Irene
x

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