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15th August 2017 - Today I feel sick!...

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#1 Posted on:
Tue, 15/08/2017 - 11:03

Moorey631986

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I've put that particular name for the title of my diary simply because every time I update it, I can remind myself of this particular moment....

I'm sat in my car in town, having just put £200 into a FOBT! 

Money that I have, but only as a result of somebody borrowing me that money because they thought I had other outstanding bills to pay.

I feel terrible about everything. I don't want any sympathy, but neither do I want berating further. I'm down enough as it is.

I really want to kick this habit into touch. No good is coming from it and everything just seems a blur. 

I think far more clearly when I'm not gambling.

I was going to wait a few days/weeks to post on here to accumulate some gamble free days, but then realised that I need the support and comfort of people on here. 

I realise this has to stop sooner rather than later. 

It's long been a problem in my life. I used to be able to gamble for pleasure. But something switched in my head about 5 years ago that made me start gambling for wins rather than entertainment. I really wish I could control my gambling becase when I could, I used to love it. Saturdays used to be so much fun.

But those 'Saturdays' have been every day (at least when I've been gambling...) and it's not fun anymore.

The time has come to STOP!

I have to make sure I make time every day to log onto here to update not only my diary but others too (once I'm in a position to start offering advice).

I want to make it to 100 days and beyond. My best is 34 days. Big challenge ahead but I'm going to give it everything.

Help and advice is always much appreciated. Thank you.

Moorey - A compulsive gambler.

Posted on:
Tue, 15/08/2017 - 11:35

Bal

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What steps do you intend to take to deal with your addiction?

Best wishes

Posted on:
Tue, 15/08/2017 - 11:48

Moorey631986

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The first step I've made is to permanently close the online betting account that I used.

Over the next couple of days I intend to tell somebody close to me about the last few months betting activity. I feel as though I need to tell somebody so that they can keep asking me how I'm getting on etc and to feel proud of myself when I tell them that I'm still not gambling....

That's what has been holding me back, I think. Or part of the reason.

It's also boredom and habit!

I've been able to stop myself today, when I've got another £600 that I could have used, so I know that I've got some element of self control. If only a small amount.... 

That's what I shall do for the time being....

It may not seem like a lot to you, but I have to tackle this with baby steps. I feel that telling somebody close to me will stop the bleeding and then once that's done, I can make further changes. 

The shops don't bother me at the moment in terms of needing to self exclude. I'm generally not a big fan of using them. If I feel tempted by them, that's when I shall act upon it. 

Posted on:
Tue, 15/08/2017 - 11:50

Bal

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Sounds like a plan so well done. Will also throw in conselling and/or GA as a thought.

Best wishes

Posted on:
Tue, 15/08/2017 - 12:02

Moorey631986

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I'll see how I progress before considering those options.

Thanks for your support Bal.

Posted on:
Tue, 15/08/2017 - 15:06

Moorey631986

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To make up for that 'Saturday sport' feeling that I'll be missing out on, I've subscribed to the Fantasy Football Premier League (free of charge) to give me something to focus on and be excited about at the weekend. Plus lots of people I know are involved so it'll be good to keep an eye on that for entertainment. 

I know some people will view that as dangerous territory but I think I'll be fine. Boredom (in my life) is a big reason why I gamble.

Financial pressure doesn't come into it. That's what frustrates me even more! I lose a lot of money when I really didn't need to. 

I gain nothing when I win because the money doesn't really make me any better off in terms of wealth or happiness....

Posted on:
Tue, 15/08/2017 - 15:13

Moorey631986

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It would be interesting to know how many of you would class this as gambling, even though it's free of charge....

Honest answers are appreciated.

I also love cricket and I want to do a fantasy cricket team in the Telegraph for the start of next season in April. 

It just gives me something to focus on and get the competitiveness and 'buzz' without parting with a single penny....

Posted on:
Tue, 15/08/2017 - 15:20

ALAN 135

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Hi there :)).

My downfall was alway's the fobt's but it's nearly 2 yrs sinc I went near one .

Your right in what you say about boredom being a big factor in going back to your old way's it alway's was for me , I work some wierd hours ( self emloyed ) and running off to the bookies fitted in perfectly with the spare time I had , so I think it's important that you fill your time as much as possible with new hobbies and adventures :))

Good on you for having the courage to open up to someone as well , we all need support on this journey and it also makes it difficult for gambling to keep hiding away as it's no longer just yourself your answerable to :)).

Wishing you well my friend :)) 

Posted on:
Tue, 15/08/2017 - 15:26

ALAN 135

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Sorry just seen your other question ....................?? 

I don't know if I'd think of it as gambling as such but that being said " If it's keeping your mind involved with the competiveness we associate with gambling , I'd kinda steer clear of it myself , even if it is free " , It took me many moons before I'd even watch a horse race on tv if I'm honest but now even that's lost it's appeal :)). 

Posted on:
Tue, 15/08/2017 - 16:05

Moorey631986

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ALAN 135 wrote:

Sorry just seen your other question ....................?? 

I don't know if I'd think of it as gambling as such but that being said " If it's keeping your mind involved with the competiveness we associate with gambling , I'd kinda steer clear of it myself , even if it is free " , It took me many moons before I'd even watch a horse race on tv if I'm honest but now even that's lost it's appeal :)). 

I totally get what you're saying Alan, and you could be right.

That said, everybody's triggers and motives are different when it comes to gambling. If I was money driven, then I'd be telling myself to stay WELL clear of anything, even Fantasy football....

But I don't consider myself to be money driven. Nor do I consider myself to be materially driven.

I've subscribed to it and selected my team etc but if I start to feel that urge to go back to the bookies/online etc then I'll tackle it straight on and know that I can't even do the Fantasy Football. 

FYI, I think most people will agree with you Alan...

Posted on:
Tue, 15/08/2017 - 16:07

Moorey631986

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The main thing is i need somebody else in my life to know about my gambling so that they can quiz me on it constantly. 

I'm a terrible liar and have such a conscience. I just wouldn't be able to lie! People would be shocked at my antics, given my mild, loving and gentle personality towards others. My gambling is totally against my generally personality.

Posted on:
Tue, 15/08/2017 - 16:19

Compulsive Gambler

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Hi Moorey

What's your deadline for telling someone? - overestimate if needed but it would be good for us (gamcare community) to give you space to do that and then check in on how it went for you - without hassling you in the meantime.  I personally couldn't recommend that as a big small step enough - it's very hard to actually do but can be critical.

Why only one though - why not tell everyone around you? (rhetorical) 

Fantasy Football - I do get that but the games are inundated with adverts - nearly always gambling related BUT fantasy football is certainly a better alternative than a £1 bet.

Just seen your last post - telling someone so they quiz you won't work. this is your addiction, for you to own and tackle.  It is not for you to put onto someone else and expect them to keep you in check - I'm sure that's not what you meant but it's how I read it.  For the record I used to think I was a terrible liar too - Pretty sure I was at somepoint.

Aside from FF what else would you like to fill your time with?

You seem to dismiss some of the support mechanisms quite quickly - you probably won't do this alone successfully so why not use the professional help that is out there?

Best wishes with the next steps, I look forward to reading about your 'confession' and seeing you reach 100 days - as a starting point.

 

Posted on:
Tue, 15/08/2017 - 16:49

Moorey631986

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Compulsive Gambler wrote:

Hi Moorey

What's your deadline for telling someone? - overestimate if needed but it would be good for us (gamcare community) to give you space to do that and then check in on how it went for you - without hassling you in the meantime.  I personally couldn't recommend that as a big small step enough - it's very hard to actually do but can be critical.

Why only one though - why not tell everyone around you? (rhetorical) 

Fantasy Football - I do get that but the games are inundated with adverts - nearly always gambling related BUT fantasy football is certainly a better alternative than a £1 bet.

Just seen your last post - telling someone so they quiz you won't work. this is your addiction, for you to own and tackle.  It is not for you to put onto someone else and expect them to keep you in check - I'm sure that's not what you meant but it's how I read it.  For the record I used to think I was a terrible liar too - Pretty sure I was at somepoint.

Aside from FF what else would you like to fill your time with?

You seem to dismiss some of the support mechanisms quite quickly - you probably won't do this alone successfully so why not use the professional help that is out there?

Best wishes with the next steps, I look forward to reading about your 'confession' and seeing you reach 100 days - as a starting point.

 

Hi Compulsive Gambler,

Thanks for your reply.

I think having somebody who I can totally trust and who I love with all my heart will help massively at this stage for me to break the cycle. It'll give me something to focus on - making sure I don't let that person down. 

I think you've misinterpreted my message. I don't want to put the emphasis on somebody else to make me quit. I want to be able to stand in front of someone and when asked, are you still gambling? Or where have you been? Etc.... for me to proudly say 'No, I haven't gambled!'. They are very awkward questions to fend off when you have been gambling. I've NEVER had anyone question me about my gambling because nobody knows that I've even a £1, let alone hundreds and thousands over the years!

I've not felt that pressure from anyone. It's all been done in secret. 

As for a time-frame. I really couldn't tell you. I'd like to have clocked up a few days gamble free before I say anything. Just to give myself something to feel positive about. 

It's not going to be easy. I've never done anything like this before. It's going to come as a massive shock. I don't know how people will take it. 

I'm still in shock myself to be honest. 

I'm desperately hoping that these feelings subside in the next few days. I've not done any real financial damage to myself but I just imagine what I could have used the money on to treat myself. 

I'll look to get back into running and watching films. Also socialising more friends.

Posted on:
Tue, 15/08/2017 - 17:07

Compulsive Gambler

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By the end of August 2017 then?

I get what you mean about being more positive, the trouble is as a compulsive gambler, as the intiial depression passes and we feel more positive, we often fool oursleves into thinking maybe we don't need to confess after all...

Posted on:
Tue, 15/08/2017 - 19:55

Moorey631986

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Compulsive Gambler wrote:

By the end of August 2017 then?

I get what you mean about being more positive, the trouble is as a compulsive gambler, as the intiial depression passes and we feel more positive, we often fool oursleves into thinking maybe we don't need to confess after all...

Possibly by the end of August, yes.

I'm just need to let the dust settle on what I have done today and give myself some reflection time. 

If I go into my 'confession' with a significant period of time gamble free under my belt, then it'll hopefully minimise any damage that I may cause to my loved ones. I need to prove that I am deadly serious about my challenge of abstaining from gambling and that I have some willpower.

Posted on:
Tue, 15/08/2017 - 20:07

Mixer

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2016-12-03

Hi Moorey,

I'm sorry to hear you're in the wars. But, guess what - same here.

I'm on Day 4 and, like you've said in your first post, want to get to Day 100. So, let's start again and do this, ok, shoulder to shoulder.  We'll gee each other up, and, importantly, keep it real.

I'll post on your diary daily, and you on mine? What do you say; we have history !!!

All the best, Mixer.

Posted on:
Tue, 15/08/2017 - 20:44

Moorey631986

Joined:
2016-09-08

Mixer wrote:

Hi Moorey,

I'm sorry to hear you're in the wars. But, guess what - same here.

I'm on Day 4 and, like you've said in your first post, want to get to Day 100. So, let's start again and do this, ok, shoulder to shoulder.  We'll gee each other up, and, importantly, keep it real.

I'll post on your diary daily, and you on mine? What do you say; we have history !!!

All the best, Mixer.

Deal, Mixer!... :)

Let's fight this together! We can do it.

I'm ready for this....

Posted on:
Wed, 16/08/2017 - 11:37

Moorey631986

Joined:
2016-09-08

1 day gamble free. 

Small beginnings.... but we all have to start somewhere.

Had some major urges already, I can't lie.

But just for today, I promise myself that I will NOT gamble.

Taking it one day (one hour) at a time. I want success.

Reading so many diaries this morning of people finding that success, and with it, lots of happiness. I want that myself.

Posted on:
Wed, 16/08/2017 - 14:08

Mixer

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You're right Moorey - we all have to start somewhere. Ok - this is the first footstep. Today - you will not gamble. We have a pact, for today, and I will not gamble either. I'm on Day 5, not much further ahead but every single day counts.Tomorrow, we will review our pact. But we will get today completed first. We can do this. We can succeed. Let's enjoy today! 

Posted on:
Wed, 16/08/2017 - 15:18

Bornagain

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2013-12-14

Well done on your one day gamble free, this recovery lark is all about taking one day at a time, if you can get through today then you can start again tomorrow and the days and weeks will quickly add up. I hope you stick at recovery and I hope you find the way that works best for you. Good luck buddy.

Posted on:
Thu, 17/08/2017 - 09:52

Moorey631986

Joined:
2016-09-08

2 days completed without gambling. 

Setting myself small targets. 

My first target is always 4 days for some reason. That's a number I consider to be 'on the way' to starting my recovery.

The fog is beginning to lift already after a hazy couple of days. Yesterday I felt like a zombie. 

I'm still smarting from the losses and I desperately want a quick fix to make it all better again, but I know there is no such option. I have to stay patient and ride it out. 

The money WILL come back again if I stay patient and gamble free. The amount I've spent over the last 6 weeks through gambling is a massive indicator that it will. It has to. Where else could it go?

I have to keep telling myself this!

I don't even need to cut back on things for a while to make it up, I just need to remain gamble free for a short period of time (and eventually beyond) and it'll be back. 

Easier said than done eh! Ha!

Onto the 3rd day....

Posted on:
Thu, 17/08/2017 - 09:54

Moorey631986

Joined:
2016-09-08

Big urges to gamble on Day 1...

But no urges whatsoever to gamble on Day 2.... it was the furthest thing from my mind. It actually made me feel sick just thinking about it.

Lets see what Day 3 holds in store...

Posted on:
Thu, 17/08/2017 - 11:34

Mixer

Joined:
2016-12-03

Good, good, Moorey - holding steady. Just remind yourself of those sick-to-the-stomach moments you get after a big loss - and how empty you feel. That'll get you through Day 3 :)

Posted on:
Fri, 18/08/2017 - 00:55

Moorey631986

Joined:
2016-09-08

As we head into Friday, I've stumbled across a quote that is quite fitting and a true description to my own past gambling habits..... Insanity!

Albert Einstein defines insanity as "doing the same thing over and over again and expecting different results...." 

Very true!... Why did I suddenly think that after years of failing in placing bets and spinning the roulette wheel, that the overall results of this would suddenly change!?!? It's ALWAYS destined to fail and lead me down a long, miserable road.

Posted on:
Fri, 18/08/2017 - 08:54

Mixer

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2016-12-03

You've got it in one, Moorey; Einstein certainly wouldn't have been a gambler!

I believe the more we study, the more we think about gambling the higher our distaste for it as we realise the simple truth. And that is, even if we win, we lose because we ALWAYS follow the same pattern; as Einstein would definitely attest:

When we gamble, in a given session (be it a minute, hour, day, week or months), we always follow the three steps below.

1. We will lose. 

2. We will win, and then (Step 3)

3. We will carry on until we lose more than we won. In other, words, we go back to Step 1. 

Yes, we always lose! 

I think, Moorey, that seals it for today and, the weekend while we're at it. GF it is!! 

Have an enjoyable day mate!

Mixer

Posted on:
Fri, 18/08/2017 - 17:34

Moorey631986

Joined:
2016-09-08

3 days completed without gambling.

The sense of loss is still there for me and probably will be until payday in 11 days where I begin to make amends and move some more money across to my savings. 

Let's all make it a gamble free weekend.

Posted on:
Fri, 18/08/2017 - 18:25

Mixer

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Good - 3 days under your belt Moorey.

As you say, this is a time when the gambling of the past really hurts. It's a heavy price, but these next 10 days should set you up for when you do get paid and remind you not to do a repeat. 

Another day tomorrow, and another day GF Moorey - that'll do for now!

All the best

Mixer

 

 

Posted on:
Fri, 18/08/2017 - 20:02

Hope28

Joined:
2017-06-18

Hi moorey just reading your post an I'm sorry you slipped back into gambling!but glad u are back on track an 3 days down 

I'm 61 days gf now an I can honestly say my life is completely different already an that was down to the 1st post I read on hear 61 days ago,yours!it was so helpful an really propelled me to think this is it!!my life as got to change!an it has an I'm still on the £1 a day so I'm always a winner £61 up :) 

I've still got a long road I no but I can honestly say I don't intend on gambling again!i said to myself it's either 'life' or 'gambling' an I'm definitely choosing life!! An I've read back through your post an u said about telling your family and friends close to u,I would definitely advise u to do this as soon as possible because it helped me no end!it took a lot off pressure off my shoulders,cause if I ever have a down day they are there to support me an get me through it!

So good luck fella on your new recovery an I no if any1 can make 100 days an a lot more you can thanks again 

Hope 28

 

Posted on:
Fri, 18/08/2017 - 21:50

Annie_25

Joined:
2017-07-05

Hi moorey 

Thanks for your post on my diary.You have 3 GF days completed already-thats great i think the early days are tough.

Love the einstein quote re insanity i can certainly relate to that too! 

Try not to be too hard on yourself about the sense of loss, you cant change whats happened but you can control your future.

I would encourage you to talk to someone a friend or family member, i know it can be daunting but coming from someone who has done this recently it has helped no end. They can provide support and advice but more importantly i think it helps not to bottle up all your feelings about gambling.

Wishing you a GF weekend

Annie x

 

Posted on:
Sun, 20/08/2017 - 08:14

Abstainer

Joined:
2017-05-10

Ho Moorey , thanks for your kind words on my diary , much appreciated . Great to have you back with 5 days GF . Early days but it can be the early days of a happier life for you . 

Your fully aware of all the strategies and coping mechanisms so its just a case of implementing them with gritted teeth and a cheery smile . 

Admittedly the thought of not gambling can be a bit unpalatable , but has time goes on and your taste buds change you might start to enjoy a gamble free life . You know their is nothing to lose as the gambling life is getting you nowhere anyway .

One day at a time ..... We can't win because we can't stop .....You can do it Moorey .... Best wishes  stephen

 

 

Posted on:
Sun, 20/08/2017 - 11:14

Moorey631986

Joined:
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Hope28 wrote:

Hi moorey just reading your post an I'm sorry you slipped back into gambling!but glad u are back on track an 3 days down 

I'm 61 days gf now an I can honestly say my life is completely different already an that was down to the 1st post I read on hear 61 days ago,yours!it was so helpful an really propelled me to think this is it!!my life as got to change!an it has an I'm still on the £1 a day so I'm always a winner £61 up :) 

I've still got a long road I no but I can honestly say I don't intend on gambling again!i said to myself it's either 'life' or 'gambling' an I'm definitely choosing life!! An I've read back through your post an u said about telling your family and friends close to u,I would definitely advise u to do this as soon as possible because it helped me no end!it took a lot off pressure off my shoulders,cause if I ever have a down day they are there to support me an get me through it!

So good luck fella on your new recovery an I no if any1 can make 100 days an a lot more you can thanks again 

Hope 28

 

Hi Hope, thanks for your message and words of support mate.

I'm touched that it was my message that has helped to lead you on the road to recovery. I'm glad I could help you. That alone makes such a difference. 

I'm 5 days gamble free and taking it one step at a time.

61 days is impressive stuff!!! You're well on your way. Life must start to be feeling good again!?

Keep it up mate. I'm hoping to always be 56 days behind :)

Posted on:
Sun, 20/08/2017 - 21:56

Abstainer

Joined:
2017-05-10

You helped a lot of people on the diaries Moorey , your input was greatly missed . Good to have you back alongside us so no more going awol .....take care 

Posted on:
Sun, 20/08/2017 - 22:04

Mixer

Joined:
2016-12-03

I echo your sentiment, Abstainer: Moorey is a good man. Great to be shoulder to shoulder with him as, day to day, we keep this gambling devil out of our lives. And, you're a good man too, Abstrainer. Wishing you continued day to day success. Strength in numbers - determination in numbers!

Mixer

 

Posted on:
Sun, 20/08/2017 - 23:18

ODAAT

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Hi Moorey, I know you don't want a kicking but you've been here nearly a year now & when Bal asked you what you were going to do differently, aside from closing your account you said you would be telling someone 'over the next couple of days'!  There's a reason why you have only ever managed 34 days & as you rightly point out, it's not financial!  I don't want to pick holes in everything you have written but it was the FOBT that bought you back here so regardless of whether they bother you or not @ the moment, what harm would excluding do?  You may well have had some self control shortly after your last slip but why do you even have access to that amount of money?  Recovery isn't going to come looking for you, you have to want it & work @ it!  Don't keep making excuses & putting off measures to help you...Those Saturday's are not coming back & unless you get a grip of this, visions of moving money around won't involve savings.  

It's great that you are able to support & help others, time to help yourself - ODAAT 

Posted on:
Mon, 21/08/2017 - 01:38

Moorey631986

Joined:
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ODAAT wrote:

Hi Moorey, I know you don't want a kicking but you've been here nearly a year now & when Bal asked you what you were going to do differently, aside from closing your account you said you would be telling someone 'over the next couple of days'!  There's a reason why you have only ever managed 34 days & as you rightly point out, it's not financial!  I don't want to pick holes in everything you have written but it was the FOBT that bought you back here so regardless of whether they bother you or not @ the moment, what harm would excluding do?  You may well have had some self control shortly after your last slip but why do you even have access to that amount of money?  Recovery isn't going to come looking for you, you have to want it & work @ it!  Don't keep making excuses & putting off measures to help you...Those Saturday's are not coming back & unless you get a grip of this, visions of moving money around won't involve savings.  

It's great that you are able to support & help others, time to help yourself - ODAAT 

It's about timing at the moment ODDAT....

Now is not a great time to drop any kind of bombshell onto my family. We're all having to deal with a lot of difficulty at the moment and I feel that it would be selfish of me to add further to all the problems. 

I take everything on board that what you and others have to say. I totally agree with it. 

When the time is right, I will do so. 

What I will do, perhaps tomorrow, is to self exclude from all bookies in my area. That is something that I can do right now. 

I feel more determined than ever to succeed. Maybe I was naive and inexperienced in the past, and didn't really want to quit. Maybe I wasn't ready to. 

But now feels different. I've not hit "rock bottom" as others would say and I'm scared to if I'm honest. I want to avoid that at all costs and not create any sort of a debt for myself. 

So in time, I will put more and more blocks in place whilst I'm accumulating gamble free days.

I want that magical 100 days (and beyond). That is a milestone that I'm chasing hard!

Thanks for your input ODAAT. 

I know you've got my back. 

Posted on:
Mon, 21/08/2017 - 07:46

Christer1

Joined:
2016-02-29

Make sure you do the multi self exclude easiest call I made and best in my recovery so far cause I don't have anywhere to turn to on days of boredom

Posted on:
Tue, 22/08/2017 - 11:20

Moorey631986

Joined:
2016-09-08

1 week gamble free! 

Posted on:
Tue, 22/08/2017 - 11:25

Mixer

Joined:
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*** Excellent Moorey :) ***

Posted on:
Wed, 23/08/2017 - 04:52

Christer1

Joined:
2016-02-29

Oh fffssssss I've relapsed.i hate my life

Posted on:
Wed, 23/08/2017 - 11:41

Moorey631986

Joined:
2016-09-08

Hi Christer, what triggered your relapse? I see you posted in the early hours of the morning.

What blocks do you currently have in place?

Get back in the saddle mate and try again. Get yourself in Mixer's challenge and work your way to 'Guru' status. We're a very friendly and supportive group. You can do this!

Moorey

Posted on:
Wed, 23/08/2017 - 11:57

chartom3

Joined:
2015-03-11

Sorry to here of your relapse Christer, had one  recently myself,its not easy mate but agree with above get back on that horse and get involved in the "GURU" challenge where there is lots of help and support......

Posted on:
Wed, 23/08/2017 - 14:11

Athena1991

Joined:
2016-09-17

 

Sorry to hear about your relapse but you can get yourself back in a good head space in no time and begin a long gf life! 

Keep strong and power through!

Athena 

Posted on:
Wed, 23/08/2017 - 15:09

Christer1

Joined:
2016-02-29

Thank you all yes I relapsed in blooming online markets cause I'm blocked from all local bookies but and I thought most online ones  but problem is they open up new ones every week.im so gutted within myself  furthest I've come is today luckily never spent much but yes thank you for support

Posted on:
Wed, 23/08/2017 - 15:10

Christer1

Joined:
2016-02-29

On the guru I'm back to being a newbee

Posted on:
Mon, 28/08/2017 - 22:26

Mixer

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2016-12-03

 

Hi Moorey,

I hope you're keeping well - missing you here mate :)

Take care,

Mixer